you are another me

Frank sighs in the crook of my neck, nudging it.
"I thought you were asleep honey" I purr
"I-I am" He whispers weakly
I pull his small body closer to mine, whispering sweet words into his ear
When i hear those soft sleepy noises i know he's asleep. I love holding him, i wanna make sure im not doing anything but protecting him. He deserves to be protected.

Sudden shaking wakes me up from my slumber
"What is it?" I whine
"I had a bad dream!!!" Frank squeals latching onto me
I open my eyes a little wider to see a terrified teenager looking very much like a child.
He's wearing my clothes, the shirt is oversized and Franks drowning in it. He's so precious.
Though ive never seen him this scared and all im doing is staring at him.
"Gerard" He whispers, tears trickling down his cheeks
"Frankie, Youre okay.. Here lets go into the kitchen yeah?" I pick up Frank bridal style before he can answer because either way we're calming down in the kitchen, its a calming place.
I settled Frank in my lap as i sat in the chair.
"It was so real Gerard.." He cried
"Shh.. youre okay sweetie" I rock him back and forth holding him close to my chest.
"Can we go outside?" He sniffles
I go wide eyed and stiffen up.
"I cant"
"Why n-not?"
I sigh not wanting to argue picking him up again and going outside, settling on the wet grass -its lightly raining-
"Are you okay Frank?" I ask noticing the shaking of his body
"Yeah i just dont want you to leave me" He puts his head down
"Dont worry hun, I will never. Now instead of being sad lets enjoy how romantic it is out here" I smile holding him by the waist standing us up/
Frank wraps his arms around my neck and inches his face closer to mine
My breath gets caught in my throat
"You know, I always wanted to kiss someone in the rain"
"Yeah?" I smirk
Frank bites his lip and closes the space between us
I lean into it, deepening the kiss.
It was raining harder now and our hair was soaking wet sticking to both our faces as we sloppily kiss under the shower of rain.
"I love kissing you" Frank interrupts
"Lets not interrupt this fine moment okay?" I say leaning in placing my desperate lips to his

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When it has gotten too cold and we were too wet, we decided to go inside to cuddle.
"Wouldn't want you getting a cold Frank" I purr sliding off his shirt
"If you wanted my shirt off you could of just said so" He laughed pulling it off himself.
"Do you want my shirt off?"
"It would be a shame if you got sick though" He says nearly ripping it off me
I giggle as i undo the knot in my soaking sweat pants
Franks pants are already off when mine drop to the floor.
"We gonna cuddle or do something more?"
"One step at a time Frank" I roll my eyes smiling as we crawl into bed.

"I think i should re dye my stupid hair" I whisper not really talking to Frank but more to myself
"Or shower at least. Yeah showering would be nice"
Frank stirs but makes no sign of waking up.
I lean down placing my lips onto his.
Frank's eyes open and thats when he moves his lips against mine
"Im sorry for waking you up" I break the kiss
"naah" He whispers snuggling up to me
I wrap my arm around his waist.
Frank kisses my chest
"I like listening to your heart beat.. its like my lullaby"
Aw my heart.
"Your voice puts me to sleep babe" I say back bringing him closer

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I wake up to the sound of the front door slamming against the rusty hinges.
"What!?" I yell getting up with only my boxers and running to the door
I get to the front meeting Frank's eyes staring at my junk.
I laugh nervously getting an umbrella and hiding behind it.
"I didnt mean to wake you but.." He said softly
"But what? you nearly scared me half to death" I protest
"I got you something.." He giggles leading me into the kitchen
I look at the bag in his hand annoyed hoping its not more food he wants to shove down my throat.

Frank pulls out a small box from the bag, I look at it confused.
"Gerard its hair dye" He laughs looking at my questioning face
Dye?
"Oh god please tell me its red" I beg running over to him jittery yet excited.
"What other color would it be?"
I gape my mouth smiling and grabbing onto him squeezing ridiculously tight
"Woah calm down its just hair dye" He laughs into my shoulder
I let go of him and taking the box out of his hands. I breath more heavily feeling the excitement just bounce around in my body.
"Thank youthankyouthankyouthankyou" I yell jumping up and down like a 5 year old getting a new toy.
"Aw no problem Gee" He laughs kissing my cheek
I feel my cheeks get hotter.

Frank puts a ribbon around my eyes tying it and taking my hand
"Frank what you doing?" I ask trying to take it off
"Stop oh my god" He runs still linked with my hand making me nearly fall.
I feel cool air hit me in the face. Shit we're outside aren't we.
"No no no Frank" Pull his hand the opposite way
"But..Youre gonna thank me after i promise" He pouts pulling my hand leading me down the hill
I let out a sigh of annoyance. I hate outdoors. People are probably looking at me .. judging me.
"Hey Gerard youre fine, im bringing you to my house"
If i didnt have this damn ribbon on my eyes you could see how shocked i was.
I stop in my tracks, sitting down not caring whether we're on the road or not. No way was i going to someones house who their parents probably hate me.
"Youre acting like a child" He says trying to pull me up
"Frank everyone hates me in this town can we not" I let go of his hand
"Okay fine" He says
I sit there expecting him to say more but all i hear is silence but the trees rustling in the wind.
"Frank?" I still have the blindfold on so i dont know if he left or is just being a dick and scaring me by not talking.
I scratch off the ribbon then wishing i hadn't when i see that im sitting in the street of an unknown yet familiar street. No sign of Frank. Yup that fucker left.
I get up angrily walking the way i believe we were originally going.
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In the middle of walking like i wanna kill someone, suddenly a fucking rock gets thrown at my head. I turn around seeing Frank laughing behind me.
Glad that i found Frank but mad that he left me. The two emotions fought against each other as i walk -run- to Frank. When i approach him i try really hard not to yell but i fail miserably
"The fuck Frank!" I yell lifting him up by the shirt
I hear a gasp and his hands grip mine grasping on the clothing.
"Im sorry i had to calm down yknow" He says kicking his feet
I dont bother placing him down, i just kinda drop him.
"Wheres your house" I spit out
Frank scrambles to his feet and walks in front of me, head down mumbling something i cant understand.
Frank stops at a door step opening the door for me, I walk in nodding at him.

