You only hear the music when your heart begins to break

*Gerard's P.O.V*

He said he was sorry, and fell asleep, crying in my arms.... but I'm no moron.
I know he wasn't apologising for what he said earlier. I know he meant every word.
I've lost him, and I'll never get him back.
Frank Iero HATES me, and I can't really say I blame him. I HATE ME!.. Why wouldn't he?
Looking down at his sweet, sleepy face..all squished against my chest..I couldn't help the tears from falling again.
Frankie..MY Frankie..Back in my arms... For the last time.
Relishing in his unique 'Frankie' smell one more time, I carefully unwrapped his arms from around my waist, and mine from his, and climbed quietly out of his bunk.
The bus was still moving, and I could hear voices coming from the living area.
Mikey and Ray sounded like they were arguing, and I wasn't really sure that I wanted to get in the middle of that, but I needed a coffee... ACTUALLY, I needed something stronger, but I was all out, and wouldn't be able to stock up again till we stopped for gas, or food, or...something.
Heading through to our small kitchen, two sets of eyes turned to look at me, and their conversation died instantly... Three guesses what they were talking about, but I think you'll only need one
"H..hey guys.." I stutter slightly, as I grab my mug and pour myself some black gold. I can't meet their eyes ".. What's up?"
I HALF expected them to start yelling at me...to echo Frankie's sentiment regarding my killing myself... But they didn't.
INSTEAD, Mikey shook his head sadly, and walked past me, into the bunk room.
I THINK that might've been worse.
Dropping my head, I stare into my coffee. Suddenly, I'm not sure I want it any more.
Ray cleared his throat, and I looked up "Gerard.." ANOTHER one not calling me Gee
".. I know this is hard for you to hear, but you and Frank? It's over! You KNOW that, right?.." I nodded slowly, leaving my head down on the third nod ".. Well I think you have to let him go now... You need to let him be happy"
I could feel my eyes burning with tears as I raised my head to look at Ray. The look he gave me said it all... It's over!
My heart cracked in that moment, and Ray walked away.
God, I need a FUCKIN' drink.
Let's just hope we stop somewhere soon...
Pouring my coffee down the sink, I headed through to the drivers cabin and slumped into the passenger seat. Ronnie glanced my way, then turned back to the road "Y'alright Gee?" He muttered, chuckling softly.
"Just peachy Ron. Just peachy"
Then I lay my head back and closed my eyes. If they don't want to be near me... then I guess I'll ride shotgun for a while.
"Ron?... " He hummed at me ".. Pull over at the next gas station, would ya?" Ron nodded in agreement. At least THEN, I could get some more J.D...

Notes

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