you are another me

I trash through my cabinets to find some sort of drink to quench my god damn thirst.
Wheres all my water? -okay reminder i dont have money to pay for anything in this house so i had like a stash of water and shit-
I reached my hand into the darkness of the opening, I feel my hand touch a bottle. I grab it, taking it out to only realize its fucking alcohol. Its not shitty though. Its not like those cheep ones that get you drunk even when it tastes like shit, This one tastes good and can actually satisfy your taste buds instead of destroying them.
Mind as well have some if its the only good thing i have in this place. I dont plan on getting wasted yet a little more happiness wouldn't hurt now would it?

Pouring the moonshine into a glass and taking it all in one gulp. Hm. Pretty good for being in the cabinet for 2 years if i do say so myself. Im still thirsty though, one more glass shouldnt hurt. ..
Nah two glasses wont be enough. Three is okay right? Yeah. I mean, do what you gotta do right? im thirsty therefor i should drink more right? Riiiight??
Gerard stop asking yourself if you're right.
Right.

I sit up and in front of the big kitchen window examining the outdoors while drinking more of the poison.
Its nice out, Green grass shimmering in the sun, Little flowers waving in the wind, Frank staring at me, Tree's sway- Wait shit Frank?
Frank's in my front yard and obviously sees me drinking the fucking alcohol. Oh god what do i do in this situation. Im not that drunk so it shouldnt be too bad right???? He'll understand i had nothing else right? What if he- i hear the sudden door bell ring.
Im still holding the ... oh god the bottle is empty. What?! I only had like 3 shots. Well atleast i think i did.

I throw the bottle in my room and i hear the glass hit the floor. Good job Gerard. Its okay he didnt hear. Im not that drunk okay. Maybe a bit tipsy but im still thinking straight. Yes. I stumble down the steps to notice the front door shaking. Oh right, i forgot i put a lock on this thing.
"One second" I yell while trying to unlock the lock.
I get it open and the door flies open with a smiling Frank.
"Uhm.. Hi Gerard. You told me to come back?"
"Uhhhh y-yes" I slur
HE doesn't seem to notice so i just walk -try to walk without falling- upstairs into the kitchen.
My vision is anything but clear now and i start hyperventilating. He must be too close otherwise i dont know why im doing this.
"Hey are you okay?" Frank says concerned
I look at him and he's not even close. What the??
No he's gonna think im crazy i have to tell him ive been drinking to 'quench my thirst'
I fall to my knees and look around rapidly.
"Y-yeah im ... fine"
Frank's eyebrows furrow and he begins speaking
"Are you drunk?"
I feel my eyes expand
"I- uh i dont know" Im so smooth
The 16 year old sighs and helps me up.

"Why?" He asks placing me on my bed?
"Thirsty"
"See this is why i didnt want to leave you. You do stupid things like this. I dont want to see you like how i did the other day Gerard"
"But i was actually thirsty, wasnt sad. Just trying to get some fluids into me." I say laying down
"And you thought alcohol was a good choice"
I shook my head and turned over on my side. I thought he'd understand. He doesnt listen anyway, why should i even bother.
"Gerard-"
"Go find the guest room and figure yourself out if you havent yet" I interupt
"Coming from you" He huffs but i dont hear him leaving
Atleast im in the right mind. Like fuck you.
"Frank, im not gonna argue with you. Just go okay"
"Yeah yeah, and hey dont kill yourself while im gone" He laughs
Are you serious.
I stand up off the bed and push him out of the door way slamming the door.
"Watch your fucking words kid" I yell

I finally hear Frank leave into another room. Why would he even. Like. Ugh, teenagers. Actually no. I told you that hes smart right? He knows he is and he better be sorry.

