At three, the doctor decided to check on me and he finally said I would be able to go home and took Gerard out with him to sign the release papers. Meagan and Pete with Bronx went back to our house to get me an extra pair of clothes since the ones I came in where bloody and ripped. So it was just me and Bandit, she sat on the bed in between my legs as I played with her hair. "Mommy, when i grow up, will I be able to have hair like you? With color?" I pulled her closer to me, "Of course, it's your life. You can dye your and get piercings and tattoos, whatever you want Love." I murmured into her ear. "But when you're 13. On you 13th birthday, I will take you to get a piercing and your hair." "Promise?" She asked holding her pinky up. "I promise." I whispered wrapping my own pinky around hers and squeezing.

"I love you." She whispered clutching my hand. I smiled and kissed her little palm. "I love you too." Just as that happened, Gerard walked in and smiled, his eyes lighting up. "Everyone is here. I called them but they don't know you are awake so you could surprise them. You like that for some reason." I laughed as he picked Bandit up and swung her on his hip. "You know me so well." I replied smiling and pressing my lips to his. Pete came in with the crutches that the doctor gave me that I needed to use for extra support for a few weeks and my clothes and Doc Martens. "I snuck behind the back so no one saw." He said handing me the clothes.

Gerard helped me over to the bathroom and I closed the door. I dressed into the black skirt, black crop top and my Doc Martens. I did my makeup and brushed my bird's nest of hair. I finally smacked my lip glossed lips and walked out. Pete handed me the crutches and we all entered the elevator. Gerard talked to Bandit softly as Pete and I stood, quietly. The bell dinged and we each got out, me being slower due to crutches. Pete held his hand up and walked out into the waiting room. "What is the surprise?" Lindsey whined. "Just wait." He said a smile in his voice. Gerard stayed by my side as we walked down the hall. "Guys...is that?! Look!" I could hear Frank's voice.

"Frankie- " Jamia warned before stopping. I peeked up and saw them all staring in shock. I laughed and kept my pace as Gerard watched me making sure nothing happened. I got closer and stood in front of them. "Hey guys." I said smiling. "Shit." Bob whispered in disbelief. "This is a dream, right?" Ray asked as Christa and Katlin studied me. "This is not real. I'm in bed right now I just need to open my eyes." Alicia said monotone. I laughed as Mikey was the first to stand and walk over to me. He cocked his head to the side and lifted a shaky hand up to my face, then touched it. His eyes went wide and he fell onto me in tears, hugging me tightly. I caught him and rubbed his back. "Don't cry Mikes, I'm here. Nothing to fear." I said softly to him as I rubbed his back slowly.

Once Mikey had finished drying his eyes, Frank stood up, and opened his arms "You better get the fuck over here before I tackle you." He said in a strained voice almost in tears and a smile on his face.

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"Rain. Ooooh Raaaaiiinnn!!!" Gerard cooed shaking me lightly. I groaned and turned to my side. I heard a sigh and the door open. Where did he go? I shrugged it off and buried myself further into the covers. I heard soft feet slowly tip toeing into the room. I should get up before it's too late. Then that's when I heard, "GOOD MORNING!!!!" blasting through the megaphone. I shot up and opened my eyes. "FUCKING GERARD!!! I told you not to use that fucking megaphone anymore!" He smiled and said, "But it's megaphone feedback!" I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose, "Gerard just because I don't wake up doesn't mean you have to do megaphone feedback." I say inhaling.

"But B loves it!" He added nudging me. I glared at him playfully and he chuckled. "Okay, it's the funeral..." he said sadly and my face fell. He started to go to the bathroom, "I'm going to shower, is there anything you need before I do?" He asked. I shook my head, "Nope, I think I'm good, I'll see if I can get Bandit up." "Okay, again, like last night, you are not to attempt to use the stairs, up or down." He said and I gave him a pout, "Very cute, but it's not gonna get you far Bandit." He laughed and shook his head. I slumped my shoulders. I am not Bandit. Okay, I am, we both pout a lot when we want something from Gerard. I went over to the closet and grabbed my black dress and dug for my tights.

