Just Look at All That Pain

Since the night with Bert, three days earlier, Gerard had only left the house to stock up on booze and the occasional pizza. He had been refusing to let Mikey or Ray in, not because he was mad at them, just because he didn’t want them to see him like this. He had basically been living on the floor in front of the living room couch. His routine normally consisted of waking up with a hangover, designing comic book ideas, start drinking again then pass out around midnight.
The only positive thing had been that he was usually too fucked to go out and find a coke dealer so hadn’t become a coke addict again, on top of everything else.
Gerard was laying on his back with his arms and legs spread out around him, surrounded by comic books, sketch books, pencils and empty bottles. He was eventually woken up by his phone vibrating across the floor. He swung his arm over and brought his phone to his ear.
“Hmpf”
“Gee? Its Mikey.”
“Yea, what’s up,” Gerard asked gruffly.
“Um Gee, they found a body in the park near Frank’s car. The police haven’t released the identity yet but they think it might be Frank.”
“Oh." By now, Gerard had just started ignoring everything about Frank's suicide. It was easier to deal with it that way.
“I’m going to come over later, after band practice, about 8? Is that ok?”
“Yeah,” Gerard had stopped paying attention by now. He was just staring blankly at the ceiling.
“Ok, bye…” Mikey hadn’t really figured out what Gerard was doing behind closed doors. Somehow, whenever Mikey, Ray or anyone else called, Gerard managed to sound sober. He hung up and slide it on top of small pile of comics
Gerard had dozed off again on the floor when his phone alarm woke him up. He rolled over and checked the screen. ‘Electricity Bill’. He had completely forgotten about bills and shit. He got up and stretched and grabbed his keys, figuring he better go get the mail. Sleeping on the floor was one thing, but sleeping on the floor without electricity was another.
He rode the elevator down to the ground floor and opened his tiny mail box. It was filled with junk mail and bills, but something caught his eye as he flipped through it. It was just a plain white envelope, with nothing written on it.
‘I’ll open it later. Right now I need a shower’ he thought to himself as he realized how badly he actually smelled.
When he got back to the apartment, he tossed the keys and the mail onto the coffee table and headed into the kitchen. The fridge was completely empty, except for a half empty bottle of water. He figured he would shower quickly and make a beer run, or more likely a rum and vodka run.
He threw on the closest thing he could find and headed to the grocery store around the corner. Luckily it was pretty empty, which was unusual. He had loaded up his cart with four or five different bottles and he was heading down the cereal aisle when an all-too-familiar voice cried out his name.
Gerard looked up to see Bert quickly shuffling towards him. He gave Gerard a big hug, which not only confused the shit out of him, it also made him feel slightly comfortable, which confused him even more. Considering the last time Gerard saw Bert, he had his tongue shoved down a drag queen’s throat, Bert was being incredibly friendly.
“Sorry I lost you at that club. I looked for you but I think you left,” Bert said as he put his hand on Gerard’s shoulder.
“Don’t worry about it. It happens,” Gerard replied, trying to hide the contents of his shopping cart, while trying to finish the conversation as quickly as possible. Bert didn’t need to know he hadn’t been sober since their night out together.
Bert had started filling Gerard on the details of their night out, which caused Gerard to zone out, focusing on the space just next to Bert’s head.
“Gee, can we go get coffee or something sometime?”
That got Gerard’s attention, but he was interrupted before he could answer but none other than Mikey, who was stood there, looking absolutely furious.

Notes

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