They Could Care Less, As Long As Someone Will Bleed

I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. But I was wide awake, I kept thinking about Frankie. I sighed and rolled over on to my side. I heard Mikey's footsteps come up the stairs and his bedroom door open and close. I waited a few minutes and decided to go and talk to him.
I rolled off my bed and left my room to go see Mikey. I knocked on his door and a few seconds later it opened.

"Hey Gee you alright man?" "I can't sleep," I shrugged. "Come in dude. Let's talk," Mikey said and smiled. "Thanks..."

"So what's on your mind?" I knew he knew the answer. I gave him 'that' look and he smirked and nodded. "Gotcha gotcha. What about him?" "Everything. He's so beautiful. He's got those perfect hazel eyes that swirl with green and gold. He has the most perfect smile and his giggle is so cute. His Mohawk loops under his right eye and frames his perfect little face. He's just so...perfect..." Mikey nodded and took in my rant about Frank. I was so embarrassed. I think I fucked up.

"Well big brother, it seems like you got yourself a major crush. And by the sounds of it, it sounds like your in the early stages of love. I think you should eventually tell him about...that," he gestured to my wrists, "Oh actually, um...some stuff happened and he...knows..." I told him. "When? What happened that I don't know..." Mikey asked, looking a little hurt. I sighed, this was it...

"The other day, Zacky beat me up and grabbed me by the throat and kept slamming my head against lockers. He kept saying no one cares and no one loves me and I should kill myself. So...I..uhh....went to the bathroom and...did..that..and Frank walked in on me on the floor almost passed out...." I took a lot of pauses towards the end. Oh shit. Mikey looks mad...but mostly upset...

"How long has Zacky been doing this to you?" "Three years. He's the reason I started..." "Well Gerard, it's bullshit. I love you. I care about you. And if you killed yourself, I don't know what I'd do. I'd probably kill myself too just to be with you again. I don't wanna live without you Gee. You're my best friend. Take that away, and I'm nothing. And I'm more than positive Frank feels the same." "I tried Mikey. I tried not to do it. I tried to stay strong for you. But I broke and I couldn't take it. I'm sorry..." I started crying. I felt guilty. Mikey pulled me into a hug.

"It's okay Gee. Just promise you'll try not to do if..." "I won't. I made a deal with Frank..so it's good," I told him. "Why don't you get some sleep kiddo. Love you." Love you more Mikes," I smiled and he smiled back.

I went back to my room and lied on my bed. I wiped the tears still on my cheeks and closed my eyes. Finally, for the first time in who knows how long, I could finally sleep peacefully.

Notes

So a sorta better chapter than the last few. A nice heart-felt conversaion between mikey and gee. Not too long. I promiseeeee I'll do better!!! Xoxo