"Sorry fuck."He mumbled and moved away from leaning against the door.
"Gerard what the hell?! How long have you been there?"I screeched as Claire climbed onto my bed and clung to me.

I held her tightly as Gerard sat down on the end of my bed and rubbed his face.
"I'm sorry guys I just- I thought you were asleep and so I was just going to fall asleep on the floor or something cause Steve was up making a drink and told me the sleeping situation and I- I heard you telling Lily and I couldnt help but- listen."Gerard looked so upset.

"Just- how long were you there for?"Lily sighed and uprighted herself.
"Long enough to hear your thoughts on it all Lily..."Gerard said quietly.
"What do you think of that?"She asked him slowly.

"I dont know... I never thought of it that way..."
"Gerard you should talk to somebody about it. Someone with more authority because for all we know it could be rape."Lily said firmly. Jesus she was actually right.

"I know! Okay I just- its a lot to handle."Gerard fell onto his back and covered his eyes.
"What are you guys talking about?"Claire asked in my arms. Shit.
"Dont worry Claire just go back to sleep okay?"I murmured into her hair.
"I missed you Frankie."She smiled up at me.

"I missed you too kiddo. Now go to sleep its too late for you."I smiled and kissed her on the cheek. She snuggled down as I pulled the blankets over the both of us.
"Lily what do you want to be when you're older?"Gerard asked suddenly.

"I- Uh... I dont know... What has that got to do any of this? Gerard you need to get serious. This girl as a serious problem and you need to tell her whats going on. For all we know she could be completely oblivious to everything but her own feelings and how to get what she wants."Lily ignored Gerards question but I knew exactly why he asked her.

"Lily have you ever considered becoming a councilor or anything like that?"I asked her seriously even though she snorted at what I had just said.
"Oh my god you're serious?"She grinned at me.
"Yes. You are really good at helping people and getting them to talk about things.'I said, fighting the urge to smile at the dopey look on her face.
"Wow I never ever thought about it."She sat back in her pillows.

"Well think about it tomorrow because I want to sleep. We have school tomorrow."I sighed as I edged out from underneath Claire. Lily had snuggled down and was trying to sleep already.

I pulled out my pyjama bottoms and started to put them on without even thinking.
"Nice."Gerard smirked behind me. I spun around awkwardly.

"Dude do you mind?"I said as I fell down onto my bed.
"Not at all."He hrinned up at me from his bed.
"Gerard come on."I sighed and managed to cover myself up completely.

"You guys shut up."Lily sighed from her bed.
"Sorry Lily. I'm turning the light out now."I whispered as I darted around her bed and flicked the light off.

"Shit."I breathed. I couldn't see a fucking thing. I started scrabbling around in the dark, trying not to walk into anything and failing. I walked into something and feel over. I shoved my hands out to soften the force but I probably shouldn't have.

"Fuck Frank!"Gerard groaned as my hands slammed onto his chest and I toppled on top of him completely.
"Oh shit Gerard I'm sorry!"I yelped as I struggled to get up.

"Its okay just- wait-"
"Lemme-"
"Here."Gerard grabbed me by the hips and rolled over so he was on top of me.

"Gerard what are you doing?"I whispered. In my heart I knew I had already forgiven him and was relishing the fact that he was on top of me but I didn't want Gerard knowing how easily I folded.

"Frank..."He whispered. The way he said my name sent shivers down my spine. I couldn't stand how he made me feel, it was insane.

"What?"I replied harshly as I realised I was started to get hard just from him being on top of me. Fuck fuck fuck come on think of something else. Fucking what? Fuck. All I could think of was Gerard and the fact that our crotches were currently pressed together.

"I just- I need you."He whispered softly. I stopped freaking out and looked at the darkness that I assumed was his face.
"Gerard I cant-"can't what? Forgive him?

"No no I understand I just- I don't know..."Gerard sighed and got off of me. He sat down next to me. I stayed lying down until my problem was completely gone.

I sat up and turned to face him.
"Gerard... You make me-"
"Could you guys possibly leave the room before you have this chat? Because I'm trying to sleep."Lily interrupted me.

"Shit sorry Lily. Come on Gerard."I stood up and navigated my way to the door, Gerard following close behind. We walked out and I stared about, wondering where we should talk, when Gerard took the lead and led me into the bathroom.

"So... I make you...?"Gerard smiled as he flicked the light on and sat down on the edge of the bath. I put the toilet seat down and sat on it.

"You make me... Feel funny? You have this weird effect on me Gerard. I don't know what it is but... Yeah..."I looked away from his intense gaze and stared at some mould in the crevice between two tiles on the wall.