My dress was too short, but it was black but I needed the tights to cover the cut from the knife. However, it was going to show my neck and the bruises around it, so I have to wear my leather jacket to cover that up. And my hair, it could hide the rest if I braid it. When I was dressed, I brushed through my hair and braided it before placing a headband that wrapped around my head, my bangs out. Then, I did my makeup but didn't feel the need to cover the bruises and cuts. It would be too much work. By now, Gerard had gotten out of the shower and was working on getting dressed, just buttoning up his black dress shirt and placing the suit's jacket on. He'd had various suits from red carpets and such.

I got out my black Doc Martens from the closet and tied them on. Just as Gerard was getting his tie on, I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and when I came back out, Gerard was on the bed saying, "Get B dressed and awake and I'll wait by the stairs." I nodded and limped out of the room and into B's. I leaned down and shook her lightly. "B." I stated. She opened her eyes and rubbed them, "Get up Love." "Too early." She murmured tiredly. I laughed and picked her up and swung her on my hip. I sat her on her chair and grabbed her little black dress and her black tights along with her black Doc Martens matching mine. I took her pajamas off and slid on her underwear, since she was potty trained now.

I slid the tights on her skinny little legs and as I slipped off her shirt, she shivered. I looked at her and laughed before tickling her sides softly. She giggled and moved around. I did it again and she laughed louder. "Mommy stop it!" She said laughing harder. I help my hands up in surrender and reached for her dress. But when I turned back around, I tickled her one more time making her laugh loudly. I smiled at her laugh, it was like a sweet melody. I slid the dress on her and straightened it out. I sat on my bottom and spread my legs out in V shape. I patted my good leg and she placed her foot on my leg. I slipped her Doc Marten on her and tied it. She switched legs and I tied up her other shoe.

She stood up and I brushed her hair and we both went to the staircase. Gerard waited there. I made my way up to him and he looked down at me and smile a little. "Hey B!" he exclaimed hugging Bandit and she smiled and kissed his cheek before running downstairs. "Ready?" Gerard asked and I nodded. He picked me up just like last night and carried me down the stairs into the living room. "So what do want for breakfast?" "Um, is there still Cheerios?" I asked him, knowing there was some left before my absence. "Yup." he said popping the 'p.' "Then I will take a bowl of that please." I said and he nodded before leaving to the kitchen hearing him greet Bandit.

Gerard came back with two bowls in his hand with Bandit behind him as I turned the TV on to Aquabats, Bandit's favorite show. He passed me one as Bandit sat in front of the couch, as Gerard sat next to her their backs pressed against the front of the couch. I watched with a smile because whenever Gerard will lift his spoon and eat, Bandit will do it at the same time, not even knowing. Sometimes Gerard would laugh harder at the show than Bandit and she would just stare at him with a funny look. Then when Bandit would laugh harder, Gerard would make the same look.

When we were all done, Gerard took all three dishes to the kitchen. I turned off the TV and limped to the entryway calling Bandit. She came padding down as I helped her put on her black leather jacket. I placed my own on as Gerard put on his. He grabbed my crutches and I balanced myself on them as Gerard swung Bandit on his hip and we walked out. When we got to the car, I put the crutches in the back seat and got into the passenger's seat. I buckled my seat belt as Gerard buckled Bandit up. He buckled up and and then started the car and pulled out of the driveway. I remembered the promise I made to Rose before she died. I would find her brother and tell him she hadn't meant to fight with him and say what she did about not wanting to see him again.

I knew it was near certain he'd be at the funeral, and I'd look for him and catch him before the service ended because I made a promise, and I wasn't planning on breaking it. I did infact do the other one and say yes to Gerard. I haven't been to many funerals in my life, the last one I went to was my mom and dad's. That was a very sad and long day for me. I didn't cry at all that day. But the next day, I wouldn't stop.

