We sat in silence, our eyes fixed upon the door to the bedroom as Gerard continued to bang on the door outside. “I know your in there Mikey!” Gerard yelled through the letter box. I swallowed hard, he was pissed; I hadn’t seen him this angry in ages. But was reason did he have to be angry? He wasn’t the one getting toyed about, he wasn’t the one carrying an unknown mans baby. He certainly didnt know about me and Mikey so what the hell was his problem?

Unless, he suspected something.

“Just ignore him, he’ll eventually go away” Mikey whispered, wavering it off like it was nothing. I flashed him a look, gesturing towards the door, it didn’t sound like he was going anywhere anytime soon. Mikey rolled his eyes, groaning as he sat on the edge of the bed, doing up his shirt. We hadn’t done anything, Gerard never gave us the chance to. What was it with him and ruining my life? If that was his purpose in life then he seemed to be doing a pretty damn good job at it. Mikey rose from the bed, flashing me a smile before his face twisted into a serious expression. “Stay here” he warned, leaving the room and closing the door behind him.

The next few minutes seemed to go on forever. I sat on the bed, listening nervously as Gerard stormed through the house, searching for me while Mikey tried to argue with him. “For fucks sake Gee, he’s not here!” I heard him yell. “I know something is going on between you two, so where is it” Gerard yelled, slamming his fist against the wall and making me jump. Footsteps thudded towards the bedroom, I held my breath, my heart racing as I heard the footsteps stop outside the bedroom door; watching as the door handle began to turn. “Why are you doing this? All you do his fuck Frank about, if you honestly cared about him you’d put him and the baby first” Mikey said, his voice dangerously calm. The footsteps turned away from the door and I quietly breathed a sigh of relief, listening intently to what was going on outside. “Why is Frank always the victim? What about me Mikey? Has anyone even considered what I’m going through right now?” Gerard cried. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, he was having it hard? Try having to carry a baby for nine months while getting jerked around by some unreliable arsehole. I heard Mikey laughed outside the door. “Are you kidding me? Frank is the one going through the hard time at the moment! He needed your support and as usual you throw it back in his face”

“I didn’t throw it back….”

“Don’t even go there Gerard, you picked Lindsey over Frank and what is potentially your baby”

“Shut up…”

“If I was either one of them, I’d get as far away from you as possible”

“DO YOU THINK I WANTED ANYONE THIS? FRANK AND I WAS NOTHING BUT SEX, THATS ALL IT EVER WAS, BUT A BABY? I NEVER WANTED THAT THING” His words cut like a knife, bringing tears to my eyes as I rested a hand on my bump. It was finally out in the open. Not only had he used me, but he had completely disowned my baby; a baby that could be his. Mikey said nothing, his footsteps moving towards the front door where he asked Gerard to leave. “Get out, now! I don’t even want to look at you” He sneered. I listened to Gerard silently leave the house, waiting for the door to close before I ran out of the bedroom, crying in Mikey’s arms. How could he say that? All those times he said he’s support me, that he loved me, was for nothing. “I’m so sorry Frank” Mikey said softly, kissing me on the forehead

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Gerard’s POV

I climbed back inside the car, sighing as I stared out of the window; trying to gather my thoughts together. Lindsey turned her head to face me, her face completely emotionless as she sat in the passenger seat. “Was he there?” She asked bitterly, I could hear the disgust in her voice. Ever since I had told her about Frank she had gone out of her way to cut him out of our lives. As soon as Frank found out about me and her I immediately went to break it off, to prove I was serious about him and the baby. At first she didn’t believe me, she thought it was some sick joke I was playing on her to get out of telling the truth. But once I had shown her the name on the scan pictures, she knew it wasn’t a hoax and told me to either cut him out of our lives or she would out me to my parents. I couldn’t risk that, not after how they reacted to Mikey. “No, no he wasn’t there” I replied. She grunted, folding her arms against her chest as she gazed out of the window. I could understand why she was pissed but with what she was making me do, I couldn’t help but hate her.

“Well why were you in there for so long?” She snapped, whipping her head back round to face me. I stared at her startled by her sudden outburst. “I told Mikey that I didn’t want anything to do with the baby and he kicked me out. Don’t worry, if I’m right about him and Frank then he’ll tell him and I won’t ever have to see him again” I explained, trying to conceal the sadness in my voice. A thin, satisfied smile slowly formed on her face as she moved back to look out of the window; she had won. I quickly turned the key in the ignition, taking one last look up at my brothers before pulling away from the one.

I had fucked up.
I had lost Frank
I had lost the baby
I had lost my brother
I was all alone, thanks to one stupid mistake.

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