If You Stay....
Chapter Ten
Gerard POV
I stood in the doorway, one hand on my hip as I stared at the pair sitting on the bed beside each other. Mikey’s wide eyes locked with mine across the room and I literally saw the panic flash behind them. “H-how long have you been standing there?” He stammered in shock. Seriously, the inability to remain calm and play it cool runs in our family. Mikey is even worse than me, if that is actually possible. “I just walked through the door then, when you said “don’t tell Gerard”,” I informed him, frowning deeply. “So, come on... What’s going on?” My voice was calm and casual, but really, I was slowly becoming frustrated and desperate to know what they weren’t telling me. The paranoia was already starting to haunt me.
“Oh… I, uh… nothing”
And the worst liar award goes to: Mikey Way.
He actually raised his voice at the end of the sentence so it sounded more like a question than a statement. Not exactly very convincing. I narrowed my eyes suspiciously. “Liar,” I accused him bluntly. The word had barely left my mouth before Frank suddenly scoffed, “Oh, look who’s fucking talking.”My eyes darted from Mikey’s face to Frank’s automatically at the unnecessary interruption. I was trying to avoid looking at him, because I wanted to pretend he wasn’t here just for now. Just until my erratic feelings towards him calmed down a bit. But the second I looked at him and acknowledged his presence, I felt the anger begin to sear through my veins.
“Was I talking to you?” I demanded coldly. Frank smirked for some reason. “Of course not. You’re planning on pretending me and the baby don't exist, right?” He guessed presumptuously. I felt my hand curl into a fist, I had ever right to be acting like this. I glared at him, trying to figure out what the fuck is funny about me ignoring his existence. But I couldn’t help but notice his sickly pale face and the dark circles under his eyes. I know I should have told him about Lindsey but he had no idea what I was going through trying to choose between him and Lindsey! Ever since she found that photo in my wallet she kicked me out of our flat and won’t even talk to me. Of course I wanted Frank, more than anything in the world. But how could I play happy families with him if I didn’t even know if the baby was mine? I had never wanted children and he knew this!
If I was honest, that baby was nothing more than a curse.
“I’m not trying to ignore you... I just have nothing to say to you,” I retorted flatly. “Well, that’s not true," he dismissed nonchalantly. "You could try… Sorry?”Oh, he has a fucking nerve…“You don’t deserve an apology,” I growled, replaying everything that happened between us earlier in my mind for what seemed like the 100th time.
Suddenly Ray burst into the room, his eyes darkened at the sight of me. “You need to leave” he ordered. My mouth gapped open, why should I? I hadn’t done anything wrong. “I need to leave? I have every right to be here” I yelled. Ray calmly shook his head, folding his arms against his chest as he stepped closer to me; his face now a mere inch from mine. “Frank’s in here because of a stress related illness, an illness you caused. Now you can either leave quietly or I’ll have you thrown out” He said quietly, his venomous eyes locked with mine.
My face twisted into a sneer, he had no right to talk to me like that. “I didn’t put Frank in here! It was probably that thing growing inside him that did” I shouted, beckoning back at Frank who shrank back against the sheets, tears welling in his eyes as a hurtful expression began to filter onto his face. “He doesn’t deserve half the shit you’ve put him through,” Mikey proclaimed boldly at me. My head snapped towards him, there was something going on between them, I was sure of it. If they thought they could hide their little secret from me then they had another thing coming. In that moment, Ray grabbed my shoulders, digging his nails into my skin as he hurled me out of the room. I stumbled onto the floor, staring up into his angered face as shut the door in my face.
Frank’s POV
Tears trailed down my cheeks as Mikey slipped an arm around my shoulders, hugging me tight as Ray closed the door on Gerard. I waited for him to leave the hospital, a horrible feeling rising in the pit of my stomach; at least now I knew how he really felt. He didn’t care about me, he didn’t care about our baby; all he cared about was himself. Ray sighed, flashing me a look of sympathy as he sat on the end of the bed. “I’m sorry you had to see that, he’s an arse hole and he doesn’t deserve you or the baby” He said softly. I nodded, he was right. I shouldn’t let that man ruin my life. It wasn’t about me anymore, I had a kid to take care of and that was the most important thing.
