Mikey has been quite worried about his brother, but I don't blame him. "I'm going to check on him, bye Frank.."

Mikey walked to everybody's bunks, leaving me alone on the bus's small couch. We just finished a conversation about none other than Gerard. I sighed, thinking about Mikey and Gerard. I instantly saw Ray out of the corner of my eye.

"Is Mikey worried about Gerard, again?"

"Yeah, he is." I explained to Ray, what Mikey and I just talked about a few minutes ago. "He's so worried about Gerard, he feels like he should help him much more. That he knows that his brother wants to stop drinking, but he feels like he is barely helping.. I told him that it is really up to Gerard to quit. Although it'd be nice for you, Mikey, Bob, and I be there and support Gerard along the way.. Mikey says that his brother is strong, he won't relapse... But we all know that he probability is going to relapse." I went on more, but Ray understood.

"Yeah, I get it Frank.. I don't blame Mikey for worrying so much about his brother. I'd do the same."

"Me too, I would never keep my eye off of Gerard if he was my brother.." I nervously laughed, while Ray finally sat down near me. Where Mikey was sitting a while ago. "I mean, um, you know.. Watch him." Ray chuckled.

"I get what you mean Frank, besides. I think it's time to get ready for our next performance. It's later tonight, like seven or something."

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Gerard took deep breaths in, Bob was stretching his fingers, Mikey, Ray, and I were all tuning our guitars. Well, electric and bass guitars.

"You ready Frank?" Gerard asked me, I smirked.

"Ready as I'll ever be. What about you Bob?" Bob rolled his eyes.

"Fuck yeah, hope you're not saying that I'm not ready. Mikey?" Mikey cleaned his glasses quickly on his Black Parade uniform.

"Uh, think so. My bass is tuned.. Are you ready Ray?" Ray intensely said,

"Hell yeah I am. What about Gerard though?"

"Of course.." Gerard smiled at Ray, but deep down, I knew that his smile was fake. I can tell when it's fake.

Within ten minutes, we heard many fans screaming.. A roaring crowd you can say. I smiled at Mikey, before whispering to him. "I think Gerard will be exhausted later.. He can stay clean, he has been for two days." He whispered back at me,

"Yeah, we all, know he can.." He sounded hesitant, like he didn't quite believe himself for saying that. I softly added in,

"And that he will." I reassured Mikey.

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It's been a few days.. A few days since Gerard got married to Lyn-Z... I thought that we were something, maybe even special. But he married her, and with that.. I'm done with him, the fans with the Frerard stuff, everything about Gerard and I. It probability didn't even matter to him, must've been why he married her.

Notes

Yeah, I'm just going to leave this here.. It's the best I can do for now. I might add more in a couple of days. I feel so fxcking bad for not updating for three months..
How have you all been? Hopefully good.. Well have a good day and night.
~Fire