Snap shot

Gerard's pov

I was going crazy. My mom was watching me like a hawk. My dad was making me go everywhere with him when my mom had to go out and it was boring, and mikey...
well he's just making my mood about ten times worse

it's also been a month since I've talked to frank. He's rarely over anymore and Mikey's now been going to his house instead.

I've tried texting and calling frank but he won't answer. I've even tried slipping hints to mikey to try and get him to tell me why he won't come over anymore but Mikey's either oblivious or ignoring me.

"gerard lunch" mikey called from the kitchen. It was Saturday so mikey was home sadly until he went out tonight, if he did.

I walked into the kitchen and frowned at my plate. "I can't eat all of that." I said looking at my mom.

"Gerard you're still gaining weight. sit down and eat."

"But mom-"

"sit!" She said harshly.

My moms been taking everything the hardest this past month. I mean if I was forty years old and had to watch my eighteen year old child all day everyday I'd probably become irritable too.

My dad isn't that bad since he just does what my mom tells him to do regarding me and mikey hasn't been affected at all really except that I'm always home when he wants friends over but doesn't want me.

I sat down and began eating feeling my gut clench on the first bite. I ate half of the sandwich on my plate before I stopped. "I can't eat any more." I said because it was true. If I took another bite I'd puke.

"You only ate half." No shit really I didn't know that. thanks mikey for your words of wisdom.

"Gerard." My mom said harshly.
"you need to-"

"eat! Yes I fucking know!
That's all you've said to me the past month! I've been eating! I've even kept track of how much weight Ive gained since the last time I weighed myself before the beach and I've gained weight! What more do you want form me?!" I screamed making both mikey and mom jump.

"Gee calm down-"

"don't you dare fucking tell me to calm down mikey." I spat in his face.

"I have been dealing with you relentlessly tourtouring me for my whole life and I'm sick of it.
Don't you ever get sick of seeing me hurting or cutting myself because you know damn well the beach was not the first place you saw my arms or thighs.
I'm sick of it! I'm sick of you using me to take whatever anger you have pent up and letting it out on me instead of whatever's bothering you.
I mean there has to be something pissing you off or else you would be such an ignorant little cunt all the-"

"GERARD!" My mom screeched.

"what are you going to defend him?!" I asked

"you will not. ever. use that, that word towards anyone ever again."

"Jesus's Christ mom! Ask mikey how many times he's called me that or called me a faggot or worse? Let's see I have enough names that he's calls me on a daily basis to make a list!
Homo fuckface fucktard shithead asshole cocksuker whore waste of space gay fairy princess prostitute cockslut, cunt-"

"stop it!" My mom screamed slamming her fists on the counter. "You will not talk like that to your brother in his own house or anywhere else!"

"What brother? Mikey? Oh you've got it all wrong, We. Are. Not. Brothers."

"Gerard Arthur Way that is your brother and-"

"stop defending him! And as far as I'm concerned he isn't my brother. He stopped being my brother when I was fifteen."

"I don't want to hear any more out of your mouth." she said through clenched teeth.

"I don't give a shit! I'm done trying to make you happy and eat and not slice my skin open.
I'm tired of being shuned for being gay by mikey, and I'm tired of not being trusted! I'm done I can't take it anymore!" I yelled at her and ran down to my room locking my door and grabbing a duffle bag.

I filled it with clothes and then went back upstairs. I threw the bag over my shoulder and walked into my parents room shoving past mikey who tried to stop me.

I went to their dressers and dug through them until I found my phone and charger they'd taken.

"What on earth do you think you're doing?" My mom asked.

I walked back out to the living area and towards the front door holding my phone against my ear ignoring her. I didn't care about who I was calling at that moment I just wanted to leave and I needed someone older with a car willing to drive me far away.

"Hello? If I'm not mistaken my caller Id said gee." the voice stated sounding unsure

"yea it wasn't a mistake. It's me and I need you to come pick me up ASAP at my house."

"What brings this on? Finally giving me a second chance?" The voice asked hopefully.

"By my count you're on like your fifth chance. Just hurry I need to leave."

"Okay I'm on my way be there in five." The voice said and then hung up.

Notes

Who's picking gee up ;)
by the way I dropped my phone in a hot tub and I was so upset. Oh I also started school today so yea

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