The End Of All Of Us
Is It Hard Understanding?
Frank's POV
I walked toward the front of my new hell-excuse me, college, and walked into the reception. I hoped this was nothing like high school. The young-ish receptionist eventually turned towards me. "Oh, I'm so sorry! I'm Samantha. Are you new here?" The girl I now knew was called Samantha asked me. "Uh, yeah...I came here to get my room key and stuff..." I didn't really know what to ask for.. "Oh, yeah! Name?" She asked. "Frank Iero.." She took a second typing into the computer in front of her, and then looked back up. "Yup, you're here! Here's your key and map and shi-stuff! I so said stuff!" I laughed. This girl was cool. "Thanks." I said gratefully. "Oh by the way, your sharing a room!" she called after me. " Thanks for saying! See ya around!" I yelled back as I started walking to find my room.
As I walked by a room, I heard a guitar being frantically played on the other side of a door. Woah, their good, I thought as I kept walking. Room 279, shouldn't be too hard to find right?, if I'm at 263 now. I kept walking, until I heard a fit of laughter coming from another door. I turned to look at the door towards the noise, and I'm glad I did because the small gold plate screwed onto the door told me that it was 2 doors away from my room. I walked up to the door with my key number on it. I timidly put the key into the keyhole, turning the key until I heard a soft click. I pushed open the door to see someone sitting on one of the few beds in here. I put my stuff on the floor to take a second to put my room key onto my key chain, when I heard a soft voice say "Hey. Room-mate, right?" I looked up slightly. The voice was deep, but not as deep as a male voice. But why would there be a girl in here? Maybe my room-mate's girlfriend? "Yeah, I guess I am," I replied. "Well, It's nice to know that my room-mate doesn't hate me yet, that's a first," I heard a smirk in her voice, and smiled myself. She wasn't half bad. Wait, Her room-mate?! "Uh, sorry for asking this, but...are you my room-mate, or..?" I trailed off. She laughed. "Yeah, I am, I was expecting you'd react like that. I was expecting a more, 'ewww, I'm sharing a room with a girl!', but that's fine too," she said with a laugh afterwards. The door clicked and opened, revealing a guy with a fuck of a lot of hair. "Hey, frofro! How's up?" The girl laying on the bunk with the laptop exclaimed loudly, looking up from whatever she was doing. "Not so bad, yourself miss sass queen?" he shot staight back with a smile on his face. "I'ma good. And pfft, bitch please, I'm the sass queen? Have you even met Gerard Way?" They both laughed a shit ton after that. The door clicked again, and we all turned to stare at it. After a second, a head appeared around the door, and I heard an unfamiliar-to me anyway-voice say, "I heard you assholes talking about my sassy self?" the boy said, flipping his hair. The girl sprang up from the bed after closing her laptop, and threw herself into the boy, almost tackling him over. "GEEE! You came!!" She yelled, and he laughed, throwing his head back. "Why, of course I did! Why would I not want to see you? And also Mikes should be here in...Oh, maybe 3, 2, 1.." Just then another boy ran through the door, pulling the girl off the other blonde boy. "Sass queen! I missed you! How are you?!" The girl laughed. "Mikes, you saw me this morning. I'm good. And what is with everyone calling me sass queen for today? Gerard is right there!" The boy, who's name I now knew was Gerard, said, "Because I am the sass king, and I love you sooo much, so your the sass queen!!" He yelled, and picked her up, throwing her over his shoulder and running around the room with her, the girl laughing he whole time before he put her down. "I love you too, Gee," She said, and then leaned up and kissed his cheek, grinning. So then, I think they're together. Suddenly the other blonde boy, who wasn't having his cheek kissed by the girl I apparently shared a room with, turned to face me. "Oh fuck! I didn't even know you were there!" He exclaimed, pointing at me. "Oh, yeah. This is my new room-mate, Frank. Be fucking nice to him, or I'll beat your brains out with a rusty spoon while eating a pancake," She warned. Fuck she had a really straight face..Wait, how did she know my name? "Yeah...How did you know my name?" I asked. I hadn't told her. "Oh, yeah, you get told your room-mates name in advance if you have the room first," She informed me. I nodded. "Nice to meet you, Frank. I'm Mikey, That idiots' brother. His names Gerard, by the way," The boy told me. Mikey...short for Michael? "I'm Ray," The fro guy told me. Sweet. I knew their names. APART from the girl I was sharing a room with. "Not to come off as rude or anything, but...what's your name?" I asked after a second of thinking. "Oh, yeah, I forgot to fucking mention my name.." Ray suddenly said, interrupting her, "Why don't you just cut to the Chase already?," And the three boys in the room laughed while she pouted. "Sorry for their jerkiness, they interrupted me," I nodded asking her name silently.
"My names Chase. Get the joke?"
I laughed slightly, I got it.
Then a thought hit me.
Fuck Frank, really? You can't be so open about your feelings, or anything like that, it'll be high school all over again!
Shit, My head was right.
I think I maybe told them too much already, even though I'd barely spoken.
I saw the people in the room freeze.
