I stared up at her. She was quite intimidating close up.
"I don't like you and you don't like me. But we both like Gerard so we are gonna have to share him. Okay? I refuse to give him up."She glared down at me.

"Uh..."What the fuck was I supposed to say? Jade was fucking insane. She let go of my arms and leaned against the car next to me. She pulled out a smoke out and lit it right as Gerard walked out.

"Oh hey Jade. Di told me you were here. Thought you were still inside."He said as he walked up to us slowly. I could barely look at him. Seeing the two of them together was fucking killing me.

"Don't I get a hug?"Jade said as she wrappped her arms around him. He patted her on the back awkwardly then detached himself.
"You ready to go?"He asked me, trying to keep an air of normality.

"Where are you guys going?"Jade asked, blowing smoke in my pissed off face.
"I'm taking him home."Gerard sighed.
"Oh right... Gerard that was really amazing before. So beautiful."Jade said, stubbing her smoke out on the ground.

"Uh thanks. Frank needs to get home though so I can't stay and chat. Sorry."Gerard said. He gave Jade a quick hug before unlocking the car.

"Okay well are you coming back to mine tonight?"She asked as I got in the car. I shut the door quickly to hide the hot tears as Gerard stood by the open door.

"Uh not tonight. I need to talk to F-Mikey."I heard him say. This was going to be a very fun car ride. Gerard got in the car and sighed.

"Frank I-"
"Just drive."I sniffed and looked out the window at Jade. She was starinng at me, grinning. Fucking bitch.

Gerard started the car but turned it off again.
"Frank I can't drive. I'm too fucking... Ugh I feel too sick."He clenched the staring wheel and banged his head against it.

"Gerard don't bang your head."I said, being a complete hypocrite by banging my head against my head rest once. He snorted at me before sighing.
"So tell me... What is it exactly thats going on between you and Jade?"I looked over at him.

There was a tap on my window. I looked out and jumped. Jades face was right there. I wound down the window and raised an eyebrow at her.
"What are you guys doing?"She asked.
"Uh just I um-"
"He left Daisy inside so I'm just going to grab her for him."I smiled and got out of the car.

"Oh so you're going to stay at Petes tonight? I'll come say hi!"She smiled as I shut the door.
"No! I just mean uh I wont be there uh I'm staying at the house tonight."Gerard smiled at her. Fuck.
"Oh right... Okay well I guess I will see you tomorrow."She smiled.

"Gerard where did you put it?"I asked, leaning in the car window next to Jade.
"Oh uh Mikey should have it."He smiled.
"Kay... Jade walk with me."I said sternly.

"Uh okay..."She gave Gerard a look and followed me inside.
"I dont know what your fucking deal is but I'm finding out tonight okay? I dont trust you. You aren't good for Gerard in my eyes and I want you out of my fucking life. I am going to do whatever I can to get you out of Gerards life as well."I smiled at her sweetly before rushing off towards the back where Mikey was talking with Bob, Ray and Pete.

"Hey guys ahh Gerard wants Daisy.'I smiled.
"Oh uh Daisy is in her case out the back. Its where I keep it most of the time."Mikey smiled up at me.
"Thanks. How are you guys getting home?"I asked them all suddenly.
"Gerards coming back to take us... Right?"Pete looked worried.

"He said before he is staying at the house tonight and thats where he is taking me... I will ask him."I smiled and rushed off before they could freak out on me.

"Hey Frank I thought you left?"Diane popped up from behind the counter.
"Uh yeah I just need Gerards guitar."I smiled.
"Oh right I'll go grab it, hold up."She left me standing there awkwardly.

"Frank."Someone said behind me. I turned around to find Jade staring down at me.
"Yes?"I turned and faced the counter again. I did not have the fucking patience to deal with her right now.
"Fucking face me when I'm talking to you."She grabbed my shoulder and yanked me around. Fuck that actually really hurt.

"Jade I have nothing more to say to you. You're a manipulative bitch and I dont know why Gerard even talks to you."
"Because I was his fucking therapist for 3 months."She growled. What? I looked up and scanned her face. It seemed as if she was telling the truth.
"Yeah. So dont go assuming things just because you're fucking jealous."She smiled brightly.