I gave my friends a watery grin, wiping away the tears as I took a deep breath. “Thanks guys, I don’t know what I’d do without you” I said, resting my head of Mikey’s shoulder. They were good friends to me. Better than Gerard. Gerard doesn’t know the meaning of ‘friend’, let’s face it. He’s been using me for his own entertainment for ages. And tonight he chose to completely abandon me and run after her when he’s known me for six years. “So come on then, do you know the sex of the baby yet?” Ray asked brightly, making me smile. It was nice to see someone taking an interest. “No, not yet. I don’t find out for a few more weeks” I replied, placing a hand over my bump. Suddenly my eyes grew wide in horror, the whole hospital knew! It was only a matter of time before news crews were lined up outside the hospital waiting to catch a glimpse of a pregnant man. Mikey must have read my mind because he swiftly held my hand. “Don’t worry, Dr Jessop has a court order preventing this from going public. Your safe” He said reassuringly, kissing me on the head. My heart skipped a beat, he was so sweet. Why didn’t I see him this way before? Eventually, the nurse came round asking the boys to leave. I kissed Mikey goodbye- on the cheek, I didn’t want to rush straight into things- and waved them off.
But just as they were about to leave, I remembered something in the car, before I doubled over in pain. Ray was going to tell me something. Something that was clearly serious. “Ray? Can I have a word?” I called out, grabbing my friend’s attention. He came back to my bedside, Mikey waited outside the room, occasionally looking through the glass as Ray knelt down to speak to me; almost confused by my request. I guess he must’ve forgotten. “What’s up?” He asked brightly as I sat up against the pillows, locking eyes with him. “What were you going tell me in the car today?” I asked, studying his face to make sure he wasn’t lying. It seemed that everything that had happened with Gerard had shattered my trust in people.
Ray’s smile slowly faded, hanging his head as he shook it in response. “It doesn’t matter anymore, what matters is you and that baby- he’s lucky to have you as a father” Ray replied, smiling weakly as he placed a hand on my shoulder, squeezing it lightly before walking out of the room.
As he left, I couldn’t help but notice an element of sadness to him. I wonder what’s wrong with him.
I stood in the doorway, one hand on my hip as I stared at the pair sitting on the bed beside each other. Mikey’s wide eyes locked with mine across the room and I literally saw the panic flash behind them. “H-how long have you been standing there?” He stammered in shock. Seriously, the inability to remain calm and play it cool runs in our family. Mikey is even worse than me, if that is actually possible. “I just walked through the door then, when you said “don’t tell Gerard”,” I informed him, frowning deeply. “So, come on... What’s going on?” My voice was calm and casual, but really, I was slowly becoming frustrated and desperate to know what they weren’t telling me. The paranoia was already starting to haunt me.
“Oh… I, uh… nothing”
And the worst liar award goes to: Mikey Way.
He actually raised his voice at the end of the sentence so it sounded more like a question than a statement. Not exactly very convincing. I narrowed my eyes suspiciously. “Liar,” I accused him bluntly. The word had barely left my mouth before Frank suddenly scoffed, “Oh, look who’s fucking talking.”My eyes darted from Mikey’s face to Frank’s automatically at the unnecessary interruption. I was trying to avoid looking at him, because I wanted to pretend he wasn’t here just for now. Just until my erratic feelings towards him calmed down a bit. But the second I looked at him and acknowledged his presence, I felt the anger begin to sear through my veins.
“Was I talking to you?” I demanded coldly. Frank smirked for some reason. “Of course not. You’re planning on pretending me and the baby don't exist, right?” He guessed presumptuously. I felt my hand curl into a fist, I had ever right to be acting like this. I glared at him, trying to figure out what the fuck is funny about me ignoring his existence. But I couldn’t help but notice his sickly pale face and the dark circles under his eyes. I know I should have told him about Lindsey but he had no idea what I was going through trying to choose between him and Lindsey! Ever since she found that photo in my wallet she kicked me out of our flat and won’t even talk to me. Of course I wanted Frank, more than anything in the world. But how could I play happy families with him if I didn’t even know if the baby was mine? I had never wanted children and he knew this!
If I was honest, that baby was nothing more than a curse.
