Today was the last day before school started. I was determined to get Gerard to at least fucking have one conversation with me. I mean high school started for me tomorrow and then I'd never be here at the agency again to see him.

So far all he's said to me is 'fuck off' multiple times. He won't even give me a chance and I don't know why. He doesn't seem to have any friends I mean he's always alone.

As soon as I got to Jamia's shoot I ran off trying to find Gerard. After searching through all of the main shooting areas I was disappointed that he didn't seem to be there.

"No sit on him like this." I heard from him behind a door marked 'stage c pass only'

i didn't have a pass but I didn't care. I opened the door and oh my god.

there was shoot going on but not like any normal shoot. The photographer was shooting gerard and a man naked..on top of each other.

They were straddling each other and kissing. What the fuck. What the motherfucking fuck.

"shit who are you?" The photographer yelled noticing me.

Gerard and the other man froze and looked over towards the door.

"Fuck!" Gerard yelled shoving the other dude off him and grabbing a robe off the floor. He tied it before turning around and began walking towards me.

"You know him?" The photographer asked.

Gerard just shook his head and walked over to me shoving me out of the room.
"What the hell are you doing?!" He hissed.

"No what the hell are you doing taking pictures like that!?" I shot back.

he shook his head and got really close to my face. "fucking leave. Stop trying to talk to me and become a part of my life and never bring this up. Bye frank." He said rudely.

"You remembered my name? And why should I stop talking to you?"

he shook his head again and turned around looking like he was about to head back into the room.

"Your gonna give me the silent treatment again? Why won't give me a chance, because right now it looks like you really need people in your life since your fucking selling your body to the public." I told him.

He flipped me off before going back into the room and locking the door.

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I sat under the bleachers of the schools football field smoking weed. It was midnight but I didn't care. I wanted to get my mind off of what I saw.

I just wanted to make one god damn friend. I honestly didn't have very many. The ones I did have were going to different high schools so I was going in alone tomorrow.

halfway through my weed stash this boy and his friend came running under the bleachers laughing.
i tired to run but they saw me before I could put everything away.

"hey is that weed?" The one asked. He was thin and had glasses. The other was tall and had huge hair.

"Uh maybe..uh why?" I asked

"dude don't freak out I'm just asking it's not like we don't smoke it."

"Uh ya it's weed."

"Awesome! Dude can take a hit off your blunt? I'm Mikey by the way. That's ray." the kid with glasses said.

i nodded and handed him the blunt as he sat down next to me and ray in front of me forming a triangle.
"I'm frank."

" awesome how old are you?"

"I'm fifteen."

"Sweet so are we! So are you going to Belleville high too?" Ray asked.

I nodded

"so no offense but if schools tomorrow why are you out here smoking?" Ray asked

"Just trying to get my mind off someone."

"Ohhhh who's the girl." Mikey asked shoving me in the side a little.

"It's a guy.."

"dude you...you aren't gay are you?" Mikey asked giving me a look.

I knew I was bi but obviously Mikey wasn't a big believer on gay rights.

"No I'm not gay it's just this dude who pissed me off." I lied.

"Oh thank god. My brothers a fucking faggot I hate that kid. That's actually why me and ray ran down here we played a prank on him." He said laughing

"You and your brother don't get along?" I asked

"dude he's a fag, of course not. Plus he's always an ass to me and every time someone tries to talk to him he just pushes them away." Mikey sighed.
"he's a useless older brother, he's even tired to off himself a few times."

I was shocked by how Mikey was talking about his brother. I mean the poor kid. His own brother hates him.

"So do you have any friends coming to Belleville?"
ray asked

"no I'm the only one a lot of my friends went to the private high school."

"My brother tried to transfer there he's not exactly popular but my parents said no. Either way wanna hang out tomorrow? You can sit with me and ray at lunch."

I thought for a moment before nodding. "yeah that sounds awesome." I smiled.

Mikey and ray both smiled but then Mikey's phone began to ring. "There's that faggot ass now." He groaned.
"me and ray gotta go but we'll see you tomorrow yeah?"

I nodded "yeah."

Notes

Another update. By the way I'm on like a bunch of medication right now so if anythings screwed up ill fix it tomorrow

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