you are another me

I got back to my normal schedule since the last time Frank and I talked.
Remember how i said i couldnt get anything done because of him? Yeah well because i was to confused. I figured him out, His poor little broken heart needs mending and im happy i can be there to do that for him.
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Frank said he likes me though im a lil crazy. Do you not understand how special he is? If a person can like you for your imperfections everything about them becomes beautiful. They give a shit.
Frank gives a shit.

My paintings been coming along over the past week. Frank made me so happy that my art's a lot more brighter than how it used to be. I used to paint how i felt about death. Just depressing thoughts that are a huge mood killer so lets not ever bring my past art up shall we?

I constantly draw Frank, Outside scenes, his eyes -Since i got to see them up close they were a lot more prettier than just seeing them from 2 stories up- So i couldnt help drawing them.
Oh and in case you were wondering why im painting instead of spending the time i have with Frank is because he still has school. Schools important yet full of shit. I wouldnt want him to fail because of me. Everytime Frank comes here saying he'd rather be here than doing homework i send him back home. Id rather he'd be here instead too, but i cant lead him into failing. That would be a huge mistake... I dont want him to end up like me. (im not saying dropping out of school made me like this but you get what i mean)

I went outside today for the first time alone. It was peaceful. I wish i considered actually stepping out of my house sooner but oh well.
I made my way to the backyard. When i first got this house there was a garden, now most of its dead. Not that im bothered by it, i still think its beautiful. I stood there in front of the dead flowers, I noticed a few that were still alive and growing. I smiled looking at each of the still functioning plants until an idea crawled into my head.

I gathered up the flowers and raced into the house. I all but fell down the stairs to the basement. When i stumbled upon the swaying noose in the middle of the room i came to a halt. I eyed it down as if it was staring right through me. No this can not get to me.
I walked towards it. I grabbed the loop and wrapped one of the flowers stem's around and stuck it in the rope. The pink flowers was attached to the noose dangling slightly. I took the rest and did the same.

I've spent at least an hour following up with my idea. I took a step back and stared at what i created. The loop was filled with lovely flowers. Some hanging off of it some tangled within the rope. This noose for as long as i can remember was the most threatening thing in my life. Now, It was the most beautiful. You can make anything beautiful and i wish the world can see that. Its amazing what your brain can do.
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I was 4 songs into the album Killers -Iron Maiden- when on spur of moment i heard one of the floor boards creek. I clenched my fists getting ready to fight whoever the fuck stepped into my house. What if it was someone wanting to kill me? I cant just fight them right then and there i need something. Something to distract them.
I picked up a torn but stable baseball from the ground and threw it in the direction of the sound. Right before i threw it I heard his beautiful voice. "Wait I-" I would have stopped but it was already too late.
Oh my god I just threw a fucking baseball at Frank.

"Shit" I mumbled staring at him while he was gripping his arm in pain.
Well he shouldnt of came into my house to begin with so who's fault was it really.
Oh fuck it, it was mine.
"You could of knocked," I whispered trying to stay as calm as possible
"I know im sorry for scaring you" Frank said looking down,
I cant just let him off the loose like that.

"What were you thinking" I spoke through slightly clenched teeth.
Frank looked guilty as ever.
"Okay i know your angry and you have every right to be but i-i just.. I just wanted to know what was in here that made you so sad ..i-" He trailed off then a little gasp escaped his lips when he saw the noose.
He met my gaze through the loop and sighed
"I wanted to figure you out" Frank said quietly.

I gawked at the words being said. Frank wants to figure me out. my Frank want to- Oh my god this is amazing. I knew he was special. I mean, I didnt think he was dumb or anything but most teenagers could care less. But not Frank. He cares. I love him

"Fr-Frank?" Frank whispered
Wait wha- Oh.
"Y-Yeah?" I whisper back

"Please stay alive for me" Frank walks closer
I smile shaking my head.
Frank stops walking but reaches for my hand.
I step back continuing to shake my head.

But Frank doesnt give up, He lunges at me and wraps his arms around me
"Please" He mutters
I stare at the noose then back at him.
"Im not going anywhere" I murmur hugging back
Frank nudges my neck and i shiver from the close contact.

"Would you like me to go?" He asks attempting to let go but instead gets pulled in even closer -by me of course-
"Id much rather prefer you here, but if you want to leave than by all means. I wont force you to do anything" I say letting go

"I didnt say i wanted you to let go" Frank laughs coming back to hug me


Oh what'd i do to hold him here forever.

Notes

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Note:
Im leaving town for the weekend and i wont be able to get wifi so ill update on monday okay