Now, as we were reaching the cemetery and made our way to where Rose's service was being held, I knew I didn't feel numb as I had then. Now I could feel everything, and I wasn't sure which was worse, feeling it later, or feeling it right now when the funeral was happening. There were quite a few people here for Rose. As we approached the group of people, I noticed there was a man who might have been Ray's height watching Gerard, Bandit and I. He had a woman with him who was blonde, and there was a little dark haired boy in his arms. Later, during the service, I found out that was Rose's brother when he stepped forward with his wife and son. His name was Nathan. "Oh my God, Gerard. That little boy was her nephew." I whimpered, he couldn't be more than five. I had no idea Rose was an aunt, she never mentioned it.

Gerard wrapped an arm around me, due to the fact he had Bandit in his arms. I thought about what it would be like if that had been me, leaving Bronx behind. Since he's not very close to the little boy's age, he still knew who I was and could talk to me and hang out. He loves me. The thought of seeing Bronx never grow up was terrible. It's hard to say if this little boy will really remember Rose clearly or not, if he's younger than five. When the service was over, people were allowed to say a few words to Rose before they left, and it was at this time I was going to see if I could catch Nathan before he left. Surprisingly, I didn't have to, because he came to me. He no longer had the little boy who was now with his wife. Gerard also stepped off to the side with Bandit while I talked to Nathan.

With a sad smile, he said, "You must be Rain. The girl that had been with Rose during the....umm..." He struggled to get it out but I just stopped him, "Yes, that's me. Rose told me about you." I returned his sad smile. "She probably said some pretty bad stuff, since the last time we talked ended badly. Now I'm all that's left, both of my sisters are gone." His eyes dropped to the ground. "Actually, she said the complete opposite. And I know about the fight. She told you she didn't care if she ever saw you again." I told him quietly, and he nodded, his head low. "Well, she wanted me to promise something. To deliver this to you if she didn't make it. She wanted to tell you, she didn't mean it." He lifted his gaze, "She said that?!"

"Yes...shortly before she passed." I replied and I could see that he felt just a little bit better. "That;s really good to know. She said she didn't want to see me again and then...and then she was just gone, and I thought that...I had been blaming myself, and it's just nice to know she didn't mean it because..." He trailed off, shaking his head. Then he looked at me and said sincerly, "Thank you, not just for telling me this, but for being there with her for her last hours." I smiled slightly, "You're welcome." He gave a nod and then returned to the little boy and wife before leaving the cemetery grounds, looking back at me over his shoulder as he did. I felt another presence beside me, and I turned my head to see Gerard clutching Bandit.

"Do you want to go now?" He asked quietly. "Can I..." I motioned with my head towards the casket, "And I want her to meet Bandit." I said softly. "Of course I'll wait here." He handed Bandit to me and I placed her on my hip. I turned and then made my way over to the casket, which had a wreath of pink and white flowers on top of it. I was standing in front of it now, Bandit following my gaze just staring down at it's shiny smooth surface. "Hey Rose. This is Bandit, my little Lady B. Just thought you'd like to see her. I also just wanted you to know, I kept the promises. I'm engaged to the love of my life and I told your brother. So you don't have to come and haunt me, unless you want to." I smirked a tiny bit, remembering her threat if I didn't keep my promises. "Now you just have to promise me that you'll rest easy now." I stood there, after I'd spoken, my throat starting to close up as the last of her memories flashed through my mind.

Then I returned to Gerard with Bandit and after what seemed like ages though it'd only really been an hour, we went home. When we got home, Gerard let Susan out to the bathroom and I put the crutches back as he put Bandit to her nap. Then I limped into the living room and sat on the couch. When Gerard came in after letting Susan back inside, he sat beside me, studying my face for a minute. My throat was still closed up, and I couldn't seem to get it to go away. I felt the urge to cry but I didn't want to, I almost wished I was numb again. "Are you okay?" He asked softly. I nodded, and he kept watching me as I kept my eyes averted from him. I knew that if I looked at him, I would start to cry and I didn't want that. Well, Bandit is napping.