"Here you go Frank... Everything okay here?"Diane handed me the guitar, taking in my face.
"Uh sure I was just saying how um cool Jades tats are..."I smiled at Diane and thanked her.

I started walking away but stopped and looked back at Jade. She was staring at me with a weird look on her face. I had no fucking idea what to think. I looked back and continued walking out.

"You ready to go?"I asked Gerard as I stuck Daisy in the back of the car.
"Yeah..."He sighed and started the car as I got in the front seat.

He started the car up and slowly drove away from The Magic Bean. We were silent for a few minutes before I felt the car slowing to a stop then Gerard turned the car off and turned in his seat to face me.

I looked out the window. We were down some pitch black street. I could just make out a house in front of my window but that was it.
"Gerard please explain to me everything you think needs explaining."I sighed and undid my seatbelt for comfort and turned to face him.

"Okay... I've known Jade for a very long time... When I tried to kill myself Mikey took it upon himself to turn up at the house for the first time in a year and tell Steven that I was suicidal. Steven being the guy he is, organised for me to hve a therapist. Jades tutor. She sat in on my sessions to watch my therapist work. Thats where I found out about The Magic Bean. Cause she worked there part time.

"My therapist stopped turning up one day. He had to go to rehab for drug use or something stupid."Gerard sighed.
"Ironic."I snorted.

"I know... But anyway, Jade and I have been good friends since then because she took over my therapy for about three months. With me and the guys playing often and then her working there we just became close and I kept talking to her and then a month ago we um... The first night I stayed away from the house I was at hers and we um we got really drunk and I- she confessed her feelings for me and I think- I cant really remember much but I think I was humoring her and I um I told her I liked her back and we uh- fuck. We ended up fucking and fuck. I cant talk properly."Gerard closed his eyes.

I didnt really know what to say. It seemed like a fair enough story... But that still didnt change the fact that he pretty much cheated on me.
"Take a deep breath in slowly."I said as he started hyperventilating.

"Sorry I just- I feel so stupid... We have only ever uh done it 4 times but every time I've been drunk and- fuck. Drinking has a bad effect on me Frank."He opened his eyes and looked at me urgently,"If I start I cant stop and I- fuck. Please Frank you have to understand. Jade somehow convinced me that we weren't together. She- she said that she had talked to you and fuck, I should have known because, how the fuck would she talk to you but she told me you said you didnt want to be with me and thats why I was- so fucking reclusive and shit Frank I'm so fucking stupid!"

He closed his eyes again and started sobbing. Fuck. I hated it when people cried. I never knew what to do.
"You aren't stupid Gerard..."I sighed. He shook his head and wiped his tears away.

"Frank I can understand if you don't forgive me I just- Jade has a few problems of her own and she can get really- p-possessive over people and things. I dont know how to tell her I cant s-sleep with her again..."Gerard scrubbed at his face and looked over at me.

"Gerard I... I don't- I need... time..."I sighed and looked ahead of me.
"Th-thats okay... Do you know where we are?"Gerard asked as he stared at the house outside.
"Uh no... I don't really get around that much."I laughed slightly.

"We're outside my old house... Down the end of the road is th-the forest."Gerard stared up at the house. Holy fuck. I turned to the house again. I still couldn't see much cause this street had no fucking lights.

"What's that?"I asked as I spotted something closer to the car. It was a sign of some sort.
"I don't know... Hold up."Gerard got out of the car, in the middle of the dark late at night like an idiot, and went to shine his phone on it.

He got back in the car and slammed the door shut,"It's for sale."
"Oh... Imagine if we bought it."I laughed slightly.
"I would love to buy it."Gerard sighed. I looked over at him. He looked so sad.

"Gerard when was the last time you were in the forest?"I asked him quietly.
"When I tried to kill myself."Gerard said quietly. He reached up and turned the overhead light off.

"Sorry its just gonna drain the battery is all."Gerard said in the darkness. I nodded even though he couldn't see me.
"Can we go for a walk? In the forest?"I asked quietly$

"What now? In the fucking dark?"Gerard sounded scared.
"No uh tomorrow. After school."I assured him.
"Oh um... I don't know... Maybe... Why?"

