you are another me

I woke up on the bathroom floor. What, since when did i fall asleep here? I tried standing up but collapsed with a big thud. Pain struck in both my wrists and my chest. I looked down at my hands and my wrists were bandaged up. I stared at them confused when all of a sudden i felt a presence beside me, I turned my head and met face to face with .. Frank?

"oh my god .. oh my- Gerard." Frank cried latching on to me

I pushed away and tried to get up again but slipped on crimson liquid.

"What is going on?" I asked. Frank looked at me concerned

"You dont remember?! You-you almost died this morning gee .. i was so scared, i finally got the door to open and you werent breathing so i patched up your wounds and hoped for the best"

Im trying to grasp the memory of this morning, Flashbacks. Unwanted flashbacks of me picking up a knife and cutting my wrists open. Another followed by me laying in the bathtub barely breathing. Remembering this is unbearable. I was being selfish

"No Gerard dont leave now!" Frank yelled shaking me

I hadnt realized i wasnt breathing, those flashbacks were so harsh. How could i think Frank wanted me to die? At the time though. I wasnt sober enough to realize how much of an idiot i was being.

"I thought you wanted me to-" I said in a hushed tone
"I thought you didnt care" I added falling back on the ground like a lifeless ragdoll

Frank hurried over to my side and sat me back up.

"Its all my fault, I saw you at the cemetery. Hell i even heard you pouring your heart out to- .. it doesnt matter but i shouldnt of just let you walk alone .. i knew how fragile you were." Frank said and intertwining his fingers with mine

"Shut up, its not your fault. it was never your fault. Im a fuck up. Waste of a life." I say taking my hand out of his

Frank looked surprised mixed with hurt,
"Im sorry Frank. Im sorry for hurting you" I say while using the door handle to help me get to my feet. once i slowly start to stagger across the hall Frank appeared at my side helping me get to my room. I fall back against the soft mattress leading with me getting tucked in. I curl my lips into a half smile and stretch out my arms, Frank looks at me with a 'are you serious' look and i nod. Minutes later he's curled up against me.

I wish i had the strength to just kiss him and forget the world but instead here we are cuddling like the best 'friends' we are.

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The sun rays shoot through the curtains and blind me, I sit up and look to my sides. Frank's not there. Oh well he probably had to leave because after all he is just a kid. Even though it saddened me i was glad i had time to heal a bit. I slowly stand up and head into the kitchen. I go to sit in my chair when i stopped in my tracks, someone took my spot. And that someone my friend, was indeed Frank. "Why are you still here mr" I like calling him mr. Dont ask.
Frank jerked his head towards me and smiled
"No way im leaving you alone, you already got into enough trouble" He smirks gesturing me to sit across from him. I shake my head

"Out"
Frank's eyes fill with hurt and i make the most confused look. Why does he look so sad? All i wanted was my chair back. But Frank gets up and walks away. I swiftly grab his hand and place him in the seat across from my seat. "I didnt mean out of my house, i meant out of my chair" I laugh, Frank's face lightens up and stares at me.
Oh god i want to kiss him.

"I was meaning to ask you" Frank says after a while of staring
"Yees?" I ask not paying any attention
"How old are you then?" Frank whispered sounding nervous
"Do i really look that old to you Frank? Im only 20 jeez"
"Oh thank god i thought you were like 40. NOT that you look 40 but yknow"
I nod and continue to stare at the window

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"Can we go outside?" Frank asks obviously bored
"Backyard it is" I speak leading him to the back door

Its pretty shitty out honestly, Raining slightly and cold. So lot for june.
Frank runs out and sits on the wet grass, i stare un amused.
"No way" I say stepping back into the house
"C'mon please?????" Frank whines like a 7 year old
"Oh fine. God youre annoying" I mutter walking towards him, I cringe at the water droplets hitting me.

I sit down next to Frank with crossed arms
"God your such a baby" Frank says
"Oh yeah?" I question as i shake the tree above us. All the water splashes on Frank like a waterfall and he gasps
"You jerk .." He grunts
"now im cold" He adds

I take this opportunity and i take off my jacket putting it around his small frame. I see Frank blush slightly. "Thanks Friend" He laughs. "I kinda wanna be more" I sigh not expecting him to hear me. "Oh?" He says leaning closer, I hesitate and stand up.
"Where you going?!" He asks sadly
"Inside .. cold" Excuse
"You can have your jacket back?" Frank follows me
I refuse and step in the porch.

I take off my wet shoes and sweater. I turn around to close the door but not expecting Frank to be right there. "Fuck you scared me" I breath.
without warning Frank backs me up against the wall and stands on his tippy toes.
I breath heavily not sure whats happening. Seconds later he leans in filling in the tiny gap.

I feel my face burning up and i comply right away holding his waist, kissing back. His lips are so soft just like i imagined them and his lip ring. Oh god i tried to stop myself from pulling it with my teeth but i just couldnt. The response i got from Frank told me to keep going. I open my mouth and soon after he does too.

Frank's tongue slips into my mouth and i let out a breathy moan. I didnt mean too, it just felt so right? i dont know. I sure felt something in order for me to moan like that. Everything started happening so quickly. Frank continued to kiss but then started to grind against me. Sending my blood rushing to all the wrong places but it just felt so good I couldn’t help but move against him as well.

No Gerard stop! He's 16. I stop abruptly and Frank looks at me flushed and panting.
"Fuck youre good gee," Frank pants

"As are you" I pant back

Notes

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