"Hello? You okay there?" Chase asked. The answer was no, I'm not o-fucking-kay, but I can't tell them that. I can't breath. Gerard ran over. "It's okay, calm down. We're not gonna hurt you or anything. Breath with me," He asked, But I couldn't. My head was spinning. "Hey. Breath, your alright. Calm down, kay?" I started breathing with Gerard, and after 10 minutes or so, I finally calmed down. I looked around, realizing, Fuck. I'm already doing badly, they hate me. I looked at everyone individually . Mikey looked kind of sorry for me, like he knew what it was like a little, and Ray just looked plain shocked. It was obvious he had never witnessed this kind of thing before. Gerard looked calmer than all of them, just worried. They I looked up again. Chase...she looked beyond worried, her eyes were watering madly, she looked about to cry. "Chase, don't-" Gerard said, but she ran into the bathroom that was connected to the room. Gerard sighed. I had a feeling I'd done something wrong. "It's okay, some things just do that. It was probably seeing you have a panic attack that got to her. Sometimes her guard comes down without her letting it, and it scares her." I nodded, understanding. Chase came back looking perfectly fine, smiling slightly. "Sorry 'bout that." "No problem," I smiled back at her. Gerard spoke again. "Frank?" "Mmhmm?" He paused. "How often do you get panic attacks?" I was shocked, then confused. "I...I don't get panic attacks.." I was really confused. He sighed. "Frank, what just happened there, that was you having a panic attack.." I gasped. What?! "I-I get them all the t-time!" I hiccuped. "Hey, It's okay, don't have another panic attack, okay?" He reassured me. "I...I...I-I don't-I mean, I didn't-I've never-" "It's okay. Calm down," He said again. I slowed my breathing, and realized I was curled up in the fatal position, blocking the door, with Gerard sitting cross-legged under my head, leaning over my face. It calmed me down though. "You sure you're okay now?" He asked, worriedly. I opened my mouth, about to say 'No. no I'm not fucking okay. I need help, I'm not okay!' But stopped myself before it slipped out, and instead slowly pulled my head off his lap, and just said, quietly, "I'm okay," So quiet It was a fucking whisper. I was afraid that if I spoke anything above a whisper, my voice would give away that I'm not okay, and then the nightmare from high school and before would start all over again.
"Alright," Gerard said. Quietly, as we both got up off the floor.
"Who wants pizza?"
I walked toward the front of my new hell-excuse me, college, and walked into the reception. I hoped this was nothing like high school. The young-ish receptionist eventually turned towards me. "Oh, I'm so sorry! I'm Samantha. Are you new here?" The girl I now knew was called Samantha asked me. "Uh, yeah...I came here to get my room key and stuff..." I didn't really know what to ask for.. "Oh, yeah! Name?" She asked. "Frank Iero.." She took a second typing into the computer in front of her, and then looked back up. "Yup, you're here! Here's your key and map and shi-stuff! I so said stuff!" I laughed. This girl was cool. "Thanks." I said gratefully. "Oh by the way, your sharing a room!" she called after me. " Thanks for saying! See ya around!" I yelled back as I started walking to find my room.
As I walked by a room, I heard a guitar being frantically played on the other side of a door. Woah, their good, I thought as I kept walking. Room 279, shouldn't be too hard to find right?, if I'm at 263 now. I kept walking, until I heard a fit of laughter coming from another door. I turned to look at the door towards the noise, and I'm glad I did because the small gold plate screwed onto the door told me that it was 2 doors away from my room. I walked up to the door with my key number on it. I timidly put the key into the keyhole, turning the key until I heard a soft click. I pushed open the door to see someone sitting on one of the few beds in here. I put my stuff on the floor to take a second to put my room key onto my key chain, when I heard a soft voice say "Hey. Room-mate, right?" I looked up slightly. The voice was deep, but not as deep as a male voice. But why would there be a girl in here? Maybe my room-mate's girlfriend? "Yeah, I guess I am," I replied. "Well, It's nice to know that my room-mate doesn't hate me yet, that's a first," I heard a smirk in her voice, and smiled myself. She wasn't half bad. Wait, Her room-mate?! "Uh, sorry for asking this, but...are you my room-mate, or..?" I trailed off. She laughed. "Yeah, I am, I was expecting you'd react like that. I was expecting a more, 'ewww, I'm sharing a room with a girl!', but that's fine too," she said with a laugh afterwards. The door clicked and opened, revealing a guy with a fuck of a lot of hair. "Hey, frofro! How's up?" The girl laying on the bunk with the laptop exclaimed loudly, looking up from whatever she was doing. "Not so bad, yourself miss sass queen?" he shot staight back with a smile on his face. "I'ma good. And pfft, bitch please, I'm the sass queen? Have you even met Gerard Way?" They both laughed a shit ton after that. The door clicked again, and we all turned to stare at it. After a second, a head appeared around the door, and I heard an unfamiliar-to me anyway-voice say, "I heard you assholes talking about my sassy self?" the boy said, flipping his hair. The girl sprang up from the bed after closing her laptop, and threw