One Shot

I quickly ran out of the house, getting farther away from the screaming drunk behind me. I heard the same drunken voice call after me, "AND STAY AWAY YOU EMO FAG." That voice belonged to my father. He was suppose to be my father at least, real fathers are there for there child. Real fathers don't go out with their friends and get drunk. Real fathers don't come home in a drunken state and yell at their son. He was always drunk, And if not somewhere else. he left me to take care of my younger brother, Mikey. He was only 15. He was to young to be experience the pain he had. to experience the pain of abandonment. the pain of losing a loved one. we had lost out mother almost a year ago. she was exactly what you'd expect a loving mother to be. A kind person who you could talk to about anything. She was always there for Mikey and I. losing her was a unimaginable pain. It had effected Mikey the worst. He currently had two suicide attempts and is a previous self harmer. The worst part is that after the second attempt my dad decided he'd be better off in some mental institution. Mikey had been my only friend. I was all alone at school. no one would even give me a second glance, unless to shove me into lockers or beat me up. The teachers acted like I didn't exist, which in some cases I didn't. To my dad, I didn't exist unless I had done something wrong. to my classmates, I didn't exist unless we were partnered up or they needed something. To all my family members, I didn't exist unless they needed to judge me for my taste in music or the way I dressed. To the world, I didn't exist unless it needed someone to shove around and make feel like less of a human being. I had walked a little bit and finally had a chance to take in my surroundings. I was in a park. there were a couple sitting at a picnic table, holding hands and smiling in the dim light the moon cast. The girl moved her hand down to belly and made small circles on it. I could hear the words 'Can't 'I'm' 'Pregnant' Which I translated to 'I can't believe I'm pregnant.' I felt happy for the couple, Bringing another human into the world, making life out of your own DNA, it was pretty amazing. what I wouldn't give to be able that chance. But I was honestly afraid, afraid to never find someone to share that with, afraid to be alone for the rest of my life. And at this point it seemed that way. That i wouldn't find my significant other, the one that would make any day better. I had let my thoughts wonder. I didn't see anything getting better. I didn't see my dad saying "I'm quitting drinking and we can be a better family." I didn't see Mikey coming home. I didn't see my relatives accepting me with open arms. I didnt see me making a friend at school. I didn't see any light, just darkness mixed with emptiness. I should be feeling something, pain, anger, sadness. but all I felt was numbness. complete and absolute nothing. Soon I stood up off of the table that I hadn't realized I sat on and started walking. I wasn't sure where i was going until I had gotten there: A bridge. At that moment I knew that the numbness wasn't going to go away. It wasn't going to stop. So I could stop it myself. I looked around and didn't see any cars. a shakily stood up on the cement railing, holding on to a street lamp. I took a deep breath. I almost fell of out of fright when I heard a voice say "Are you going to jump?!" it wasn't a screaming angry voice. it was a startled scared voice. I turned around and saw a girl about 17\18 with black hair and blue highlights. "W-Who are you? Leave me alone! Take a step closer and I'll jump." the girl stepped back and said "Wowow, calm down. So why are you so upset?" I studied her for a second. She was wearing dark red skinny jeans and a plaid zipped up jacket. "Why do you care?" I asked sounding bitter. "I don't know... I'm just curious as to what makes you want to do this." she replied. "There's no point in telling you..." she smiled just a little bit. "You can try, I'm a good listener." I sighed and replied very quietly. "My dad, He yells at me. My brother, He's in a mental institution. and as for my mom, she died last year. The people at my school act like i don't exist, and when they do acknowledge my existence its to hurt me... my life's taken a turn for the worst and it doesn't seem like its gonna get better... it all seems so pointless..." I found it stupid, here I am sitting on the edge of a bridge pouring my heart out to a complete stranger. "I'm sorry about your mom and dad... my Moms pretty bad sometimes too... and the people at school beat you up?" I nodded. She smiled briefly and said "I bet i could kick their asses." I let the corners of my mouth twitch up a bit before saying "There pretty bid guys. They'd probably break you in half." She smiled and said "I bet not," she kicked her foot out and punched the air. "I know some karate. I move like a ninja!" I smiled a weak smile and said "Your pretty good." i frowned a bit "why do you care anyways?" She leaned against the wall and said. "You seem like a cool guy... I like your misfits shirt... and I think you shouldn't jump." "And why shouldn't I jump?" I small smile appeared on her lips and she said "Because then id have to reveal my flying superpowers and rescue you." I smiled. "So you can fly too?" She smiled. "yea. but don't tell anyone." I replied quite quickly "I'll take your secret to my grave." I soon frowned again and said "Which seems like it could b3 pretty close..." sadness covered her happy aura. "Don't say that... Hey, Have you played BioShock Infinite?" I shook my head. "I've only seen the trailers." She smiled. "You have got to play it its awesome!" "I likes the first one though." I stated. She quickly responded. "That one was super scary though, I would freak out every time I would hear a Big Daddy Coming." i lightly laughed. "I thought you where a tough girl." she looked at me "I Am. I killed those bastards in a second. Funny thing is they were just trying to protect the little girl..." I quickly said "Like you did with me?" she smiled wider, if that was possible, and said "ya, Little girl... Just kidding." we sat in a comfortable silence for about ten seconds until she said "So, Wanna go play it with me?" I raised an eyebrow "Right now?" She nodded "Ya, You can do this whole 'jumping-into-a-abyss' thing a different time." I thought about it for a bit before saying "... OK." she smiled and said "Oh Really? This is gonna be so cool," as I climbed off the bridge she went on about the graphics. We started walking down the street when she asked. "So what's your name?" "I'm Gerard, What's yours?" She smiled before saying "I'm Maria." I hesitated before saying "Thank you, Maria..."

Notes

I wrote this while feeling things... Please comment and tell me how I did!!