"Well then feed off of me."
I gaped at him, the pain inside of me momentarily forgotten. Then I came to my senses. Let's just say that when a vampire hasn't fed in a while, they get to be as moody as a teengage girl on their period. I could feel anger course through my brain and reach my mouth to form words.
"Are you stupid?" I yelled causing him to flinch slightly. "It hurts to be bit! And fuck, in this state I might hurt you! And besides, the last time I bit you to save your life, you fucking left me! This time I would actually be feeding so it would be ten times worse! So I swear to fucking Jesus, don't you dare offer again!" I was truly pissed off by him offering to be bit. I suppose what was suppose to happen in these situations is that I say yes, drink his blood, and then we end it all with a passionate make out session. Well that wasn't going to fucking happen.
Frank looked slightly bewildered while I had a death stare at the floor. Another shock went through me and I clenched my teeth to keep from screaming. What would the neighbors think?
"Okay, okay fine," He relented standing up. "Anything I can do?" He looked unsure as he kept glancing at me.
"Help me get to your car," I managed to say through my teeth. He nodded, not questioning the action and helped me off the couch. We slowly made our way through his building, ignoring the odd glances, and with me cussing and groaning the whole way
It seemed to take an eternity to make it to his car. He walked a lot so it was barely used, but he kept it for rainy days and emergencies. Today was the latter. He helped me into the passenger seat before running around and jumping into the drivers seat. He turned the keys and started the ignition.
"Okay, where too?" He asked, bouncing slightly in his seat with adrenaline.
"Down...town. Bars, clubs, anything that involves drunk people," I gasped out. He nodded seeming to understand. He took off into the midday New Jersey traffic, not bothering to go the speed limit.
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"It might be a while," I told him as I bent over on the sidewalk in pain. It was only about lunch time, and not a very busy time for the club who's alley we were in. I groaned again and Frank shifted uneasily.
"You need some drunk person to come into the alley?" He questioned uncomfortably. I could imagine why. He probably wasn't comfortable with the whole feeding idea. He was barely comfortable with the vampire idea.
I nodded in confirmation, in too much pain to speak. He was quite for a minute, appearing to be in thought.
"I'll be back," He announced suddenly, walking towards the club doors and leaving me on my own. Well fuck I thought as I watched him disappear through the doors. I actually felt hurt for a minute before the pain in my veins took over. It felt like every inch of me was burning.
I had to wait another ten minutes or so of agony before the back alley door burst open. I jerked in that direction. Giggles erupted from that direction followed by a female moaning. If I was feeling any better I probably would've rolled my eyes. I couldn't see anything past the dumpster I was using as a hiding spot (yeah I know it sucked but it was the only thing I could do at the moment) so I leaned forward with a slight groan to see my victim, er victims, as it sounded.
I was greeted by the sight of some giggly girl who was dressed like a slut. That's not what bothered me though. What bothered me was the fact that she had her tongue shoved down Frank's throat. Even through the pain I felt my stomach twist and my heart drop. I know I said I would never date Frank for his own good, but seeing him with that girl made me so jealous and sad all at once. I leaned back against the wall, in pain and instantly depressed.
"Hey, hey, hey," I eavesdropped on what Frank was saying. It was his own fault. He knew I was in this goddamn alley. "How about I go grab something from my car and then we can go have some more fun yeah?" He said seductively.
"Mmh yeah," The stupid slutty bitch agreed with a giggle. I heard footsteps coming my way. Frank walked past me, not glancing at me. I felt like I was gonna cry, and not from the pain, when I saw him jerk his head in her direction.
He knew I was in the goddamn alley! That sneaky son of a bitch! I could kiss him right now. But I wouldn't, and I'm in too much pain. I waited until he turned the corner to crawl out from my hiding spot and began towards the slut. She was turned away from me. She pulled her skirt up as high as it would go, exposing her ass, and then unbuttoned her blouse so low that her boobs were practically falling out. I grimaced in disgust. I was normally okay with women. I could look at a woman and acknowledge the fact that she was beautiful, but sluts just disgusted me.
With that thought in mind I mustered up all my strength, gritted my teeth through the pain, and lept forward. My fangs were in her neck and my venom was putting her out before she even knew what was happening. I had debated for a second on not using venom and letting her suffer after seeing her and Frank, but I decided that I wasn't that cruel.
I drank from her greedily. Of course I struggled not to let myself fully go and drain her, but I was experienced enough by now that I knew what my limit was. Finally I pulled my fangs and sighed in relief. The pain was beginning to fade away, leaving me feeling amazing. Of course I was going to need two or three more people until I was completely fine, but the pain was gone, and that's what mattered the most.
I shoved the sluts unconscious body up against the wall. She would probably wake up in about half an hour, giving me plenty of time to get away.
"Gee? You done?" I heard Frank's quiet voice call from the mouth of the alley.
"Yeah!" I called back beginning to collect myself. He tentatively walked towards me, eyeing the body worriedly.
"She's not...uh...well you know," He stammered awkwardly looking at his hands that were clasped in front of him.
"No," I walked over to him. "It's just my venom. She'll wake up maybe twenty five minutes." He relaxed visibly.
"So you're not in pain," He eyed me standing up and not complaining. I nodded. "Man you fucking owe me." He crossed his arms over his chest and glared playfully at me. I raised an eyebrow, trying not to think about what he had done. It made me sick to my stomach with jealousy.
"You may have brought someone out but you didn't seem to be having such a bad time doing," I didn't mean for it to come out sounding as bitter as it did. He made a disgusted face.
"Hell no. She was all up on me and her tongue was like gagging me," He shuddered and I felt slightly better. "And besides, she uh...well..." I gave him a go on look and he blushed. "Well she's a...Well a she."
"No shit Sherlock," I replied sassily, but inside I was freaking out. What did he mean by that? He blushed even deeper, making him look incredibly cute. He scuffed his converse against the loose gravel and stared at the ground.
"Look I know I probably should have told you sooner, but I'm gay too." My head snapped up to look at him. What. He hurriedly continued. "I just didn't say anything cause you know if I told you, then you might have felt like I was expecting something more than friends," He was tomato red by now. "Which of course I'm not!" He stammered quickly.
I could've sworn my heart dropped onto the gravel just then. He had just admitted to being gay, and then basically said he didn't want to be more than friends. Of course I kept telling myself that I would never date him, but I just kept on pushing my own boundaries. I remember back when I told myself that I wouldn't be friends with him at all. I think deep down I had known all along I would give up and do what selfish me wanted all along.
But not now.
Frank didn't want me. There was probably someone else that he liked. Someone better looking, and not as fucked up. Someone with more money and a bigger house. Someone human.
"C'mon," I told him weakly.
"Are you okay?" Concerned rang through every word. I nodded.
"Yeah, I just need more blood," I lied swiftly. With that we left the alley, with me drowning in self pity and depression
"You might have felt I was expecting something more than friends, which of course I'm not!" I couldn't get the sentence out of my head.
"Of course I'm not"

Notes

Okay i really need to know. i feel like the past couple of chapters have been like really sucky. like more so than usual. tell me maybe? i pinky swear over ray's cupcakes and gerards coffee that I won't get mad. :O