"I don't want to Frankie."She whined. I glared down at her. She could be such a little brat when she wanted to.
"Claire put the fucking shoe on will you?"I sighed angrily. She rudely stuck her foot in my face, forcing me to put her fucking shoe on for her.

Today we had court. Claire was going to be asked personally from the fucking jugde what happened soon because for some reason, even though he was fucking dead, Deans lawyer was trying to get him some sort of good reputation to go down with and was saying that Claire could have made the molesting bit up. When I had found that out I had had such a massive fit that the cops had to take me out of the fucking court.

The only thing I looked forward to about fucking court days was that it meant I got to see Gerard. Ever since he found out that it had definitely been Dean that had killed his mum and didn't just have a weird fetish over suicidal single parents, he had drawn away from me. From fucking everyone.

I wasn't gonna lie, it fucking hurt. I had barely seen Gerard over the last month. I still couldn't believe it had been one month since it all. Claire had changed, Lily had changed, Gerard had changed, hell even I had probably fucking changed.

No one gave me shit at school now. Word had gotten around about it all. There were rumours that Gerard and I had murdered Dean in cold blood. But they didn't know. Only Lily, Gerard and I knew. We had stuck to our story. That Gerard shooting him was an accident. So far everything to do with Deans death had been left. They were first sorting through all the accounts of murder to the young girls. It looked as if they were going up in age of victim and date of death. Which meant Gerard's mother would be the very last case before the events of last month.

"Claire I will give you a deal. If you are a good girl every day we have to go to court, then I will take you into my music class and let you start playing an electric guitar."I raised an eyebrow at her as she stared at me, her mouth open wide.

"Deal."She said immediately and yanked the shoe from my hands. I stood up and smiled at her smugly. Her and Lily were staying in the house with me in my bedroom. Jack was sleeping in another room and, seeing as Gerard had packed almost all of his things and hadn't set foot in this room for months, I was sleeping in his bed which, even though it probably wasn't right, it gave me little thrills.

"Frank? Are you guys ready yet?"Lily asked as she put her head through the door. I sighed and looked around. One month of having to attend fucking pre-trials and stupid 'this is what's happening, this is what will happen, but we don't know what we need you there for so for now, you have to show up for everything's.

"No."I sighed. Lily looked me up and down, confused.
"I don't want to go."I sat down on Claires bed.
"But we have to go, don't we?"She asked as she sat down next to me.

"I don't fucking know..."I sighed. I was so sick of going to these trials to hear about all the fucking things he had done. It made me sick. Claire hated it as well. Ever since we started going to these things she had been so much shittier with everyone.

"Fine we wont go. Lets just stay here and do something."Lily sighed. I nodded and relaxed fully onto my bed. She must have hated going as well.
"Someone needs to tell Gerard."I sighed as I thought of him again.

"How are we supposed to contact him? We dont have a phone."Lily said as she helped Claire take her court shoes off.
"I dont know... I'll go ask Steven."I groaned as I got up from the bed again, it creaked loudly, sounding like a fart, and made Claire start giggling.

"Wont be a moment."I said as I shut the door and made my way downstairs.
"You guys ready to go then?"Steven asked and got up from his desk when he saw me.

"Oh yeah, you're taking us. Um we aren't going. None of us want to go we just thought that maybe you could contact Gerard somehow and tell him?"I asked hopefully.

"No, one of you has to be present for every session in court. Sorry. If you dont wanna go then Gerard is going to be there so just let him go."Steven said as he picked up his keys and shook them in his hand.

"No I cant do that to him. I'll go. Just lets go now."I sighed,"Taylor?"I called as I walked round into the kitchen.
"Yo Frank."He grinned at me from the sink, rinsing a butchers knife. I shook slightly at the thought but ignored it.

"When Lily comes down looking for me tell her I went to court and that I'll tell her why when I get home."I said and followed Steven out the door and into the car.

"Its gonna be okay, you know that right?"Steven said to me before he started the car.
"What do you mean?"I asked him slowly.
"Well, Gerard will come back one day. It will go back to the way it was."Steven replied, confusing me even more.

"But- how- why- what?"I stared at him, scanning his face.
"Before you came here, Gerard had only ever said two or three sentences to me. Once you got here, immediately he seemed so much happier just from looking at him.

"You have an effect on him. One that I have never seen before. He needs you."Steven said slowly as he started the car. I stared out the front window and thought about it.

"Look all I'm saying is, he needs you just as much as you need him okay?"Steven said as he drove towards the court houses.

-time lapse-

"In the event of Mrs Evans death..."Someone in a suit said. I zoned back out again. Gerard was sitting directly behind me and it was killing me. I hadnt been listening to anything at all and had almost fallen asleep at one point.

Someone was tapping me on the shoulder. I opened my eyes to Gerard standing over me. I must have actually fallen asleep.

"Uh."I sat up properly and looked around. Everyone was almost gone. There were a group of suits standing up the front of the room talking in hushed voices but otherwise Gerard and I were the only ones.

