Bury All Your Secrets In My Skin

They sat in the car in silence, except for Emma who gurgled happily in Billie’s arms as her father fiddled with the radio; trying to find the broadcast Andrea was talking about last night. He needed to find it; Jenny’s life depended on it. He couldn’t bear to see her so sick. This was his fault. He should have spotted the signs sooner. A hand fell upon his shoulder. Levi glanced around to find himself staring at Andrea as she leaned in closer to him. “keep trying, I think it’s on 105.4” She said reassuringly, her words ringing in his ears and bringing a glimour of hope in this bleak time. Levi smiled at her, patting her hand as he turned back to the radio.

Gerard kept his eyes on the road, his hand gripping the wheel tightly as he sped down the road, passing walkers who began to limp after the car. Guilt washed over him as began to freak out inside his head; how could he do this to Frank. What was he thinking? He sniffed, shaking his head as he struggled to pull himself together. How was he going to explain all this to Frank? He couldn’t lie to him. He knew Frank had a temper, he remembered it from when they first met. Gerard’s face crumpled as he realised the terrible mistake he had made; the stupid irreversible choice he had made. And for what?

What exactly did he hope to get out this?

He rubbed the back of his head, fear coursing through his veins as his mind rushed from one thought to the next. Maybe it was fact that Andrea actually listened to reason and actually took into account other peoples opinion rather than cause a row over virtually nothing. His cheeks flushed red, not with a sweet emotion but with embarrassment. How could he have been so stupid? Of course Frank wasn’t the bad guy. He was just trying to protect them all. After what happened with Portsmouth, nobody could blame him for losing hope.

Oh god what had he done.

He eyed Frank in the rear view mirror; he was staring miserably out of the window at the passing buildings and walkers that lay rotting away on the curb. Gerard sighed quietly to himself, he loved Frank. He had done since they first met in that boarded up house with Dan and Phil.

Wow, he had almost forgotten about them- funny how time flies.

Gerard’s mind quickly changed, searching for any sort of excuse to cover up his actions. It was all Andrea’s fault. She took advantage of him, he was drunk, he would never do anything to intentionally hurt him. It was all her. “is there a problem?” Frank asked, breaking through Gerard’s thoughts. It was only then did he realise he was staring at him. He remained silent, turning his head away from Frank’s questioning gaze; guilt pained in his eyes. When it came down it, not matter how he rationalised it, it was him. It was him who betrayed Frank.

And now, he had to suffer the consequences.

He was so lost in these thoughts that I didn’t notice Levi’s sudden change of expression. The rest of the group listened to a deep voice speak through the speakers. It was only when this voice began to speak that Gerard snapped back to reality, staring at the radio as his mouth dropped open in shock.

Those who arrive survive. Follow the tracks to Liverpool Street where all lines out of the City meet at this station. There are maps at the crossings to help guide you with journey. Sanctuary for all, Community for all. Project H. Those who arrive survive.

The transmission suddenly cut to a white noise. Silence hung in the air as static played through the car. Andrea was right; there really was a safe haven out there. “I told you so” Andrea bragged, a broad grin plastered upon her face as she nudged Levi on the arm. Billie nodded, glancing over at Jenny as she slept in the corner of the car. “Least now we can get her the help she needs” He added, keeping his voice low, as not to wake her.

Frank groaned, running a hand through his hair. All eyes fell upon him, everyone shocked by his moaning. This was he wanted, somewhere for all of them to be safe. Why was he acting like this now? “What the hell is your problem?” Andrea snapped; narrow her eyes at him as she began to lose her patience with him. Frank stared at her, taken aback by her sudden outburst. He didn’t expect that reaction at all. “I don’t know if it’s occurred to you Andrea but Jenny needs help. This isn’t the time to follow stupid pipe dreams” He argued, gesturing over at Jenny who still managed to sleep through everything.

Andrea rolled her eyes; she didn’t have time for this. “You heard the transmission Frank, there are clearly other survivors out there and this is the only way Jen is going to get help” Billie said, holding Emma over his shoulder as he spoke. Frank ignored him, scowling as he stared up at the ceiling for a moment. If he was honest, he didn’t trust the word of a stranger. How could she be so sure that there was help on the other side?

Besides, something about Project H sounded familiar; as though he had of it before. It sent a cold feeling over Frank’s body as the word rang in his ear. There was something about it that, if he was brutally honest with himself, frightened him.

He glanced over at Gerard, silently hoping that he would defend him; he was his fiancé after all and even if they were having trouble, he would always be there to fight his corner....right? “Gerard?” He said hopefully as all eyes fell upon Gerard who kept his gaze fixed upon the road ahead. He stopped the car, looking around at his lover’s wishful face. His eyes fell upon Andrea, whose serious expression remained fixed on him as he tore himself in two- trying desperately to pick a side. He loved Frank and he knew he was right, no way of telling what was going to meet them once they arrived. But at he locked eyes with Andrea; the guilt seeped back into his thoughts and forced him to hang his head in shame.

“I think Andrea’s right....”

Frank stopped listening after that, his heart sank as a feeling of betrayal washed over him. He really thought he had found his soul mate but now he felt like he was losing him; as though the man he fell in love with was wandering down a dark path that he could not follow- only stand at the side and watch as, little by little, he would slip away until he was finally alone.

Notes

Poor Frank x
so what is Gerard hiding? let me know what you think x

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