What the fuck is wrong with him?
First he comes in here looking like he hates everyone, especially me.
Then he just grins back at me like he just didn’t storm out of my room peculiarly last night.

I haven’t told him that he could’ve left my room since the first time he asked if he would go.
I just wanted him to be in my room just a little bit longer, with me. Now I regret it all.
I didn’t think it would end up the way it did.
But I’m happy he doesn’t hate me, at least it doesn’t look like it.

I grin back at him again.

He smirks stupidly at me.

I wonder how stupid we look.
We just sit as far away from each other as we can and keep grinning at each other like we were somehow retarded.

I burst out in laughter as he stares at me with the ugliest grin I’ve ever seen.
I must admit that he’s still the most beautiful boy I’ve ever known, even though I don't like him really, I just want to play..

The teachers are watching us.
I try to hear what they’re talking about.
They seem to be wondering why I look so cheerful today.

I realize that this is my first time I laugh here.
Maybe I really am a little bit happier than before.
I just feel happy, now I’ve got a reason to come out of my room more often.
I promise to myself that I’ll drink my “morning” coffee always at here in our cafeteria, starting today.
I want to see him at least once a day, even if he was angry with me, even if i don't even like him.
Okay who the fuck am I kidding, I like this boy so much.
He is my reason to do something now.

I’ve finally got a friend or something. Or just someone to tease, i don't even know.
Though I can't get too attached since I know how this will end.

If he keeps behaving like an asshole, then i'll just tease the shit out of him. It's up to him, I can do this nicely and if he's an asshole I can do it the less fun way.
But for now, I don’t want to scare him any more.
And I really don’t want to ruin our friendship, or whatever it is now, as I just almost lost him.

I want to know more about him before doing anything I might regret.
I don’t even know how old he is, but I can see that he’s older than me.
I don’t even know if he’s gay, probably not.
I don’t know almost anything about him. To be honest, I don't even remember his name, which he told me last night.

I hate the fact that I don’t have the power to hear others' thoughts; it would be interesting to hear his thoughts.
But wait, we’ve got some witches here that have the power, maybe I should ask them to read his mind or something and then tell me.
Oh wait again, everybody hates me and nobody wants to be near me.
I hate this; I only have the powers that are very useless with things like this.

I can hear him laughing, oh my god, his laugh sounds so cute.
I smile and stare at him as he laughs.
He stops laughing and stares back at me.
He smiles quickly to me, and then his face goes blank.

I keep smiling at him, he stares at me blankly.
He looks like he’s lost in his thoughts..

Then he looks at me with his eyes widened.
He looks scared.
He gets up from his seat, returns his cup and runs out of the canteen.

What the actual fuck dude?
What did I do now?
It's kind of obvious that I can now bury all my dreams about him and just forget him, since he just can't decide if he's on my side or not. Fucking idiot.

I cover my face with my hands.
I already thought that he didn’t hate me.

Maybe he just realized that he really hates me too, just like everyone else.

- - - - -

I’m running as fast as I can.
I just had to get out of there, out of Frank’s sight.
I let it happen again.
I let Frank control my mind.

This time he went further than ever before.
When he grinned at me I thought he was really cute.
When he smiled at me, I thought that I want to kiss that pretty face so bad.
I got almost lost in his game. I won’t let that happen, never.

How could he do this to me?
I thought he wanted friends.

Notes

sorry it's very short :c
i haven't slept well last few nights so i've been very tired :'D
but i hope you still like it and leave a comment (:
there's coming some big things in the story soon :3