But then, I couldn't stop myself as I shook my head and said, "No, I'm not." He hugged me, with my face buried in his chest as I finally stopped trying to control my emotions and let it go. It took me about an hour to calm down completely, though I was still upset. By now, I had changed out of my dress and into something more relaxing. Gerard had stayed in what he was in, but loosened the tie a little. He went to wake Bandit up and came back down and placed her in front of the couch, to color. He turned on the TV starting to flip through the channels while keeping an arm around me. I had my head resting on shoulder watching the images change as the channels changed as he searched for something.

And then, of all things, he landed momentarily on the news, and just then they were showing what had happened with this whole kidnapping and attempted murder thing. That just made me upset all over again, but in more of an angry way than sad. "It's on the news too?" I asked whining slightly. "Well, Babe you are engaged to a singer in a huge band, and you played bass in front of everyone, been in all the videos and much more. They adore you. And have been covering it for a while starting from before the day you called me. This should be the last day broadcasted though." Gerard told me quietly to not get Bandit's attention. "Good, I'd rather not see it anymore. It's bad enough having marks on your body to remind you about it and keep it in your mind until they fade away."

He looked at me sadly, "I hate to say, but you may never forget it. However while the memory of it will begin to fade away as long as you let it. You can move on, and it's good that you want to." I was silent for a minute and then said, "I do wanna move on. Maybe the honeymoon after the wedding will ease my mind." "it should, because we'll be married. Forever until the day we die." He said softly, lacing out fingers. His voice calmed me down, taking my upset feelings and putting them in the trash. I looked up at him, smiling, "I really don't know what I'd do without you." "And you'll never ever have to find you." He squeezed my hand. "Same, you will never have to find out what it's like without me."

Just to tease me he asked, "Promise?" "Well it's kind of a package deal with the promise of forever, so I've already promised." I teased back. "Package deals are always good. Especially since I got it all." He murmured gesturing to Bandit as she played with Susan. I smiled and he placed two fingers under my chin, brought it up and his lips met mine.

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I shot up out of bed, breathing heavily. I ran my fingers through my hair, and felt my forehead damp with sweat, as well as my cheeks. It was still dark outside, I could see that from the window, so I knew it wasn't even close to morning yet. I'd had this nightmare that was pretty much everything that had happened but worse. This time Eliza made me watch everyone I loved, die slowly and painfully and I couldn't help anyone. And I was so glad I woke up before he got to Bandit. I knew it wasn't real, but it still scared me. All of a sudden I started to feel pain everywhere in my upper body, and I knew that was because I sat up so fast still being sore. I took deep breaths, but it seemed like every time I did it, it hurt more.

I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and I turned my head to see Gerard beside me with a concerned expression occupying his face. "What's wrong Love?" He asked quietly. "I just had this nightmare. I sat up way too fast and now it hurts." I replied wincing a little as another ache ran up the side of my abdomen. "It's not sharp pains is it?" I shook my head, "No, it's just my muscles and sores." Gerard nodded in response and sat there with me for a while, rubbing my back while I waited for the aching in my torso to die down. After a while, the pain subsided and Gerard said, "C'mon, lay back down."

Slowly, I got myself to ease back down onto the bed with him, letting my head rest on his chest. He kissed the top of my head and continued to rub my back, lulling me back to sleep. This is one of the many reasons why I love him and can't leave him. And I need to marry him soon or I'll explode from impatience. I made a promise I will never ever leave him,

And I am keeping it.

Notes

Awww so it's late here in LA. So I'll update tomorrow. But my bf is taking me to lunch so idk yet. So enjoy this chapter and comment please!! I have gotten a thousand views thanks!

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