Black Sparks

"Okay,so why again am I not allowed to go to your house to study for our stupid exam tomorrow,but everytime you ask,we go to mine?"
"Because of no."
"That's not a reason."
"Shut up Frank,you can't come." Mikey rolled his eyes for the fifth time while talking to Frank.
"But Mikey." Frank whined like a five years old,it sounded like "buuuuuuuuuut miiiiiikeeeeeyy"
"No but Mikey's Frank,you won't."
Frank huffed,then proceed to pout as they walked out of school.
"You know that face doesn't work for me Frankie."
"Dude,I don't even know where you live!" He sounded offended for his friend lack of trust.
"And it's for the best,it better stay that way."
"Ugh go study yourself at your house alone and without help." Now he was angry,walking to the opposite direction than Mikey,who shouted.
"You are the one who need help,Idiot!" And laughed at the swears his friend was giving him and walked away.

Mikey was running out of excuses about him not coming to his place,which was very inconvenient meaning that he would have a weak spot. He really needed to think about it,it's not that he didn't wanted Frank to come,of course not,he would take him home everyday if he wanted,the problem was his brother,and he didn't want to risk anything. Risk that were him getting hurt and Frank calling someone for help and ask how did he get that burn,Electric devices exploding-that happen quite a lot- Frank seeing Gerard and causing him some sort of attack,which would lead to Frank getting dangerously hurt,or Gerard instability getting both of them hurt,leaving Gerard with having to do things like calling a fucking ambulance for a first degree burn,Gerard can barely talk to people,even to order food and sometimes his own brother. He really did not want to imagine what could happen if he ever brings Frank home,or anyone,sometimes he is even scared for the delivery guy.
But he got to say that he is also proud of Gerard's efforts to stay calm the times he get the pizza,he even try to smile at the guy.
But he barely get out of basement,or "The Security Zone" as Gerard calls it. The few times Mikey enters, Gerard won't let him go,he would have to sit on the bed,with his brother curled on his lap while hugging him,and he would pet his head and hear him cry in silence,breaking his heart at the sight. Sometimes Gerard would want kisses,and he would give them,knowing where to give them,on the top of his head,on his forehead,between his eyes,the tip of his nose,his cheeks,and his lips. Just light kisses he learned where to give,as his brother asked,and he will always do it,and he would sleep with him if he asked. He just wanted his brother happiness.

