“He kept saying how it was useless staying with here the whole time, how you were just going to keep on trying to kill yourself.” Mikey said.


*Gerard's POV*

"He.. He said that?" I asked, my voice- horse and scratchy.
Mikey nodded "I think he's had enough now.. I think he's done with all your shit!.." I stared at him, wide eyed and open mouthed ".. How many times are you gonna do this Gerard?.. How many times are you gonna make us watch this train wreck?.. We're all kinda done with it!.. Frank and I are the only ones still here, everyone else went home!"
"Mikey.." I swallowed back tears ".. I.."
"No Gerard!.. I've had it!.. I'm glad you're alive, and awake 'n' all.. but I can't go through this anymore.." He looked down at his hands, his angry voice dropping to a sad one ".. I just can't watch you destroying yourself anymore.. I'm going home!.. I've got a ticket back to Jersey in a couple hours.." He sighed deeply ".. Make up with Frank, don't make up with him.. Right now, I don't care!.. Good bye Gerard!"
Mikey stood up and left the room.
I was alone.
I've really fucked up!.. They all hate me now!.. They'd all be happier if I was gone.. But then.. They always try to stop me.. Why would they do that if they hate me so much?.. Why wouldn't they just let me go?
Well I guess now they are!.. I guess if I tried again, there'd be no one to stop me.
Ha!.. I really am in Hell!!
That's it.. I really did die, and this really is Hell.. Where no one wants me anymore.
I guess I got what I deserved.. I hope Frankie can be happy now I've gone.

*Mikey's POV*

"Right now, I don't care!.. Good bye Gerard!"
I stood up and left the room.
I stormed out of the air conditioned hospital, and into the hot Arizona sunshine.
I left him!.. My big brother, who's so broken it's scary, and I just fucking left him!.. What kind of monster does that make me?
When he needs me.. Needs all of us the most.. And I just walk away!
I'm a horrible person, and a worse brother!
I was just about to go back inside, when I spotted Frank. I need to talk to him, then we both need to go talk to Gee.
I seriously need to grovel!
"Frank?.." I called as I walked toward him. He was sat on the curb, smoking what, as I got closer, I realised was actually a spliff. Damn! He looked up at me, squinting in the harsh dessert light ".. Frank, we need to talk!"
Frank sighed, and passed me the spliff as I sat down next to him. I took a deep drag, then passed it back before blowing the smoke out again "What's there to say?.." He asked, quietly ".. I gave up on him, and now he knows it"
He heard me?.. Shit! "Look, Frank.." I stared up at the bright blue sky ".. I gave up too!.. I just told him I was leaving him here alone.." I felt tears spill down my cheeks ".. But I can't.. And I know you can't either.. Cos we both love him too much.. Just in very different ways!" I chuckled, trying to lighten the mood.
Frank took a last drag, then flicked the butt into the dirt "I should hope its in different ways.. Or else we'd be looking at a threesome, and I don't think you could handle that!" He said, totally straight-faced.
I laughed "Really not ready for that!.. Don't think I'd ever be ready to see Gerard fucking you!"
"Oh, come on!.." Frank looked genuinely shocked "You really think he tops?.." Frank grinned and shook his head ".. Gee's a bottom, dude!.. Isn't it obvious?"
Honestly, I'd never really thought about it either way. Just the idea of my brother having sex was bad enough, without going into the specifics of it.
"I guess!.. Thinking about it now.. Yeah!"
We both laughed, then Frank sighed "So we're both sticking around?"
I nodded "Yep!.. Looks like it.." I stood up and offered Frank my hand. He took it and I hauled him to his feet ".. Ok then. Let's go make that stubborn bastard realise that he's got stuff to live for.." We grinned at each other, then headed back inside ".. And this time, we're not walking away!"...

Notes

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