I stand in the doorway awkwardly.
"Come in Gerard" He whispers
I walk towards him, latching onto his arm.
He laughs and walks downstairs taking me to a couch in front of a big screen tv.
"You stay here, ill be right back"
I nod looking at the blank screen.
This house looked a lot newer than mine -obvs- Beside the tv there was a desk with a laptop on it. Decorations covering the walls. It made me have a urge to paint.
Soon Frank came back smiling.
I stare at him feeling guilty that i almost hurt such an innocent thing.
Frank's smile fades as he gets closer
"Is something wrong?" He asks touching my chest with his hand
"Something's very wrong" I sigh lifting him up and placing him in my lap
"Well would you like to talk about it?" He shifts his body getting comfortable
"Frank.. Im sorry for earlier. I shouldn't've acted that way, Im sorry for even touching you" I sigh defeated
Frank smiles and rests his head in the crease of my neck
"Its okay, you were mad and you had every right to be" He kisses my neck sending shivers up my spine
"But .. do you still love me?" I know im being silly but i gotta wonder
Frank looks up at me shocked.
I look down at him confused.
"Gerard you idiot of course i do!" He yells waving his hands everywhere before resting his arms around my neck.
"I'll always love you" He whispers

We sit there staring and kissing eachother for a good 20 minutes until Frank gets up and takes me by the hand.
"Now lets dye that hair" He smirks
My eyes grow wide and i nod smiling.
We get into what appears to be a bathroom and he turns on the shower.
Oh how i need to wash myself.
"Hey uhm Frank?"
"Yees" He says turning to me
"Can i have a quick shower? I smell like shit"
Frank bites his lip and nods looking away as i take off my clothes
When im in the shower i close the curtains saying a quick 'you can look now' before going under the hot spray.
I wash only my body because im dying my hair anyway.
-minutes later-
I step out forgetting that Frank is still in here
He looks at me then up and down, mouth agape.
I stare at him feeling a tad self conscious but i stand still not sure what to do.
Frank steps closer reaching out and tracing his hands along the droplets of water running down my arms.
I shake my head grabbing the closest towel and wrapping it around my waist.
Franks frowns and gets me to sit down on the toilet seat.

He has the dye all set and he puts it in my hair, I close my eyes feeling relaxed that i dont have to do this myself.
God knows how long later Frank is on my lap massaging my scalp.
"Feels good?" He asks
I roll my eyes
"Dont use that tone, it sounds too seductive"
He tugs on my hair.
I moan unexpectedly and he looks at me right away lifting one eyebrow.
"Oops sorry" I say nervously
He laughs and pecks my lips.

When the dye has settled, he turns on the shower again.
"Rinse time!!" He says a little too excited
I put my head under the water closing my eyes and feeling the dye run on my neck.
Frank pulls me back up and tossed a towel on my head.
I dry my hair a little and Frank stares at me smiling with his teeth
"It looks so good gee!" He yells hugging me
"Wait i wanna see!" I step in front of the mirror and my hair looks vibrant.
I turn around grabbing Franks face and diving into his lips, kissing him hard.
"Thank you Sweetie" I whisper breaking the kiss.
"I like seeing you happy" He kisses my lips again.

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We were laying down together on the couch until a voice startled us
"Frank were home!"
I heard Frank curse under his breath
"Okay one sec!" He says looking at me scared
He runs upstairs.
I hear small talk start to form and then multiple foot steps coming downstairs.
I freeze looking at what seems to be Frank's parents looking at me.
"Whos this hun?" His mom asks
"Oh uuh this is my Friend that i was talking about .. Frank" He says
I nod waving.
They wave back unsure.
"Can he sleepover?" Frank blurts out
"Uh yeah sure whatever.. just uhm we need to speak with you first" His dad says pulling Frank along inside the bathroom

'he's not yknow your boyfriend right?' i heard someone say
'i uh'
'Frank you might not understand what your sexuality is yet but everyones straight okay?'
I clench my fists
After that i heard nothing but mumbling and then Frank screams
I jumped from the couch and ran to the closed bathroom door
"No dinner for you faggot" His dad whispers going past me
I growl at him and he just looks at me suspiciously.
I look back inside the bathroom and Frank is curled up on the ground
"Frankie" I kneel beside him kissing his cheeks
Frank starts crying and he latches onto me
I pull him into my chest.
"Shh they dont know anything" I whisper hugging him tighter
"Carry me?"
I smile picking him up bridal style over to the couch.
"I love you baby" I say softly hovering over him, leaning down and placing small kisses to his neck.

Frank moves over so i can lay next to him. I wrap my arm around him holding him close.
He puts his face in my neck until i hear those little sleepy noises.
"Gerard?"
I look at him
"Yes?"
"Do you think we'll last?" Frank whispers a little sad
"Yes."
"How do you know?"
"I dont but, we'll fight Frank."

"I'll fight for you" I whisper

Notes

Im failinf witht rhis story