Frankie Baby

I had no idea why exactly I was staring at my relfection. I didn’t have the slightest clue on why I was scrutinizing myself like this. But at 4 o’clock in the morning I just couldn’t help it. All the uneasy thoughts spilled into my head causing sleep to not take me under. The bright lights of the bathroom hurt my eyes. I couldn’t get my eyes to close that night , I was restless. Gerard’s snoring tonight was a bit louder than usual. So i slipped out of bed and somehow ended up in the bathroom , practically pelting insults at myself. My self esteem was at a negative 2 by now. I sighed and narrowed my eyes at my disgusting reflection. I bit my lip and tears threatened to spill from my eyes. I shakily reached down and grabbed the roll of fat that sagged over my pajama pants. I wish i could at least have a solid stomach. My thighs were huge. They were bloated and moved slightly when I shifted. My face contorted and I finally felt the tears I was holding back start to fall. I pulled down the edge of my boxers and chomped down on my lip to stop myself from drawing out another sob. Red marks from my boxers indented my skin. Oh god I hated myself at times like these. My hips were fat as hell and more chub rolled out front the tops of my boxers. Jesus christ my arms looked like sasauges. I stared down at the floor and my eyes wandered to the scale on the floor. Nope. I wasn’t going to hurt myself more than I was now. I looked back at my relfection and more tears cascaded down my face. I covered my eyes to rid myself of the fucking gross human being infront of me. I sniffed loudly and gripped the sink when I haunched over to cry. I couldn’t even bare looking at myself in the mirror without some emotion spreading through my veins like a fucking disease. “Frankie?” Gerard’s sleep endorsed voice broke me out of my thoughts. I glanced over and his shirt was off displaying his beautiful torso. He stepped to me and wrapped his arms around me in a tight embrace. His eye was splattered with concern.
“Why are you crying honey?” he whispered. I was unable to answer him because I was crying harder than before. Gerard gripped my body close to his and cradled my head to his chest. “Oh Frankie , you’re so beautiful.” He sighed kissing my head. I was the furthest thing from beautiful.
“You’re the prettiest person I know.” he held my head with both his hands and gazed into my eyes. He wiped away my tears with the pads of his thumbs. “So , so , so beautiful.” he whispered kissing my trembling lips gently. I hated myself. They were rare but my sudden bursts of sadness still managed to slide its way into my life in the early hours of the morning. “Do you hate me?” I said quietly. He stared down at me and kissed me again. “I could never hate you. Never.” he said quietly. “I love you so much.” interupting himself by kissing my lips again. “I want you to be happy.” his voice low and a bit broken. “Im sorry.” I whispered , more tears flowing down my face. He shushed me by kissing me , more intensely. He had one hand on the back of my neck , keeping the kiss intact. He slid one hand down my sides , his calloused palms somehow soothing against my skin. He gripped gently at my sides and rubbed softly. “My beautiful angel boy.” he murmured , bending down to kiss my neck. He grabbed my butt and pulled us even closer together. “The apple of my eye , the light of my day.” he purred then chuckled , making me smile. My heart fluttered a bit in my chest. He knew how to make me forget. I closed my eyes and arched my back as he ran his hands up my spine. “Absolutely precious. Every inch of you is perfect.” he gushed quietly. He pulled away and smiled down at me sleepily. “I love you.” he repeated after planting kiss after kiss on my lips, leaving them red and swollen slightly. My heart didnt feel as heavy anymore after he wisked up off to bed. After that i fell into a blissful sleep. Curled up next to the man i loved with every part of my being.

Notes

hi hello!
id just like to show a part of Frank that I havent really shown that often.
sadly relationships do not fully cure things like these
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