"Frank do you remember your first day here?"Gerard asked me quietly. How could I forget it? I got beaten up, made a friend and started to fall in love with Gerard. Wait what? What the actual fuck fuckity fuck?

"Yes."I choked out as my throat started to clog up at the thought that I might actually be in love with Gerard.
"I really wanted some fucking food but I left anyway."Gerard confused me with his weird sentence.

"Why did you leave?"I looked round at him and was startled to see him lying down in the bath. What the fuck is going on? Maybe I was asleep and this was all a dream.

"Because of you dumbass. People know to stay away from me. But you didn't and you just sat down next to me and tried talking to me. Nobody has ever done that since before I almost killed fucking Cole. You made me realise just how much I missed proper human contact."His eyes were closed.

I sat there, deep in thought about what he had said. I guess he sorta made me feel the same way. Before I moved to the halfway house, the only people I had ever talked to were Claire, Lily and occasionally Mrs Macy. Then when I came here it was like Gerard had pulled me out of a shell I didn't even know was surrounding me. Fuck.

"What the fuck are you in the bath for?"I asked him, my curiosity getting the better of me.
"Oh I'm tired and I think better when I'm lying down."He opened his eyes and looked at me.

His eyes were glittering from the reflection of the lights above us. It was gorgeous.
"Do we have art tomorrow?"I asked suddenly.
"Uh I think so why?"He sat up slowly and looked at me.

"You wanna draw my eyes?"I raised an eyebrow at his glowing face.
"I wasn't actually going to go to school tomorrow... I was gonna go to Jades."He sighed and fell back down. He hit his head on the bottom of the bath, making a loud thumping noise, but he didn't even flinch.

"Oh... Well maybe whatever it is that you're planning on doing won't take all day?"I looked down at my hands, trying to keep the jealousy, anger and hope out of my voice. I failed miserably.

"You don't need to worry. I'm telling her that we're over and that I can't be friends with her right now. All that shit. So I suppose it won't take all day. I will meet you at art okay?"He got up out of the bath and smiled at me,"Lets go to bed aye?"He held his hand out for me.

I stood up and took it. His hand was so warm and, as usual, that warmth spread right to my face and turned it the colour of beetreoot. It was horrible. Just like beetroot. I hated that vege. Was it even a fucking vege? Its just thes disgusting purple blooded hairy ball.

"What are you thinking about?"Gerard asked me suddenly as he pulled me out of the bathroom.
"Uh... Beetroot."I blushed an even darkeer shade of red. Thankfully we were out in the dark hallway so Gerard couldn't see.

"Uh okay... I'm not even gonna bother asking."Gerard snorted slightly. I could feel my palms starting to sweat. Great. We opened the door to our room and stopped.

"Gerard do you have your phone on you? I can't see a fucking thing."I whispered and stared into the blackness. Out in the hallway it was brighter thanks to a window letting in some light from outside. But in here, where the curtain was shut and somehow no light was reaching into our room, it was pitch black. Darker than that even.

"Uh yeah hold on."Gerard said as he scrabbled for his phone. Suddenly there was light glowing from the small screen. I walked in and stared at Claire. She was in my bed, completely tangled in blankets, half off the edge, and taking up almost all the space somehow. Seriously, I didnt know how she did it she was fucking tiny.

"Lets see..."I sighed as I started trying to rearrange Claire. I carefully pushed her legs back onto the bed and spread the blanket over her properly.
"No Frank just sleep in my bed I'll- sleep downstairs."Gerard sighed and left me alone. I didnt want him sleeping downstairs by himself but I couldn't have Claire wake up and not have me be there.

I sighed and plonked myself down on Gerards bed. Even though I had been sleeping in it the past few weeks I felt wrong and awkward just thinking about sleeping in it. Gerard was actually here now.

I lay down on the bed, staying on top of the blankets, and stared at the seemingly non-existant ceiling. Gerard said I had changed him. Made him want human contact. My contact. Jesus.

Before I knew what I was actually doing I got up off the bed and walked straight to the door, not even bumping into anything, and started making my way downstairs.

I walked into the lounge where the moonlight was shining through the front windows brightly on the couch. He had his back to the window/me and was shaking.

I padded over in my barefeet and pulled black his one thin blanket. He looked up at me and smiled.
"I didn't feel right leaving you down here by yourself."I whispered as I climbed under the blankets next to him.

He maneuvered himself around so that I was lying on top of him somehow. I dont know how he did it but suddenly I was lying on top of him, resting my head on his chest happily. He pulled the blanket over us both and kissed me lightly on the top of my head.

"Goodnight Frank."He whispered into my hair.
"Night Gerard..."I love you... Do I really love him? I couldnt tell. I didnt know what it fucking felt like but right now it felt like fucking paradise just lying in Gerards arms. I closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep.