"Why didnt anyone tell me?"I asked angrily. Claire, Linda, Steven and Mikey were sitting on the couches in the lounge with me, informing me of Gerards problem. After he had tried to kill himself every time he got too stressed out he would go through these amnesia blackouts. The doctors said the test to figure out what it is exactly thats causing it is gonna cost like almost 2000 bucks or something and not even the government can pay for that. They said unless he gets himself in harms way, they wont do a thing. Bastards.

"Because we thought it had stopped. The last time was almost two years ago."Mikey sighed and flopped back into his pillows.
"Oh..."I sighed as well and finished tying Claire's hair up. She kissed me on the cheek then went running off into the back garden to play.

"Hi Gerard!"I heard her yell as she ran. We all looked towards the door to see Gerard's head pop around the corner.
"Hey guys... Whats going on?"He asked and walked in. He sat down next to me and put his arm around me. Fuck I couldn't handle it.

"Whats the last thing you remember?"Mikey asked him slowly.
"Uh... Leaving here... This morning... Fuck! It happened again didnt it?"He groaned. Steven nodded.
"Okay so what is the last actual thing you remember?"Steven asked again.

"Okay um... Kissing Frank goodbye then leaving here. To talk to Jade... Fuck..."He groaned again.
"Okay so I guess we have to get Jade here."Mikey sighed and pulled his phone out.

I shifted uncomfortably underneath Gerard's arm at the mention of Jade. I did not want her here at all. Even if she did call Steven and Mikey. I still didnt like her. At all.
"You okay?"Gerard whispered through my hair. I nodded and sent him a reassuring smile. He fell for it and got up.

"You guys want anything to drink?"He called as he went into the kitchen. Nobody replied. We all just sat in silence as Mikey started talking to Jade.

"Hey... Yeah he just woke up... When he left the house... Yeah we're all here... Yes he is here as well... Well see thats why we need you here... You were the last one to talk to the normal Gerard and he wants filling in... Okay cool I'll see you soon."Mikey hung up the phone and closed his eyes as Gerard walked back in with a glass of water.

"Just so you know, Claire is playing in the rain."Gerard said as he plonked himself down next to me.
"Oh for fucks sake."I grumbled as I got up to go get her. I walked out into the kitchen to see Claire trying to make a mud angel or something.

"Claire! What the fuck are you doing?!"I yelled at her as I walked out onto the patio.
"I'm playing guitar! Come play with me"She screamed back. Oh. I should have known.
"Claire come inside please! you'll catch a cold!"I yelled back realising just how mother-birdish I was acting. I did not want to be that person.

"What are you playing?"I asked as I walked out to her.
"I'm playing American Idiot!"She shouted as she thrashed about on the grass.
"Alright are you gonna sing?"I asked her, grinning at how soaked I already was.
"Yes!"She opened her eyes and watched me lie down next to her.

"From the top?"I asked as she stopped and smiled at me, the rain making me shiver.
"Okay... 1 2 3 4!"She yelled right in my ear. Immediately we started playing. Fuck it was actually really great.

"Finished now?"Gerard asked as we finished the song and started giggling together. It was moments like this that my love for Claire really shone like pretty much out of my fucking ass as well as everywhere else.

"Yup."I grinned as I helped Claire up. It was raining even harder and Gerard was standing next to us getting soaked.
"You do realise you have completely fucked your uniform right?"Gerard said as I shook my wet hair out of my face.

"Shit... Oh well It can be washed."I smiled and took Claire's hand. Nothing could ruin my mood right then. I was too ridiculously happy over nothing in particular. But of course I spoke way too soon.

We walked inside, struggling not to slip over, and into the lounge.
"Hello Fra- what the fuck?"Jade was leaning on the edge of the couch looking like she didnt want to be there and also like she had been crying. Good.

"We uh played a little music in the mud."I smiled sheepishly at everyone's open-mouthed faces.
"Right... Okay well the reason we stopped you from having your... moment was because Jade is here and she is telling us what happened."Mikey shook his head slightly and looked at Jade.