He arrived at the front door of his home and took a deep breath before opening the door and walk in.
"Gee I'm...what are you doing the lamp?"
Gerard was standing next to a lamp they bought last week,he was rubbing his hands up and down the neck of it,causing black sparks to appear and the lamp to flick on and off.
"Oh hi Mikey,I'm trying to do something." He was now sticking his tongue out in concentration.
"Yeah that's what I'm seeing,but what?"
"I wanna see if I can light it up completly without plugging it."
"It's not plugged?" Mikey looked at the cable,and no it was not plugged.
"No is not,but I'm trying to light it up."
"You'll make the bulb explode."
"No I w-" and it explode scaring Gerard away." You were distracting me!"pointing at him accusingly.
"It would have exploded even if I wasn't here." He laughed. "But you made a great progress,it did flick." He smiled at him as he went to take a broom."now,help me clean this would,you?"
"Oh yeah,the thing exploded,give me the thing." He said as he took the broom and began cleaning the mess.
"Thanks Gee." He kissed his cheek and went upstairs to his room to leave his bag and shoes. Today Gerard seemed in good mood,which was a good thing,he hoped it could stay that way longer but he knew something would happen and send him over the edge again. Gerard's mood swings were sometimes really sudden and hard to control,it would have been easier with someone...not like Gerard,with him,it's almost deadly. Mikey really is the only who can sooth th "beast" as some people call him,he find it offensive but it's true. His brother is dangerous,and people are only wiling to help them with money and medicine.
Oh it's true,did he took his meds? He needed to ask him.
He went downstairs again,not seeing his brother in the living room he went to the kitchen,and he was there looking around for food.
"Hungry?" Mikey said,making hi brother jump a little.
"Yeah." He laughed a little bit the closed the fridge and looked at his brother.
"Sit down,I'll make something,I'm hungry too anyway." He said while getting things out."Anything special you want?"
"A job and a million dollars,and fries." He said in a dead serious voice.
"We don't have fries."
Gerard squinted his eyes,a thinking manner he had since he was a kid."Cake." And that made Mikey roll his eyes."You're such a kid."
"Sorry mom." Said the older jokingly with a smirk.
"Gerard."
"Mikey."
Mikey stayed in silence a few seconds before deciding what he would make."I'll make chicken,I think we have chips somewhere,you can eat them with the chicken."
"You will make me fat."
Mikey sighed deeply."sorry I'm not good at cooking healthy food you never want to eat."
"Are you saying it's my fault?" And Mikey fucked up,he could feel the anger raising in his brother.
"I'm not saying that,I just said I'm not good at making that kind of food,and that I understand you don't want to eat it because it must taste awful." He have to stay cool,show no fear and develop his sentences,he needed to be as specific as he could.
"Oh." He could feel his brother relax again." Maybe you should buy a recipe book of that?"
Mikey sighed again,Gerard really was a kid."Maybe yes." And kept cooking,he has to ask now,it was risked but he had."Gerard,did you took your meds today?"
"No." Was all he answered.
"Why? You know how you get if you don't take them."
"Yes." Again,monosyllable answer.
"Gerard,you should take them now."
"No,I don't want to,they make me feel sleepy and nauseous as fuck." His voice was raising,and Mikey could see the little flames raising by seconds in the stove.
"But you have to take them,please Gee,I don't want it to end like the last time." The last time he was talking about was,Gerard having a really violent moment and nearly burned his face,but instead it was his left arm. He began to put the food in both plates and took a glass,filled it with water and the tablet of meds.
"I won't take them." He crossed his arms,the air started to smell like gas.
"Gerard." He gave him a stern look,to which Gerard didn't respond.
"No." He could see goosebumps on his skin,and anger filling his words.
"Please." Now Mikey was scared,he tried to touch him his brother's arm,but he could feel the little electric discharges emerging from him,he still had a chance to calm him down before things get worse than this. But of course,no.
"NO!" Gerard screamed,making black sparks run through and over his arms to the table and Mikey's hand,making him scream in pain but he didn't let go.
Mikey tried to touch his face,seeing the dark electricity going between him and Gerard painfully,but he resisted. It was almost unbearable but he was so used to it ,that he knew he could.
"P-please G-Gerard calm d-Own!" He pulled his hand away from Gerard's face,he now has another painful burnt scar on his hand,bleeding. He pulled away from his brother,whimpering in pain,taking his wrist with the other hand and trying to restrain the tears from falling.
Gerard was now looking at him,and his hand,then back at him,expressions going from anger to guilt to fear. Fear of what? Probably himself.
"Mikey I-I'm sorry..." He tried to reach at his hand but Mikey got up standing away from him,a painful and sad look on his face. "Mikey,no please..."
"D-don't touch me!" He screamed,his voice cracking,making him sound almost weak,tightening his grip of his wrist. That was heartbreaking to his brother he knew it,he could see it in his watery eyes. He did wanted to take him in his arms and say that it was okay,but it was clearly not,and both of then knew that. They heard a knock at the front door,making both of them look at the kitchen.
"Gee,please t-try to calm down,and TAKE those fucking meds and eat,I'll get it."
"Your hand..." He said in a small voice keeping his eyes on Mikey still bleeding hand.
"Don't worry I had worse." And walked out of the kitchen,hearing his brother sobs. It better be fucking important,his hand was hurting like a bitch and the smell emerging from the kitchen was getting stronger.
He opened the front door,hiding his hand behind his back.
"Yes! I didn't get the wrong house!" Chirped Frank with a huge smile. Yes,Frank was standing on the doorway of the Way house. Mikey was about to lose his shit.
"What the fuck Frank?! How did you fucking found my house?!" Mikey really didn't know if he should be impressed,mad or surprised,but the three of them are a good mix so he was probably the three at once.
"I kind of followed you,but then I lost you and I had to ask around."
"Frank you stubborn piece of crap."
"I know thank you." He smiled."well I made it to here,I deserve a price."
