I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Darkness consumed me as i continued to take small rushed steps forwards trying desperately to leave the what i presumed was a room i was trapped in. i scurried my brain, raked through the memories trying to figure out how i had got here. it didn't feel like any time had passed it felt like i had always been there like i had always been trapped.
"Gerard?" i called out, the words left my mouth of there own, i didn't realise i was thinking about him until i heard my own voice however now i cant get him off my mind.
was he here too? was he also trapped?
i didn't have the answers and i couldn't see nor hear anyone else in the room with me but my mind still wondered and started to really worry.
Suddenly a tiny almost unseen amount of light appeared in the distance glowing brightly and holding a sense of freedom and happiness.
My legs started running towards the new destination, seeming to run faster then i had ever ran before. the room felt small as if there was no air so my lungs had to work two times too fast to keep up with my fast pace.
As soon as my speed increased something within the room changed and suddenly noises and voices could be heard behind me like someone of something had been hiding in the shadows around me.
Half way, i'm half way i told myself as i continued to run towards the what i could now make out to be a white glowing door clearly hiding a brightly lit room behind it. Footsteps started up behind me as if i was being chased and the person was getting closer and closer towards me. Then suddenly a loud spine tingling chuckle came from behind me, the person so close to me that their breath brushed against the back of my neck. i wanted to speed my running up again but as i attempted i failed in realisation that i had started to run out of stamina, that didn't stop me though i pushed on keeping my eyes locked on the door.
the laugh echoed around the room again and then i realised, i heard that laugh before, id heard it a million times however the laugh seemed different to the one i was use to this laugh was demonic not like the normal happy laugh i knew.
of course it was josh's laugh.
i had never once been scared of josh, we had argued and fallen out but never once did i feel scared of him apart from now. His persona and personalty had changed. normally around josh i would feel safe, loved and welcomed but now i felt abandoned, hurt and mainly unwelcome instead of pulling me in for a hug like he normally would he was chasing me away.
I wanted to shout to him, remind him who i was, who he was i wanted to talk to him calm him down but i couldn't. my body seemed to be working on its on and i continued to run instead of speaking out.
Then just as i felt sickly cold claw like hands wrap around my upper arm my chaser finally getting hold of me i used my last bit of strength to push through and leap forward to grab the door handle and push it open. My body crashed into the next room and i quickly closed the door and pushed my body against it making sure nothing could follow me through. I started taking in the new surroundings, the room was white, pure white there was no other colour i could see, it was like i was stood inside a white box. however as i started walking into the abyss my eyes came across two black blobs in the distance.
some colour i though as i changed my direction so i was walking straight towards the foreign objects. As i came closer to the blobs new colours were introduced, reds and silvers and the contrast from the colours to the white room were defiantly eye catching making me drift closer to them imminently. Hope and curiosity filled my blood and ran through my veins excitement taking over as i became hungry for more information about this place however want to go back home blossomed in my stomach as the butterflies started up.
My eyes started to adjust to new colours being introduced as i continued to walk closer and i soon realised that the blobs were in fact bodies, people.
I called out loudly and my voice bounced off the walls and echoed around the room. the figures didn't answer however one did turn their head to look at me clearly hearing my voice. i was close now, close enough to see the devilish smirk spread wide across joshs lips as danger lurked in his eyes. i was captivated in his eyes and how evil and deadly his face looked to even acknowledge the other person. I didn't want to get any closer at this point walking this way had been a mistake, my brain told me to run, run far away, but where too? this was the only destination.
My heart won over my head and i took a few steps closer to josh his eyes wide, pupils dilated and i imagined mine were probably just as huge. I had a horrible gut feeling that this was all go to end badly, very very badly.
suddenly my thoughts were corrected as a pristine red blood drop fell from the tip of the sharp blade joshs hand held tightly. the small droplet fell to the ground quickly splashing into a small thick puddle on the white floor beside his feet.
wait a knife? why was josh holding a knife?
maybe it was a stupid question as soon my eyes drifted from the small puddle of red liquid to a much larger one gathered around the other body which laid on the floor. the liquid was clearly blood and the person on the floor was obviously the one to lose a lot of it as the puddle came from it's chest.
i studied the dark haired figure for a while before it clicked. in reality i would have noticed that smashing pumpkins shirt and long dark greasy hair anywhere. I knelt down the light fabric of my jeans started to soak in the crimson liquid and stain red as i slumped down next to the body. i reached out one hand carefully to push some black locks behind the persons small pale ear. the skin was cold, ice cold and my body shivered.
"Gerard?" i whispered the face now clear to my eye sight my voice cracked and i realised i was crying as tears ran down my cheeks. i turned my gaze to joshs creepy smirk
"what have you done!?" i screamed the echo around the room made my voice sound louder more in control.
"he didn't love you" he said back, my eyes drifted from joshs hand holding the knife to the hand he was hiding behind his back to Gerard lifeless body.
"josh..." i sobbed trying to get a hold of my emotions for one second "yes. he. did" my voice chocked from the crying. the walls i had seemed to have build up around my emotions break down and the tears fall like a waterfall, not holding anything back.
"he didn't" josh argues with angered me further.
i stood up becoming eye level with the monster stood in front of me, im was about to argue with him when he suddenly pulled his hand out from where he was hiding it and held it in front of him and in his grasp was a human heart. fast droplets of blood fell in-between his fingers and down his arm to his elbow my mouth dropped opened from pure shock.
I looked back down to my dead boyfriend laid on the floor the pool of blood pouring from his open chest
"you monster" i screamed out ready to kill josh right then and there.
"Frankie" he interrupted "you can tell if someone's in love by looking at their heart, this heart has no love for you" he said while using the knife he still held in his other hand to poke the organ, "unlike mine" he added quickly.
everything went silent for a few moments before he harshly dropped the organ to the floor and grabbed the knife with both hand before swiftly thrusting it into his own chest
"i love you Frankie" pause "i away have" is what he said as he pulled the knife back out from his skin, the blade piercing his own heart on the opposite end.
"see" was the last thing he said before he pointed to his own heart in his hand before falling to the ground, eyes rolled back into his head showing off their pure whiteness. His body banged against the floor and the loud noise echoed around the room.
Then suddenly im sat up in pure darkness screaming.
my scream is loud and clear my eyes are still closed but i bring my hand to my face and feel the wet skin from where the tears have escaped from under my eyelids. two strong arms wrap around my frame and im instantly scared again. he's got me. josh has got me but as i open my eyes i notice my poster covered wall and realises im not longer in the nightmare and soon the small "shush's" and "its okay's" coming from my mothers mouth enter my ears and calm me down.
i hug her back tightly never wanting to experience that again never wanting to sleep again and honestly just wanting to make sure Gerard's ok.

Notes

im sooo tired.
is this small, i feel like this is a small chapter.
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