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I wake up sober, Thank god. Now Frank cant accuse me of being in the wrong mind when clearly i was earlier.. kinda.
I walk out of my door and into the guest room, opening the door slowly in case his still asleep. I hear chocked out breathing and im wondering if hes still mad.
"Frank?" I whisper
The sounds that i thought were created by anger become clear to me. Frank begins to sob loudly. Oh god why is he crying.
"F-Frank? are you still mad at me?" Maybe not the most appropriate question to ask but hey i gotta know.
He sniffs and comes out of his covers. Red eyed beauty.
"Im sorry for whatever i did.. please dont cry" I kneel beside the guest bed
"W-what the fuck g-gerard, You didnt do anything a-and i completely torn y-you. my main goal was to f-fix you not make you even more upset" He stammers
Oohhhh. He thinks that im upset from what he said before i pushed him out. Got it. Well yeah im a bit pissed or was not until i figured out he didnt actually mean it. Plus he didnt cry like this before.

I couldnt form words other than curse words but even those didnt come out. All i did was ever so slightly tackle him into a hug. Tearing up myself -only bc my baby is crying- Frank pulls on my shirt like his life depends on it.
"Please dont leave me GErard. Yesterday was hard. and i know you told me to think about the decision and honestly i already made it. I dont care about age. I love you" He whimpers into my neck
"Hey hey hey, im not gonna leave you. Thatd be the last thing i do. I would hold you until the end of time" I whisper into his ear
I feel his lips curl into a smile against my neck and i smile as well taking in his scent.

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We lay together on the guest bed. Frank fell asleep in my arms. Which is so cute oh my god just holding him around the waist as i spoon him. Its adorable ok? I feel like two teenagers in love. Well thats half true. considering the age difference but im not gonna worry bout that just because Frank told me not too.
"Im not gonna let anyone hurt you baby" I say not even close to a whisper
"Not even myself" I say again
I feel his grip around my hand tighten.
I really need to enjoy this moment while it lasts. It wont be like this for too long i know that. People dont realize what they have until its gone and it saddens me thhat people get so heart broken. You need to prepare yourself or else you'll just die in the end. True love hurts. Even i know that. Whether its your partner or family.
Thats where Mikey comes in. I wasnt prepared, At the time i was still figuring myself out. let alone him.
He was out of my life so fast.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek. Then a couple more. More. It was too much, I let my head fall against Frank's back to try to muffle my sobs.
I thought i was hidden until i felt Frank flinch. Maybe he felt my tears through his shirt?
"Gerard?!" He yelled whispered
I managed to stop myself from letting out anymore sobs
"I-Im" I tried speaking but then more tears came rolling down my face
Frank moved from my grip turning around in the bed. I quickly covered my face and turned the other way.
"No hey! Please look at me.."
I sniffled and turned back closing my eyes
"Why are you .. c-crying" He whispers hugging me
"I-I dont want to lose you like how i lost Mikey" I sobbed into his chest
"What are you talking about gee? We're not gonna lose eachother" He said rubbing my back
If you really think so.
I let myself calm down in his touch. Our legs were tangled in one another and i moved my leg against his.
I expected to feel the rough jeans but it didnt seem like he had any pants on. Not that it bothered me but sleeping in jeans is fairly uncomfortable do i struggled but got my jeans off my body before Frank could notice i tangled our bare legs together like happy little teenagers.

"Can we kiss or are we still like yknow.." Frank trailed off
I lift my head up to meet his eyes and they were already looking down at me.
His face turned a dark red and i laughed nodding in response.
He smiled and slowly leaned down towards my face, eyes closed and innocent. Our lips touched for the first time in weeks and butterflies flew around in my stomach.
We slowly moved our lips. Maybe a little tongue here and there.
It was anything but sexual. But it was pretty damn romantic.
Just yknow, Laying in bed doing nothing but sharing sweet kisses. Cute as fuck. I loved it.

"I love you Iero" I said between our kiss
Frank pulled away and stared into my eyes probably to check if i was being serious or not.
I was, I loved him so so much.
"I-I love you too.. uh" oh my god he's so cute
"Way" I interrupted giggling.

"Oh yeah.. I love you too Way"

Notes

Fluffyness yo.

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