Claire and I stayed standing, dripping muddy water onto the carpet.
"Right so um. When Gerard got to the cafe we um we were just uh t-talking and then he um left and then he came back and- shit asked me why I had been crying and um thats when he uh-"

"Wait why were you crying?"Gerard interrupted her. She blushed furiously before looking down at her feet and mumbling something.
"What? I couldn't here you."I said rudely.

"I- its not something that needs to be discussed in front of everyone else... I'm surprised Gerard hasnt remembered why he was coming to see me in the first place."She glared at me.

"Wait wait... I remember now... Fucking hell!"Gerard yelled and slapped his hand to his head.
"What do you remember?"Mikey asked him.
"Everything! Jesus I was almost hit by a car and- fuck Frank I'm so sorry. I didn't- I couldn't remember shit please don't hate me?"Gerard turned to me and grabbed me by the arms.

"Gerard its okay don't worry it's not your fault."I smiled slightly at the amount of relief covering his face.
"Thank you."He smiled back and kissed me on the lips hard. I didn't kiss back purely because of everyone else in the room.

"I guess that means I'm not needed."Jade sighed and stood up properly.
"No. You aren't."I growled.
"I think you should go now."Gerard said sternly.
"Gerard why are you-"
"Wait Mikey. I will explain later. Jade. Leave."Gerard glared at her. Fuck that was an awesome sight.

Jade glanced at us all before walking out quietly, no one saying a word.
"Claire go get out of your dirty clothes."I nudged her on the shoulder as Mikey and Steven looked at Gerard and I expectantly.

We waited for Claire to run off upstairs, singing something I couldn't understand, before Gerard took a deep breath in.
"The times I slept with Jade- I um... Shit... I uh I spose I better start from the beginning."Gerard sighed.

"Take your time."Linda smiled encouragingly.
"Okay... After everything happened last month I um I went into the biggest reclusive state I had ever been in like, fucking worse than the last few times. But I still talked to Jade. She got me drunk one night and we uhm- she- I-"Gerard could cleared his throat as his hand scrabbled at mine. I gripped it tightly, lacing our fingers together so he could carry on.

"We slept together and then every few nights when I stayed at her flat she would get me drunk and uh yeah but L-Lily explained to me- well I sort of eavesdropped on her and Frank's conversation last night and the fact that she is 23 and I'm only-"

"She's 23?!"Linda exclaimed, standing up suddenly.
"Yes..."Gerard groaned and covered his face,"And because I'm only 17 and she got me drunk it can be considered rape and- fuck I dont know I- she lied to me and said that Frank doesn't want to be with me, she said she had talked to him and I fucking believed her!"Gerard shouted. He was getting angry now.

"Gerard keep calm. It cant be changed now."I said, pulling him closer to me. He leaned into me, resting his forehead onto my shoulder and sighed. At that moment Claire came back down in her favourite pyjamas.

"Hey Claire you wanna stay here and talk to Linda about um-"I looked to her for help.
"Claire you wanna hear a story about a little boy I used to know?"She smiled and gestured for her to come sit. Steven got up and left as Mikey came over to us.

"I need to get changed."I sighed as my feet squelched in my shoes.
"Yeah you really do..."Mikey grinned,"What the fuck were you doing?"
"Claire was playing air guitar on the ground so I joined her."I smiled and nudged Gerard off my shoulder.

"It was adorable."Gerard smiled at Mikey,"What are you doing then? Are you staying or going?"
"I was actually pulled from work so I really need to get back. Is that okay?"Mikey looked Gerard in the eye.

"Yeah yeah go for it. I'll uh I will see you tonight okay?"He smiled and went to hug Mikey but was stopped.
"Oh no you dont. You're way too wet."Mikey smiled.