"You deserve shit." His hand was stinging more and more,and the air was now intoxicated with the smell of dioxide but he tried to keep a straight face and ignore the smell.
"I was expecting that from you but I already got I lot of that."
"Frank,it's not the right time right now,you should really leave,please." He tried to close the door but Frank stopped him looking at the floor.
"Mikey you're bleeding." Mikey wanted to replicate something as he followed Franks eyes to the floor,where a little puddle of blood was.
"Frank I'm serious yo-" but he was interrupted by his friend,who tried to pull out Mikey injuried hand,but the taller resisted.
"Mikey what happen?" He still tried,making Mikey close his hand over his wound and cringe.
"Frank I beg you,it's really not the right moment,and it will probably never be..."
Frank opened his hand,making Mikey hiss in pain.
"Mikey what the fuck?" He had a strong grip around his friend wrist as he tried to pull away.
"Frank please,it's nothing I-I had worse I-"
"You had worse than this?"He walked inside,and noticed the strong smell." Seriously Mikey,did something happen? And what with the smell?"
"Nothing I can't handle myself,now please leave."
"Not before you get that shit cleaned,where the hell is the bathroom?" He then opened doors,the living room,a spare room full of boxes,and the smell was almost intoxicating as they approached the kitchen. Mikey got in front of the door,blocking the way before Frank could open it,he could hear his brother crying at the other side,god I wished he could die now.
"What's in there?"
"The kitchen."
"Then we can go there and clean the fucking wound."
"No."
"Why?"
"Just no."
"Mikey."
"Frank."
"Mikey I'm done with your bullshit,what the fuck is wrong with you?"
"Frank please stop it." Gerard as gone quiet,and he could feel the tension on the door.
"No I won't fucking stop. You never let me come to your place,you always come at school with freak injuries and always spit out some lie to everyone AND me, you never talk about what happen here,about your family,even in meetings the teachers don't ask about them,stop lying to me!"
"Frank STOP!" He could feel the electric sparks all over the door,like it was about to explode.
"I just want to clean that fuxking wound let me fucking open that door!" And he did before Mikey could stop him. But at what cost? A smilar wound as Mikey in the palm of his hand,he felt like he had just been electrocute,he saw the door,black little electric lines running all over it.
"Frank please go away." Mikey tried to push him away,not caring to show the desperation on his face as the door opened completly and his name called,in a scared and angry tone.
"Mikey?"
"Frank please for fuck sake,go away."
"Mikey who is " But he didn't get to be answered as he felt a shock running throught is body from his feet,and he fall on the floor,screaming.
"Gerard leave him alone! Don't hurt him."
"But he was making you angry!" Each hate filled word was hitting Frank in every way.
"No he wasn't! Gerard stop you will KILL him." And with that Gerard stopped a moment,looking at Frank,face blank. Frank took this opportunity to breath and try to get up again,but he was dragged down again.
"Gerard,please,don't hurt him,he's a friend of mine,without him I'll be alone."Mikey tried to talk in a soothing voice,caressing his stinging brother cheeks.
"What about me?" He asked weakly,leaning at his brother touch.
"I would never replace you,and you know that. But he is one of the only friends I have at school." Gerard nodded and leaned against Mikey.
Everything was uncomfortably silent for a few minutes,until the atmosphere seemed less charged,Frank was now up to his feet,looking at the two brothers.
Mikey whispered something in Gerard's ear,who nodded and disapeared down some stairs.
"Frank,I know what you just saw was..."
"Fucked up? Insane?"
"All those things and other terrible ones.." He took a deep breath and continued talking." That was the reason I never bring anyone home,the teacher never asked about it,they are way to scared,they are aware of this and other important things that I am not sure if I should tell you now...and I guess you have the explanation of every wound I have and had. I also understand if you are scared,either of me or..." He made a gesture with his hand showing the space in a way to say'everything' "the last thing I wanted was to get people involved in this. I only ask you to...never talk about this to other people,we lived through a lot of shit,and I have only one chance left or they will take him away...please,I don't want him to be taken away,I'm the only one who can help him...he is scared,you know?"
Frank didn't open his mouth once through the whole thing,he had mixed feelings inside of him,he was scared,he could admit that. But he was also scared for his friend,he lived in some dangerous conditions with something that could fucking kill him,but he was alive now,so he did know what he was doing? He observed his friend face,he looked fearful,nervous and sad,everything was hidden behind an almost blank face,but he knew him way to well to know how he felt,Mikey was,now,scared of him,of him telling someone,of him having the power of taking something precious out of his life,he had the power now. But he won't,because seriously,that's really fucked up but come on,he would never do that to his best friend,right?
"I won't tell anyone,I promise..." He heard Mikey sigh in relief and tense again at his next words."but..."
"B-but?"
"Lemme hang here."
"You almost died if I weren't here you would be a piece of roasted toast."
"But Mikey,now I know what what I'm risking."
"Yeah,your fucking limbs."
"I know,but I promise I won't come near your brother,nor his room,and never leave your side,I will obey your rule even if they are lame."
Mikey looked at him thoughtfully,questioning himself about the things Frank just promised. He knew Frank was a childish asshole,but he never broke a promise. And he was his best friend and he now knew almost all his life. Maybe he could give him a chance.
"You have two tries,don't fuck them up dude." And he then proceed to see hugest smile Frank ever gave him. That was really impressive for such a little face." You promised those things,you better keep your word."
"I promise."
"Now get out,my brother need some moral help and you gotta disinfect that." He pointed at his hand.
"Oh shit right." He winced." Now I remembered the pain."
"Cool,now you have good memory of my brother first met." He smirked.
"Yeah,he seems like a cool guy." He said in a jokingly way.
"He totally is now,the door is over there." He walked Frank to the front door and opened it."See you tomorrow Frank,I hope you'll stand the pain."
"Wait what?" And the door was closed.

