you are another me

I woke up in the guest room covered by multiple blankets.
My body felt like it was surrounded by flames.
Confused and comfortable but more confused

"Frank?" I whispered loudly
"coming" He said before i saw his small little frame limp into the room
Frank crawled over beside me. I hugged him tightly.
"Baby im so sorry" I said squeezing him tighter
"Gerard i can barely breathe" Frank squealed
I moved away quickly and hid beneath the covers
Frank whined and moved closer, resting his head on my chest.
I was gonna push him away but then i realized i had him where i wanted him.

Right here.
With me.
No fighting.
No broken hearts
Safe.

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After a long while of Frank sleeping on my chest i couldn't fall asleep, As if i stopped worrying about him. He's the only thing i have apart from Ray and Bob but even still. I dont love them like i love Frank.
Frank's my angel, my beauty, my highlight of the day. Seeing him hurt rips me apart.
He loves me. I dont deserve him. I hurt him. I was supposed to protect -help- him not lay any of my fingers on him. I gave him scars he wont remember. Scars he wont forget.
I knew i stayed fucked up. I had hope i was gonna feel something more but of course i was wrong.

"mmf" Frank groaned as his eyes fluttered open,
I looked down at him and he smiled slightly.
"Your heart beat was going so fast it woke me up" He whispered
"oh"
"hope youre not still worrying about hurting me Gee" Frank snuggles into my chest before sitting up beside me cross legged.
I sit up too taking his hands in mine
"Cant help it hun" I whisper
Frank leans closer almost touching the end of my nose with his.
"F-Frank" I stammer
"Calm down" Frank whispers leaning so close that i can feel his breath on my lips
Fuck it i think, I close my eyes leaning and our lips slowly collide.

I bring my hand up to his neck bringing him closer.
Frank smiles against my lips pressing harder.
His tongue pokes out of his mouth running along my bottom lip.
I refuse to let him in. Yknow the open mouthed kiss he so badly wants.
Frank bites my bottom lip this time and i smile, liking the way im teasing him.

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Frank makes a frustrated noise and breaks the kiss. I open my eyes slowly raising my eyebrows.
"Well that was nice while it lasted" I smirked
"No it wasnt..Why didnt you let me?"
"Let you what exactly?" I asked
"You know what i mean!"
"I know" I said connecting our lips again

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Its been god knows how long since the last time we stopped making out,
Suddenly I felt vibrating and saw light.
Frank didnt seem to realize so i reached for the device still kissing him.
It took a while for my hand to maneuver over everything in attempts to try and receive his phone but i managed.
The time read 4:00am and my eyes popped out of my head.
Its sunday. Frank has school. Im distracting.

My late reaction made Frank jump a little. Yeah note to self dont yell in the middle of making out.
"Whats wrong holy fuck" Frank gasped
"Sorry sorry" I calmed down a little hugging him
"What though" He asked hugging back
"Its 4 in the morning" I said letting go
"Dumb" He purred undoing my shirt buttons
"Frank, I know youre responsible enough to go home and get rest" I say, yet not stopping him from undoing my dress shirt
"I can always rest here" Frank moves his lips on my neck leaving the last button on my shirt
I cock my head a little, then i look at the phone again. "Come on you," I say, and I reach out for a candle thats sitting on the nightstand. "It's getting late."
"Past your bedtime?" Frank asks cheekily, and I laugh.
"Yeah, it is." I whisper, and i light the candle, standing up.

"What are you doing?" Frank asks eyeing me down with the candle in my hand.
"Im walking you home, kid" I laugh walking out the door. Frank follows.

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time lapse ish
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"Gerard? Whyd you stop walking"
I turn around to look at Frank, Tears welling up in my eyes.
"I love you Frank," I whisper running over and picking up Frank, hugging him.
"I-I uhm. I love you too?" Frank sounds confused and i laugh, tears falling down my cheeks

We were only minutes away from Frank's door step.
"You should go" my voice shakes
"Come with me?"
I smile
"Im fine, i have stuff to figure out"

"See you tomorrow" Frank finally says before walking to his house

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