"Catch ya later guys."Mikey waved and left Gerard and I standing. Linda was sitting on the couch with Claire talking very quietly. I couldn't see her face properly but it looked like she was crying slightly.

"I'm going to get out of these clothes... You coming?"Gerard pulled me by the hand slowly towards the stairs. I nodded and followed him up the stairs. As soon as I was past the doorway he had slammed it shut and was pushing me up against it, his lips pressing against mine hard.

"Fuck Gerard."I moaned as his thigh pushed between my legs, causing friction and an instant hard-on. His hands were in my wet hair as I wrapped mine around him, gripping him tightly.

"Gerard stop."I managed to get out. He pulled away slightly but started kissing my neck instead.
"Whats wrong?"He whispered in between kisses.
"Well number 1. Claire is downstairs and could come up at any time. 2. As hard as I might be right now I dont want to and 3. We have to go to art."I grinned as he finally pulled himself off me and stared at me.

"Why on earth are you wanting to go to art? It'll be almost over by the time we get there and we would have to go to english."Gerard moved away from me completely and sat down on a bed.
"Because. You are going to draw my eyes."I smiled simply and moved over to the drawers.

"Oh right... Well we dont have to go straight away you know... We can always stay late and do that."Gerard stared at me intently as I started shedding my muddy uniform.
"You should get out of your wet clothes..."I sighed as I pulled my shirt off, completely ignoring what he said.

"Okay... I understand... Can I draw your tattoos one day?"He asked as he stared at my bare, still slightly wet, torso.
"Yeah sure..."I mumbled as I pulled my pants off. They were sticking to me like crazy. Even worse, I had to change my underwear.

I stopped and stared as suddenly Gerard was half naked next to me getting his own clothes out.
"Stop staring perv."Gerard winked at me. I sniggered slightly but for some reason I couldn't look away from his pale white chest.

"Dude!"Gerard grinned as he used a t-shirt to pat himself down. Okay I wanted to do that for him. Without realising that I was doing so, I took the t-shirt from him and threw it behind me.

"What are you do-"I cut him off as I kissed him hard, wrapping my arms around his neck as he grabbed my hips and picked me up. I straddled his hips and he slammed me against the wall in a second.

His tongue was in my mouth suddenly, exploring everywhere and making me want him more. I raked my nails down his back only a little hard. Where did that even fucking come from? He threw his head back in response and yelled. That was when I opened my eyes I hadn't realised were closed. To see his face but instead I screamed at the sight of Claire standing in the doorway grinning like an idiot.

"Fuck Claire!"I yelled then shouted out as Gerard jumped back, dropping me in the process, and turned to look at Claire. I yelped as my bum hit the floor hard.
"You two were trying to make babies."Claire giggled. Fucking hell.

"I- Claire-"I didnt even know what to fucking say.
"You guys know you cant do that? You need a woman to make babies."She said. She couldn't stop fucking giggling it was insane. Gerard helped me up and made eyes at me.

"Claire what do you want?"I sighed as I rubbed my butt. Gerard moved behind me and started massaging it for me. Lovely.
"Linda said she has to get back to the school now and wants to know if you guys are coming."Claire smiled happily, looking like she had won the lotto.
"I-"I turned to Gerard and raised my eyebrows at him, looking him in the eyes.

"Fuck. Fine. Lets go."Gerard folded like a fucking lawn chair. I turned back to Claire and said,"Tell her we'll be down in two minutes."
"Five... I need to talk to Frank about something quickly."Gerard inserted.

Claire ran off and I looked at Gerard while pulling my clean clothes on awkwardly.
"So what did you want to talk about?"I asked him as he pulled a t-shirt on.
"Nothing... I just wanted time to do this."He came over to me, took my face in his hands, and kissed me softly on the lips.

It lasted just over a minute, but it felt like forever. It was perfect. He pulled away and left me standing there like an idiot. I turned around to watch him walk out of the room and start singing. Inside it felt like a fucking swarm of butterflies were trying to push out of my fucking stomach.