Situations

"Gerard I need to talk to you." I wrapped my arms around myself, something I always did when I was upset.
We were sitting in his room, he was on the bed reading comics while I sat on the floor.
"About what?" He said, glancing at me.
"I'd prefer to have my own room now." I said, keeping my voice steady. Give nothing away.
He put the comic book down. "Oh. Okay." He sighed, "I don't know where you could go..." He ran a hand through his bright red hair and I was momentarily distracted by how attractive he was. My mind flashed back on its own accord, making me remember the way my hands felt in his hair those times we had fucked.
"Well we do have this random spare room, it's where we keep supplies and stuff like that. There isn't a bed in there though, and it's kinda small."
"I don't mind." I said quickly, biting my lip. "I can just use my sleeping bag, the one I came here with."
"Okay... If that's what you want." He said, picking the comic book back up so I couldn't see his face.
"I'll move my stuff out tonight, will you show me where the supply room is?" I asked him. I didn't want to stay another night.
"Yeah, sure." I watched him get up and grab a flashlight. "It doesn't have power, just so you know. We have some laterns you can use though, just act like they're lamps."
He lead me to the front of the diner, then back past the kitchen. He shined the light around a small room.
"This is it." He looked at me skeptically.
"Okay, thanks." I took the flashlight from him. I'll get some lanterns in the morning, I thought. I put my sleeping bag down in the clear space.
"Thanks Gerard." I said, obviously trying to dismiss him.
He picked up on it. "Well, goodnight Rina."
He left, shutting the door behind him.
I curled up in my sleeping bag and tried not to think about how much better the bed with Gee in it would be.

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-Gerard's POV-
I woke up to a much colder bed. Funny how it had never seemed empty before Rina had slept in it.
I got up and went to the kitchen for some coffee. She was already awake, sitting in a booth staring at a cup of coffee.
"Hey."
"Hey.." She said, she looked awful. Of course I still thought she was pretty but she looked like she hadn't slept very well at all. I bet she would have slept much better with me.
"Sleep well?" I couldn't help but smirk.
"Fine.." She said, her voice low.
I took a sip of my coffee. "So today you're just going to work on endurance with me, is that alright?"
"Yeah. What exactly will we be doing?" I noticed her hair was sticking up, like she had been tossing and turning.
"Running, lifting. Some general muscle stuff. You've gotta be tough." I smiled her and she didn't smile back.
What the hell was wrong with her?
"Okay. I can do that. Let me go change." She shuffled off to the storeroom, her new room.
We spent the day training and although I could see that she was clearly not up to it, she didn't complain. Several times she looked like she was going to pass out but every time I asked her if she was okay she just nodded and took a drink of water. Fine, if she wants to be stubborn she can be that way. I don't know what I did to make her act so distant. I wish she hadn't left my bed. I slept better with her wrapped around me.
As soon as we got back she went to her new room. I wanted to talk to her about why she felt like she needed her own space but I knew she was probably exhausted.
I'll just wait then.
It was several hours later before I heard her stumble into the kitchen and open the fridge.
"Rina."
She jumped, "Gerard don't do that! You scared me."
"I'm sorry," I said. "Sit down, I'll make you a sandwich if you want."
She sat down at the counter while I pulled out peanut butter and bread.
"Rina, we need to talk."
She looked at me, her brown eyes wider than usual.
"About?"
"Why did you leave?" Oh shit. Why did I sound so pathetic? Get it together Gee.
"What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean. What did I do?"
"You didn't do anything..."
"Then why did you suddenly decide you'd rather sleep on the floor of a closet than in a bed with me?"
"I... I'm sorry."
"I just want to know why..." I lowered my voice so she would know I wasn't angry with her.
"I don't want to get attached.." She mumbled. Attached? What the hell?
"Elaborate." Look at me Marina.
"Gerard I know you heard me say it, and I know you don't feel that way about me. As much as I'd like to keep sleeping with you I just can't. I need to focus on training and more productive things. Thank you for training me, by the way."
She was all business. She grabbed the sandwich and walked back to her room, shutting the door behind her.
What in the actual fuck. She thinks I don't like her. Why would she think that? Well you haven't told her you do dumbfuck, my inner voice said.
Fix this. Fix it now. Tell how special and lovely she is, tell her how much better you sleep with her and tell her how great she's doing with training. Kiss her and tell her to not be afraid, tell her you'll take care of her.
I went to Marinas room and opened the door, she hadn't locked it. She was sitting on her sleeping bag, silent tears gracing her cheeks.
"Marina please don't cry." Again she jumped at my voice.
"I'm not crying!" She said even as she wiped fresh tears from her eyes.
"Yeah? You're not crying? What are your eyes just sweating then?"
She giggled at my dumb joke.
"I'm fine. Really."
I sat down next to her, putting my arm around her. "Please come back. I don't like you sleeping away from me. I want you here with me. Please."
She looked at me, alarm on her face. "R-Really?"
"Yes. I really enjoy spending time with you and I don't want you to distance yourself from me. If it's about what we've done, well I can live without that. But I don't want to live without you. The way I live is so abrupt, I can't count on anything but I want to count on you until the day we go down fighting."
She wiped fresh tears from her eyes. "Gee, I'm sorry. I'll come back. I will."
I put my lips on hers, they were just as soft as I remembered. She kissed me back slowly, as if she was cautious. But she kissed me back, and that's what matters. I pulled away.
"I love you. I should have said it when you did but I have trouble coping with the uncertainty we're surrounded by. If I admitted that I loved you, or even gave myself to the thought of it then I'd be letting myself open to you and I don't think I was ready for that. But I've got to be ready now. We don't know how much time we've got but whatever's left, I'm going to spend it with you." I finished in a rush.
She kissed me again. "It's okay. I forgive you, but let's get out of this damn closet."
I chuckled, pulling her up with me. Tonight and every night she could be mine again.

Notes

Happy Holidays! Extra long chapter and likely another update after the new year to celebrate :)
Check out the MCR Christmas songs.
All I Want For Christmas is You and
Every Snowflake is Different.
Never forget that MCR was on Yo Gabba Gabba.