herself into the boy, almost tackling him over. "GEEE! You came!!" She yelled, and he laughed, throwing his head back. "Why, of course I did! Why would I not want to see you? And also Mikes should be here in...Oh, maybe 3, 2, 1.." Just then another boy ran through the door, pulling the girl off the other blonde boy. "Sass queen! I missed you! How are you?!" The girl laughed. "Mikes, you saw me this morning. I'm good. And what is with everyone calling me sass queen for today? Gerard is right there!" The boy, who's name I now knew was Gerard, said, "Because I am the sass king, and I love you sooo much, so your the sass queen!!" He yelled, and picked her up, throwing her over his shoulder and running around the room with her, the girl laughing he whole time before he put her down. "I love you too, Gee," She said, and then leaned up and kissed his cheek, grinning. So then, I think they're together. Suddenly the other blonde boy, who wasn't having his cheek kissed by the girl I apparently shared a room with, turned to face me. "Oh fuck! I didn't even know you were there!" He exclaimed, pointing at me. "Oh, yeah. This is my new room-mate, Frank. Be fucking nice to him, or I'll beat your brains out with a rusty spoon while eating a pancake," She warned. Fuck she had a really straight face..Wait, how did she know my name? "Yeah...How did you know my name?" I asked. I hadn't told her. "Oh, yeah, you get told your room-mates name in advance if you have the room first," She informed me. I nodded. "Nice to meet you, Frank. I'm Mikey, That idiots' brother. His names Gerard, by the way," The boy told me. Mikey...short for Michael? "I'm Ray," The fro guy told me. Sweet. I knew their names. APART from the girl I was sharing a room with. "Not to come off as rude or anything, but...what's your name?" I asked after a second of thinking. "Oh, yeah, I forgot to fucking mention my name.." Ray suddenly said, interrupting her, "Why don't you just cut to the Chase already?," And the three boys in the room laughed while she pouted. "Sorry for their jerkiness, they interrupted me," I nodded asking her name silently.
"My names Chase. Get the joke?"
I laughed slightly, I got it.
Then a thought hit me.
Fuck Frank, really? You can't be so open about your feelings, or anything like that, it'll be high school all over again!
Shit, My head was right.
I think I maybe told them too much already, even though I'd barely spoken.
I saw the people in the room freeze.
"Hello? You okay there?" Chase asked. The answer was no, I'm not o-fucking-kay, but I can't tell them that. I can't breath. Gerard ran over. "It's okay, calm down. We're not gonna hurt you or anything. Breath with me," He asked, But I couldn't. My head was spinning. "Hey. Breath, your alright. Calm down, kay?" I started breathing with Gerard, and after 10 minutes or so, I finally calmed down. I looked around, realizing, Fuck. I'm already doing badly, they hate me. I looked at everyone individually . Mikey looked kind of sorry for me, like he knew what it was like a little, and Ray just looked plain shocked. It was obvious he had never witnessed this kind of thing before. Gerard looked calmer than all of them, just worried. They I looked up again. Chase...she looked beyond worried, her eyes were watering madly, she looked about to cry. "Chase, don't-" Gerard said, but she ran into the bathroom that was connected to the room. Gerard sighed. I had a feeling I'd done something wrong. "It's okay, some things just do that. It was probably seeing you have a panic attack that got to her. Sometimes her guard comes down without her letting it, and it scares her." I nodded, understanding. Chase came back looking perfectly fine, smiling slightly. "Sorry 'bout that." "No problem," I smiled back at her. Gerard spoke again. "Frank?" "Mmhmm?" He paused. "How often do you get panic attacks?" I was shocked, then confused. "I...I don't get panic attacks.." I was really confused. He sighed. "Frank, what just happened there, that was you having a panic attack.." I gasped. What?! "I-I get them all the t-time!" I hiccuped. "Hey, It's okay, don't have another panic attack, okay?" He reassured me. "I...I...I-I don't-I mean, I didn't-I've never-" "It's okay. Calm down," He said again. I slowed my breathing, and realized I was curled up in the fatal position, blocking the door, with Gerard sitting cross-legged under my head, leaning over my face. It calmed me down though. "You sure you're okay now?" He asked, worriedly. I opened my mouth, about to say 'No. no I'm not fucking okay. I need help, I'm not okay!' But stopped myself before it slipped out, and instead slowly pulled my head off his lap, and just said, quietly, "I'm okay," So quiet It was a fucking whisper. I was afraid that if I spoke anything above a whisper, my voice would give away that I'm not okay, and then the nightmare from high school and before would start all over again.
"Alright," Gerard said. Quietly, as we both got up off the floor.
"Who wants pizza?"
Notes
ME. GERARD, I WANT FUCKING PIZZA. GIVE ME PIZZA.
hope you liked the first chapter, I know it's really fucking long and shit, and probably sucks, but my mind lead the way. Seriously, I had this chapter all planned out in my head, and then just...well that royally fucked.
-Colour Kill
@Electric Seranade
Thank you! It's actually not how I planned it to be. I'm gonna make a different story after this one and that story will be this one, but how I planned it.
7/31/14