The Right Way

Did he really just invite me over to his house? How could he possibly want me around him? I mean, just look at me. I'm not exactly the guy you'd pick to be your best friend. I'm annoying, ugly, plain worthless. And everyone thinks so. And it would be a total and utter shock is Gerard didn't think so too.

I started to wonder why he even invited me over. Did he, pity me?!?!? Because I don't want his pity. No, Gerard doesn't seem like the type to pity someone. Well, if he didn't pity me, then why the actual fuck would he invite me over. I just couldn't grasp the concept that someone might actually want to spend time with me, Frank Anthony Iero.

Not that I was complaining. Gerard seems like a cool guy. He is sweet, funny,cute, outgoing, cute, gorgeous, hot even. Wait, what am I thinking?!!?!!!!?? I'm not gay. I am not gay. I am attracted to women. I can't exactly pinpoint the last time I found myself attracted to a woman, but I'm still not gay. Sure, I find Gerard attractive, but I'm still not gay. And maybe even I have a crush on Gerard, but IM STILL NOT GAY. And maybe even I might have got a boner when Gerard walked in front of me so I got a nice view of his ass. But I'm still not- fuck it I'm gay.

Even if I'm gay, what are the odds Gerard is too? And what are the odds he is gay and finds me attractive? Next to fucking nothing. But I really really really really really really wanted him too. I really really really really really really wanted him. Him and his luscious jet black locks that perfectly framed his round face, his hazel eyes that seemed to create a universe, a galaxy that holds a thousand stars. His hips that swayed when he walked, him. Everything he is.


But how could someone that beautiful, possibly find himself attracted to a fuck up like me? I don't find it possible. I'm a failure at life, at everything I do. And it won't be long until I put an end to the monstrosity that is Frank Iero. Gerard is just waiting his time.



But I have to admit, talking with him today at lunch, was the first time I had experienced happiness in a long time. Maybe years. I had been nothing but miserable until Gerard moved into my life. But I can't be stupid. This won't last. Gerard will realize what a fuck I am, and I'll be alone again. But I with so little time left in my life, I can't deny myself the happiness that will come with being with Gerard.


Soon I hear the final bell ring, and I rush out the door to find Gee already waiting outside the door for me. I look over at him to find him smiling like a child, damn he was cute. Him and his tiny teeth. God. And his cute little nose. Oh god why is he blushing? It only makes him cuter and I swear if he gets any cuter I will faint. God I sound like a thirteen year old girl. But it's true, so don't judge. Oh now he's giggling like a five year old girl dammit. OH MY FUCK HE IS DOING THAT BECAUSE I'VE BEEN STARING FUCK. Frank get your shit together.


I giggle.


I fucking giggle.


Oh god. I am literally too embarrassed to speak. I just stand there, completely petrified, but I can't stop giggling. I am making a complete fool of myself in front of him and I can't seem to stop. He starts speaking and I am terrified of what he will say.


" You know you are really fucking adorable when you do that. Your cute little giggle. Gawd stop being so cute. It hurts."


Wat. Did he really just say that? He thinks I'm.......cute? What? Why? How? I don't know what to say next, but the words come out before I can stop it.


"Oh and what about you Mr. Attractive Face."




" Me? How can I compare to your beauty? Hmm?" I don't know what is going on.what's happening. Shhhhhhhhh just go with it Frank.


I squeel. Oh when will I stop.



" C'mon Mr. Cutie. I need your help with my homework." He grabs my hand and we run out the building. I'm about to lose my shit.

We run until every student is out of sight. Then he stops and starts walking. I look around to find us in an alleyway. He turns to me.


" You really think I'm attractive?" Oh god yes. You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.



" Umm...Yeah?" He smiles.


" Not as much as I find you attractive." He leans in to me and our lips collide. He kisses me rough, but gentle, gently rough or roughly gentle. Whatever it is its fucking amazing. I grab onto his back and pull him closer to me, the heat of the moment is overwhelming. He grabs onto my hair and tugs at it,emitting a slight moan from me. His lips are soft, warm and taste like coffee and cigarettes. He pulls away.


"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have done that, oh god." He says. He rambles on to himself about how stupid that was. It wasn't stupid at all. I loved it. I decided put him at ease.


"Chill" I say, pulling him back in.

Notes

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