"I want to see the tree."I said firmly.
"Oh... I could always get Mikey to show it to you, you don't need me... Do you?"He really didn't want to go in there.

"Gerard I think you need to go in there. Not when the police are showing you something. Not when you want to kill yourself. You need to go in when you have a friend with you."I said.

"So that's you?"He asked me softly.
"Well yeah, I want to go in with you."I said, not sure why he asked me that. I just asked before if he would go in with me. Weird.

"So we're just friends now?"He sniffed. Oh fuck. How was I supposed to answer that? Shit mother fucking hell.
"Gerard... I said I n-need time. Can you please take me home now?"I sighed to the window.

"Okay... Sorry."Gerard sniffed again as he started the car up. I continued staring out the window as we drove off. The rest of the car ride was in silence until the very end.

"The guys need a ride home. I don't know where you're staying tonight but I've sort of moved into you bed because Claire and Lily are in with me."I smiled at him sheepishly in the dim over head light.
"That's fine I'll just uhh go get the guys and take them back. I'll figure out what I'm doing then I guess."He sighed as I started to get out of the car.

"Okay uhh... See you at school on monday?"I raised my eyebrows at him.
"Uhm maybe. Bye Frankie."He said as I waved at him and shut the door.

I walked up the path to the house and stepped inside. Jesus it was late.
"Oh Frank!"Lily came out of nowhere and attacked me in a hug. She was almost choking me.
"Lily I can't breath."I coughed out.

"Sorry but- where the fuck have you been?! I have been worried sick! Claire cried herself to sleep because she was scared you were fucking dead!"Lily glared at me.

"I- have a lot to tell you..."I whispered and leaned against the wall, sliding down onto my bum as a tear trailed down my cheek.
"Fuck Frankie what's wrong?"Lily asked me urgently, sitting down in front of me and taking my hands iin hers.

"I- we- Gerard-"The tears were pouring out now. Lily didn't bother trying to get it out of me. She just pulled me into an awkward hug for me to cry on her shoulder.

"Frank come on. We'll go upstairs and tallk aye?"She smiled at me and pulled me to my feet. I glumly followed her up the stairs, not saying a word til we were in our room.

Claire was asleep in my/Gerard's bed so I plonked down on her/my old bed.
"Frank tell me what happened. Why are you so late?"She whispered to me and turned the lamp off.

"What's the time?"I asked curiously.
"Almost midnight."She replied. Jesus.
"Oh wow okay um. During the lunch break Gerard woke me up and-"
"Frank you can't fall asleep in court."Lily laughed slightly.

"Well I did. Anyway, Gerard woke me up and we went and had lunch at this cafe..."I told her everything. Right from the lunch date, through the sex when Lily couldn't stop giggling, right up until I had gotten out of the car.

"Frank how old is Jade?"Lily asked after a minute of silence
"Uh I don't know like 23?"I sighed and rubbed my face.
"And how old is Gerard?"
"17..."I think I knew what she was thinking.

"You can't blame Gerard for this. She must have been what, 21 whhen she started sitting in on his therapy? Frank she is an adult and Gerard is under 18. She should not be getting him drunk. She is the only one who is in the wrong here."Lily said firmly.

I thought about it. She was fucking right. Sure, Gerard was naieve to believe her but she was his therapist for 3 months. Of course he is going to trust her.

"Fuck Lily you're right."I groaned.
"Of course I'm right."She replied, the smugness drenching her voice.
"Oh I treated him so bad as well."I fell back into my pillows and groaned.

"You had every reason to treat him bad Frank. This is quite literally all Jades fault. You've done nothing wrong okay?"Lily was on my bed suddenly, patting my arm.

"Thank you Lily."I sat up properly and hugged her tightly. She hugged me back and said,"I'm here for you mate."
"I have to talk to him don't I..."I sighed.

"Yeah you do. But not right now. We need to sleep."Lily said as she got up and went back to her bed.
"Yeah... Can you put the lamp on please? I need to get changed."I sighed as I realised I was still in my jeans and t-shirt.

The light came on illuminating the room and, holy fucking god, Gerard.
"Jesus fucking hell Gerard!"I shouted as Lily screamed almost falling off her bed, and woke Claire up.