"Everyone is taking a break."He said. I closed my eyes as his voice washed over me. I hadn't heard it in two weeks.
"Oh..."I stood up and stretched my legs.

"How long ago did everyone leave?"I asked and started to walked out of the stands, Gerard following close behind.
"Uh about five minutes ago."He said, scratching his long hair. I couldn't help but stare at the way his hair was now slightly ruffled and was sweeping across his face slightly.

"Oh okay..."I stood outside and looked around at the people milling about. I had no idea what to do.
"Where are Lily and Claire?"Gerard asked me quietly.

"Well I didnt want to go at all because I'm sick of this and Lily and Claire decided not to go as well but Steven said that at least one of us has to be present so I thought I would go."I explained, leaving out the part about me not wanting Gerard to be here by himself.

"Well I was gonna be here though..."Gerard said as his phone went off. He pulled it out and read whatever the text was, smiling slightly as he sent a reply. When he looked up at me, he had a very weird look in his eye. Like he was conflicted or some shit.

"Yeah I forgot. Cause you are never around."I mumbled and looked out the front doors.
"Oh right. Yeah..."Gerard mumbled back. We stood there in silence for a moment before Gerard broke it,"Do you wanna grab something to eat?"

"Uhh... No I'll just get something when I go home..."I mumbled.
"Dude I dont mind paying for you. Stop being such a pansy."He smiled slightly and grabbed me by the arm, tugging me towards the glass doors.

"I know this great little cafe around the corner."He gushed as we took a left and started walking. Suddenly his phone started ringing. He sighed and pulled it out, putting it to his ear.

"Hey. No we are just on a break at the moment. Yup... We're on our way now... Frank. No. Bye."Gerard spoke into the phone. He hung up and didnt say a word.

I was burning to ask who it was. Why they were at the cafe and why they asked who 'we' was. I wanted to know what he had been doing this past month. He hadnt been at school so I had absolutely no idea. I had stopped going to music and art because they had been too fucking depressing. The first time I went to music Mikey had been there and had said that this was what Gerard did. He ran away.

We came to a stop outside a cafe. I looked in and could see people sitting down, eating lunch and drinking something I had been craving for a month. Fucking coffee.

"Come on."Gerard pulled me inside and walked up to the counter.
"Gee!"Someone squealed. I watched as a flash of bright purple hair flew past the counter and tackled Gerard.

"Hey!"He exclaimed, hugging them back. Jealousy was burning up inside me as he talked to a girl of about 19 or 20. She had short purple hair and was covered in tattoos. Her lip was pierced and her nose. Bitch. She was almost like the female version of me.

"Frank this is Jade. Jade, Frank."He introduced us. I smiled at her politely before picking at my nails as Gerard and Jade started talking again. I looked around at the customers and smelt the coffee.

"So what can I get for you two today then?"Jade asked as she moved back around the counter.
"I want my usual. And Frank what do you want?"He turned to me.

"Uhm... A hazelnut-"
"Latte yeah what food?"Gerard smiled.
"Um I dont know some cake?"I shrugged my shoulders as I looked at the display of cakes.

"What type of cake?"Jade asked me impatiently. I sent daggers at her through the side of my head and pruposely took a long time to decide.
"That one.'I said and pointed to the mud cake.

"Alright. That comes to twenty two fifty."Jade said.
"Great. Thanks."Gerard said as he handed her the money. I turned away and took a seat in a free table, me facing the counter so Gerard had to put his back to it.

"We are probably supposed to be back in court now."I sighed as I stared at a painting on the wall. It was of- a girl with long black hair in a white dress high up in the tree tops of a forest. My eyes darted down to the corner to see Gerards signature.

"Probably. But I dont wanna go back."Gerard said and looked at his painting as well.
"They are all wrong now aren't they..."I said carefully.
"What do you mean?"Gerard looked at me immediately.

"Your paintings... Of... Your mum?"
"What makes them wrong though?"He looked me in the eyes and I couldn't look away.

"Because she didnt kill herself did she..."I said, staring right back in his eyes.
"Oh right... I guess so."Gerard said, never looking away from my eyes.

"Here you go guys."Jade said suddenly appearing at our sides and breaking our eye contact. She put down two cups of coffee in front of us and two pieces of mud cake. Gerard had a straight black coffee and my hazelnut latte looked delicious.

Jade lingered for a second before going back to work. I picked up my spoon and took a mouthful of the cake. It was really good. I took a sip of my coffee and sighed gratefully.

"See you're still hooked."Gerard smiled over his coffee at me.
"I have literally been dying with no access to proper coffee. I was half tempted one day to sneak into the teachers lounge to use their coffee machine."I smiled back.

"All you had to do was find me. I would have helped you out with your addiction."He grinned as he dug into his cake.
"Oh well I didnt really know if I should cause of everything thats happened..."I mumbled as I interested myself in my cake.