Mikey sighed for the millionth time today and walked to the stairs leading to the basement,and smiled weakly and finally went downstairs,opening the door,walked in the dark room,closed the door and made his way to his brother bed.
He knew he was curled there,feeling sorry for everything in life,and he needed him right now. He hugged his brother and proceed to kiss him like he knew he liked;top of his head,forehead,between his eyes, tip of his nose,cheeks,and his lips,and all over again until he felt his brother hug him closer and relax at his touch.
He may hurt him in many ways,but he would never change that for anything.

Notes

I took so long to update this I feel so bad. I was half way through it when I was invited to a friend birthday party in wish I stayed the night,so I obviously took my phone,my ipad AND the chargers. We stayed up late(taking pictures with photo booth and naming the ones that looked like real people.) and I also wrote I little bit. So the next day,I was the last one to leave in a rush,so I stuffed everything inside my bag and I was sure I didn't forgot anything,right? Well when I was finally home,I noticed thAT I HAD FORGOT MY FUCKING CHARGERS. So I was like fuuuuuuck,so I had to call her and she told me that I could come the next day to get them,so I waited and I got them back two days ago. I was supposed to update my stories yesterday,but I was really busy with my room and getting my school stuffs because guess what? I'm starting this tuesday,which mean,no music,no phone,and no ipad until Sundays (if my dad remembers) and no human contact out of school. And psychiatrist. So the updates will be really rare,and I hope I would not disappoint anyone.

well enough with my life. I hope you enjoyed this poorly written chapter and the first one too!

i hope I'll see you soon!

bye
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