Snap shot

"this isn't as fun as i thought it would be." bert said from the spot next to me on the couch,my head was spinning slightly but i wasn't totally drunk yet.

"and what exactly were you expecting I'm self loathing."

"i figured you'd come home and down like five beers instantly not just drink them as you stare at the wall." bert said sounding agitated.

"ya well i don't know what else to do okay?" i said taking another swig from my bottle

"i know something we could do" he said suggestively.

"fuck off were not having sex." i told him

"but why not I'm sure it'll help you get over whatever is going on with your little boyfriend."

"no it won't." i said flatly

"how do you know." he snapped back.

"because it didn't work the last time." i said sighing and grabbing the new bottle of beer from the case.

"wait so what I'm hearing is that sex didn't help you get over me.." bert said quietly "does that mean you sill have feelings for me?" he asked

"ya hate." i slurred becoming slightly more disoriented about my surroundings as the new bottle of alcohol kicked in.

"well maybe if that didn't work it means you were meant to be with me?"

"you treated me like shit then dumped me the day after i gave you my virginity all for some fucking bet!"

bert looked taken aback out my out lash "wait you know it was a bet? gerard how'd you even- i swear i didn't want to do it."

"bull shit! i was stuffed in a fucking locker on the shittiest day of my life because you'd taken my virginity and ran, then you cracked my heart even more by talking to your friends about how even though it was bet the sex was still good. You lead me on for two fucking years and for what!?" i yelled "to fuck up my mind even more?!"

i wanted to cry at that point. "bert you of all people knew i was depressed when we first met in my freshman year. How could you a fucking junior at the time be so cruel to do that to me? build me up then break me down when i opened up to you and came out for you which cost me my own fucking brother." i asked.

"you knew i had started self harming after you cheated on the first time with your little girl whore and you just came bak to torture me even more and pretended like you love me for what some sick entertaining game?"

"gerard i came back because i made mistake with that girl, and because i love you." he said sadly

"bull shit. bull fucking shit."

"im not lying. i loved you..i still love you and that bet was the stupidest thing i ever did. i kept trying to come back because i wanted to not because of anything else. gerard i cared then and i care now."

it took me a minute to process everything in my drunken state but by then i just didn't care.
"screw it." i said before connecting his lips with mine.

Notes

im in study hall right now so sorry if its shitty

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