What's life like bleeding on the floor

Its two days after and I come home after school (I got beat up, no surprise.) To find it vacant, thank god.

up the stairs to my room and quickly grab some stuff, shoving it in a bag. The before mentioned stuff includes:

some clothes, a notebook, some pens, water, and $300 dollars I had saved up.

i drop the bag out of the window and jump out after it, landing ungracefully on the grass below. I grab the notebook and a pen, quickly scribbling down some after thinking for a moment. I sign my name and stand up, shoving the notebook and pen back in my bag.

i begin walking down the sidewalk, pulling ,my hood over my head as i walk. I follow the familiar route to gerards apartment (he lives alone). When i arrive i grab the piece of paper, shoving it in his mailbox. I feel a hot tear run down my cheek.

i run off quickly, making my way towards downtown. I can get to the highway from there, and then just keep walking. I don't know where I'm going to go, but anywhere will be better than where I can hurt Gerard.

Notes

OK, I haven't updated in forever!!!!! I'm so sorry!!! I feel like a terrible person!!! I feel even more terrible for what I'm going to make happen to Frankie soon tho!!! Spoilers!!!
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