"Yeah... About- that. For leaving and stuff... I'm sorry."He said quietly, so quiet I could barely hear him. I looked up at him. He was staring down at his cake, hair falling in front of his face so I couldn't see his expression.

"I uh its okay I guess..."I said around my cake.
"No its not okay."He looked up at me and put his fork down,"I completely ditched you at a time when I needed you the most. When you probably needed me. Its not right. I just ran away like a fucking coward."He stared at me intensely.

I took a gulp of my drink for something to do.
"I uhh... Don't know what to say."I confessed.
"You don't have to say anything at all."Gerard smiled slightly and finished the last of his drink. Jesus he drank that fast.

We sat in a comfortable silence, eating our cake and occasionally staring into each others eyes. I just couldn't get enough of that. His eyes were so fucking perfect.

"Hey!"Jade made us both jump and for the second time, broke our eye contact. I really didn't like her.
"Sup dude."Gerard smiled as she started munching on a sandwich.
"I'm only on my break so I don't have long."She said around her food.

"Sure thing."Gerard smiled. I didnt say anything as we all ate in an awkward silence.
"So Frankie,"Jade started to say. I couldnt help but glare at her from calling me Frankie. Only two people were allowed to call me that.
"Its Frank."I said quietly.
"Oh sorry. Well Frank then, what music do you like?"She asked as she stole some of my coffee. Fucking bitch.

"Uh. Green Day, Slash, Guns 'N' Roses, Metallica, Iron Maiden and um yeah."I blushed as Gerard stared at me and smiled.
"Dude I didn't know you liked fucking Metallica!"He grinned.
"Haven't you guys known each other for like a month though?"Jade asked, making it awkward again.

"Yeah but during most of that time I havent spoken to him."Gerard replied simply.
"Oh why?"Jade said. I wanted to slap her. She was pissing me off so fucking bad.

"Cause I'm a fucking coward. Ran away again."Gerard said as he shoved the last of his cake in his mouth.
"Oh sweetie. Dont worry, you arent a coward. You just have a different way of dealing with things okay? Dont ever think you're a coward because you arent. You are one of the greatest fucking guys I know."Jade said, grabbing his hand and squeezing it.

Okay maybe she wasn't all bad if she knew how to make Gerard feel better. I sat back in my chair and studied her as they talked. She was a pretty cool person I guess. I was just letting my jealousy cloud my vision like a paranoid fucking girlfriend.

"What are you thinking about?"Gerard asked me suddenly. He and Jade were both staring at me curiously.
"Uh what?"
"You've been silent for three minutes staring at us."Jade smirked. Shit.

"Oh um I didn't realise..."I said hoping they wouldn't ask what I was thinking about again.
"So what were you thinking about?"Gerard repeated. Fucking hell.

"Uh I wasn't really thinking about anything. Just sort of staring into space."I mumbled and scratched my cheek.
"Oh right..."Gerard sat back in his chair as Jade finished her sandwich.

"Alright munchkin, I gotta get back."Jade said getting up from her seat.
"Ahh kay. Are you going out back?"Gerard stood up as well.
"Yeah, til I finish at 3."Jade sighed, dusting crumbs off her legs.

"Kay well I guess I will see you when I see you."Gerard sighed and opened his arms for a hug. I watched as Jade hugged him tightly, whispering something into his ear. I looked away as Gerard kissed her on the fucking cheek and she let go.

"Please say you'll come by tonight. The guys said they miss you and they need you. Apparently some big assed company is gonna be there looking for a new band to sign. They need you Gee."Jade held onto his hands.
"I- don't know... Maybe. I need to check with someone before I go, okay?"Gerard looked at her knowingly.

Jade nodded and I swear to the fucking high heavens her eyes darted to me for a second. They hugged again and Jade left us to ourselves.

"Come on, we should go back to the courthouse."Gerard sighed and grabbed his wallet from the table. I nodded and got up, draining the last of my drink.
"This place is nice. She was nice."I lied through my teeth.

"Yeah, Jade is great. She used to work at The Magic Bean but left for some reason. I dont actually know why though."Gerard said, looking puzzled as we left and walked along the street towards the courthouses.

"Oh... How old is she?"I asked.
"She is 21."Gerard smiled. Good, way too old for him. Unless he liked that sort of thing. Oh god what am I even thinking? Fucking hell.

We continued walking down the street and arrived back at the courthouses.
"Frank...?"Gerard said quietly before we went through the doors.
"Yeah?"
"I um... Do you- I mean like... I still- are we... um... fuck."Gerard turned away from me and took a few steps, running his hands through that oh so gorgeous hair.

What the hell was he trying to say? I moved behind him and put my hand on his shoulder hesitantly.
"Fuck."He jumped around at my touch.
"Sorry."I smiled slightly.
"No no its okay you just- gave me a fright was all."Gerard blushed slightly, his pale cheeks taking on a cute pink tinge.

"So what were you saying?"I prompted him.
"Okay um. Forgive me if this is rude or whatever but-"And then he kissed me.