You only hear the music when your heart begins to break

*Gerard's POV*

They've moved me. Think I'm in my bunk now. Mikey'd been shouting at Frank, and there was sounds of a fight. I heard Ray say something about "you shouldn't have kept hitting him" and that he "didn't fight back".. Did Mikey hurt Frank?.. Fuck!.. Why can't I just wake up?..
I'm DEFINITELY in my bunk.. I think.. Least, I'm sure I'm on the bus, cos I can feel it moving..
"What's this?.." Mikey's voice nearby sounds strained ".. FUCK!.. I shoulda known.."
What's he on about?
"Mikey.. Calm down.. You don't know anything till you talk to him" That was Ray. He sounds stressed, and tired.
"FUCK THAT.." Mikey yelled, then I feel him grabbing my shoulders and shaking me.. REALLY HARD! ".. WAKE UP, YOU DUMB FUCK.. YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD HIDE THIS?.. STUPID ASSHOLE.. WAKE UUUUP"
Fuck!.. That was loud!.. And right in my ear, but I can't turn away, can't even flinch from the sound.
My face feels wet. Am I crying? Is Mikey?
"Mikey, leave him alone" That was Frank's voice. He sounded so small.
"FUCK OFF FRANK" Mikey spat, I could hear him turning away.
Why can't I wake up? Please. I just want to..
"Come on G-man, wake up.." Woah, Ray.. Back up, your breath stinks like ass ".. You need to wake now dude" His hands were on my arm, but he didn't shake me like Mikey had.
"How.. How is he?" Frank's tiny, lost voice asked.
"Like YOU fuckin care!" Mikey grunted. He wasn't close to me now.
"Of COURSE I care!.." Frank groaned ".. I.. I.."
"I.. I.. WHAT Frank?.. Huh?.. You care?.. You LOVE him?.." Mikey was REALLY angry. I was scared what he'd do ".. BULLSHIT!.. You don't give a toss about him!.. Not sure you ever did.. Was he all just a game to you?.. Did it make you laugh when he cried?.. Did you get off on it?"
"NO!.. FUCK Mikey.." Frank seemed to deflate ".. I ALWAYS loved him.." He confessed, quietly ".. But it wasn't enough.. For HIM.. I wasn't enough" I could hear tears in his voice.. All I wanted was to hold him, comfort him.
"MIKEY NO!" Ray shouted, then there was a lot of crashing, and swearing, and screaming.. Then......
"F..Frank?" I croaked out. I don't think anyone heard me..

Notes

Hi there chipmunks..
I'M BAAACK!! :)
im feeling somewhat better, though still not quite myself, but I miss writing, so I'm going to do a little here and there. I probably won't write as often as I was for a while, but I'm going to try.. For you!
Hope you're all ok, peace out for now
<3