Does anything matter if you're already dead?

Gerard's POV
I wake up, the sound of rain hitting the window. I sit up and go straight to the shower, the warm water is so comforting on a day like this, my cuts are begging to sting though from last night. I get out and study my self on the mirror, I look at my stupid excuse for a face, I look so strange and then I turn to the side to see my body, it's so fat and discusting. Why do I have to be me? Being honest I'm planning on killing myself tomorrow anyway so I won't have to put up with my self much longer. I'm never going to be good enough anyway so whats the point in living? I dry off and grab my misfits t-shirt and grey skinny jeans, this will be the last time I wear these clothes hopefully. Mikey isn't going to school today, he got bet up pretty bad yesterday and hasn't been well since. I head to the hell hole and go to my usual spot under the tree. I hear footsteps behind me and turn around to see frank, oh shit.

Franks POV
oh I see gerard, truth is I think I'm in love with gerard but I can't tell him so instead I make fun of him. He looks a lot paler today with big bags under his eyes, I feel sorry for him but can't show it, "hey fag!" He turns around and looks me in the eye, I can see tears forming, god he looks terrible today I wonder whats up?
RINGGG
I had art music and double geography which went quickly and now it's lunchtime, I can't help but notice gerard sitting alone not eating, does he starve himself? It looks like it.

~time lapse~
GEE'S POV
The bell rings at the end of the day and on my wAy home I bump into frank and his gang, "Oh look, it's that ugly fag!" And with that they begin punching and kicking me, I don't fight back anymore I guess I'm so used to it, I hear mikey call my name and they all run away incase it was an adult or something, cowards. I don't cAre anymore I'm doing it tonight. "Hey you okay gee?" He asks helping me up
"yeah I'm good" god I feel so guilty I'm all he's got.

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