“I’m not trying to ignore you... I just have nothing to say to you,” I retorted flatly. “Well, that’s not true," he dismissed nonchalantly. "You could try… Sorry?”Oh, he has a fucking nerve…“You don’t deserve an apology,” I growled, replaying everything that happened between us earlier in my mind for what seemed like the 100th time.
Suddenly Ray burst into the room, his eyes darkened at the sight of me. “You need to leave” he ordered. My mouth gapped open, why should I? I hadn’t done anything wrong. “I need to leave? I have every right to be here” I yelled. Ray calmly shook his head, folding his arms against his chest as he stepped closer to me; his face now a mere inch from mine. “Frank’s in here because of a stress related illness, an illness you caused. Now you can either leave quietly or I’ll have you thrown out” He said quietly, his venomous eyes locked with mine.
My face twisted into a sneer, he had no right to talk to me like that. “I didn’t put Frank in here! It was probably that thing growing inside him that did” I shouted, beckoning back at Frank who shrank back against the sheets, tears welling in his eyes as a hurtful expression began to filter onto his face. “He doesn’t deserve half the shit you’ve put him through,” Mikey proclaimed boldly at me. My head snapped towards him, there was something going on between them, I was sure of it. If they thought they could hide their little secret from me then they had another thing coming. In that moment, Ray grabbed my shoulders, digging his nails into my skin as he hurled me out of the room. I stumbled onto the floor, staring up into his angered face as shut the door in my face.
Frank’s POV
Tears trailed down my cheeks as Mikey slipped an arm around my shoulders, hugging me tight as Ray closed the door on Gerard. I waited for him to leave the hospital, a horrible feeling rising in the pit of my stomach; at least now I knew how he really felt. He didn’t care about me, he didn’t care about our baby; all he cared about was himself. Ray sighed, flashing me a look of sympathy as he sat on the end of the bed. “I’m sorry you had to see that, he’s an arse hole and he doesn’t deserve you or the baby” He said softly. I nodded, he was right. I shouldn’t let that man ruin my life. It wasn’t about me anymore, I had a kid to take care of and that was the most important thing.
I gave my friends a watery grin, wiping away the tears as I took a deep breath. “Thanks guys, I don’t know what I’d do without you” I said, resting my head of Mikey’s shoulder. They were good friends to me. Better than Gerard. Gerard doesn’t know the meaning of ‘friend’, let’s face it. He’s been using me for his own entertainment for ages. And tonight he chose to completely abandon me and run after her when he’s known me for six years. “So come on then, do you know the sex of the baby yet?” Ray asked brightly, making me smile. It was nice to see someone taking an interest. “No, not yet. I don’t find out for a few more weeks” I replied, placing a hand over my bump. Suddenly my eyes grew wide in horror, the whole hospital knew! It was only a matter of time before news crews were lined up outside the hospital waiting to catch a glimpse of a pregnant man. Mikey must have read my mind because he swiftly held my hand. “Don’t worry, Dr Jessop has a court order preventing this from going public. Your safe” He said reassuringly, kissing me on the head. My heart skipped a beat, he was so sweet. Why didn’t I see him this way before? Eventually, the nurse came round asking the boys to leave. I kissed Mikey goodbye- on the cheek, I didn’t want to rush straight into things- and waved them off.
But just as they were about to leave, I remembered something in the car, before I doubled over in pain. Ray was going to tell me something. Something that was clearly serious. “Ray? Can I have a word?” I called out, grabbing my friend’s attention. He came back to my bedside, Mikey waited outside the room, occasionally looking through the glass as Ray knelt down to speak to me; almost confused by my request. I guess he must’ve forgotten. “What’s up?” He asked brightly as I sat up against the pillows, locking eyes with him. “What were you going tell me in the car today?” I asked, studying his face to make sure he wasn’t lying. It seemed that everything that had happened with Gerard had shattered my trust in people.
Ray’s smile slowly faded, hanging his head as he shook it in response. “It doesn’t matter anymore, what matters is you and that baby- he’s lucky to have you as a father” Ray replied, smiling weakly as he placed a hand on my shoulder, squeezing it lightly before walking out of the room.
As he left, I couldn’t help but notice an element of sadness to him. I wonder what’s wrong with him.
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3/26/15