Taking Chances

I bounded across the front yard. I knew things wouldnt be fixed this easily, but I was still excited to be with my Gee. Despite having to spend the day wishing I were anywhere but school, I wanted to make Gerard happy, I had to see his smile. I yanked open his car door and thumped happily into the passenger seat.

"Gee-"

"Frank wait. Before you say anything, I just want to say that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have put you on the spot like that, especially when I know what happened between you two." Gerard's eyes were filled with hate, but it was turned inwards and it broke my heart knowing he hated himself for doing what he had had to. I was the one who ran; I was the one who deserved to be hated. I leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to his perfect lips, feeling my tension drain away slowly as he kissed me back. I leaned away from the man I was so quickly becoming to rely on, and smiled into his eyes.

"We're going to be late, Gee." Gerard gave me one last quick kiss and sat back to put his seatbelt on and pulled away from the curb.

We were at the school too quickly, and I knew Gerard noticed how I tensed when the school came into view. When we pulled into his parking space, Gerard gently grabbed my arm to keep me in with him, in our safe little bubble where the outside world hadn't gotten to us yet.

"Frank, everything will be okay. I promise." His eyes were earnest, but I found it so hard to believe him. He didn't know how I felt when I saw Alex; he didn't see the images behind my eyes. How could he? He barely knew me. I kissed him softly and flashed him a cocky smile.

"I know Gee. I'll see you at lunch." I got out the car before he could say anything else, swung my bag onto my shoulder and headed into the school towards my home room. Mr. Ryann was already in the class and I got a death glare from him for arriving with only a minute to spare. Gerard and I had spent more time making out that I thought. Oh well. This prick would have to get over it. I flashed a mega-watt smile at the tensed up man as I passed which only pissed him off more. I had just sat down in my place in between Mikey and Ray when the bell rang and we were delivered another speech.

I honestly wasn't listening. Mr. Ryann strutted up and down in front of the class, snapping out his point in as harsh a manner as he could. My eyes began to drift over my classmates as he conintued on and on. Alex was just to the left and in front of me. I jerked my eyes away, my breaths catching as memories threatened to overtake me. I forced myself to put on a smile; I didn't want anyone to see how he was getting to me. Mikey threw me curious glances all through first period and I resolved myself to finally tell him about why I had moved so much over the last four years, and why I never talked about any friends from before.

There was nothing for me to do until the bell rang and signalled that we needed to change classrooms. I had music next, and though that normally cheered me up, I had seen Alex's schedule yesterday, and he had music in the same class as me. I couldn't help but feel self-concious as I slunk alone to my locker, trying hard to avoid looking at or acknowledging any one. I grabbed my guitar and almost jumped out of my skin when I closed my locker and saw Mikey standing right there next to me.

"Shit! Mikey you nearly killed me." I pressed my hand over my heart and gave him a chastising look. Mikey shrugged apologetically and grabbed my guitar case. Apparently he was still going to be walking me to class, despite my acting weird towards him.

"Frank..." Mikey's voice trailed off and he glanced at me with concern in his eyes. I met them squarely, trying to show him that I was still his friend and that nothing could change that. "Frank, I'm worried about you. You freaked out yesterday, and if you don't want to tell me why, thats okay. I just want to know that I'm here for you, no matter what."

"Actually Mikez, do you wanna come over after school? It would mean a lot to me." I could tell I had caught him by surprise, but in a good way. He grinned and nodded and I already felt better. "Where's Ray? He has never missed a music lesson, ever." Mikey got a small smile.

"Hes showing Carry to his next class." I nodded, though I didn't know why Mikey thought it was so funny. I took my guitar back from him and pushed through the dorr first. I instantly regeretted my choice. I was so busy talking to Mikey over my shoulder that I walked smack into Alex's back and promptly fell on my ass. It certainly wouldn't be the worst bruise I'd ever had, but it was insanely embarrassing.

I ducked my head and mumbled sorry as if I hadn't seen who it was but I should have know he wouldnt let me by so easily. Alez gripped my arm with strong fingers and was tensing to pull me back towards him when Mikey got between us and shoved him away. I hated conflict; my terror at being grabbed and at Mikey's violent instant reaction showed clearly in my posture. Mikey instantly calmed down and came to me, hugging me gently, but at that moment I was as much scared of him as I was Alex. It was irrational, but it was true. I pushed him off gently and faked and smile as I picked my guitar case off the floor. I said thanks to Mikez and went to my usual spot by the window. Our music teacher was sort of young and he clearly had a massive hangover, so he ket us all mess around and write our own music. It was awesome. I hardly noticed Alex sotting right near me because I was so utterly consumed by the sounds and feelings that you could create and mold so beautifully with even the simplist series of tones.

I was grinning happily by the time I put my guitar away, but as I raised my eyes after snapping down the clips of the case, my eyes locked with those hauntingly clear blue ones. We used to play together for hours at a time. Music was something we shared, and here we were, barely able to stand in the same room without music playing. How that times had changed.

After the bell went it was time for lunch. I went quickly to put my stuff away and started out towards the bleachers. Gerard, Mikey and Ray would be there soon, and things could start looking up again. Finally.

Notes

Hey! So I finally updated this. And I will do so more often. But its a bit of a filler because I literally just typed this whole thing on my cellphone. My laptop only connects via WIFI and ours is down. Ugh.
Anywho! I hope you enjoy just this little reminder that this story still exists. I'll see ya'll real soon.

Rock 'n Roll my Pretty Pansies.