You're Beautiful To Me

The next week passes uneventfully and I manage to only eat when Frank is around and I'm forced to. I manage to lose another two pounds and I am extremely happy about it but my stomach continues to bulge and it makes me want to work harder and lose even more, feeling like my efforts aren't enough. Frank constantly touches me every time we're together, small loving caresses that seem like nice gestures but I suspect he's just trying to feel if I've lost weight. I've started layering my clothes in an attempt to look bigger than what I am when I'm at home and Frank looks at me suspiciously but when I told him it's simply because I'm cold he seemed to buy it. I'm currently at a photo shoot, the models breaking to change and I wander back over to Anna who is sitting in her pram playing with her teddy bear, babbling to it and chewing on it's ear when the door opens and Frank walks in. I stare at him, surprised he's here before picking Anna up and saying "Look baby, daddy's here." When she spots him she drops her teddy bear and reaches one hand out to him, letting out a shriek as a smile spreads over her face before babbling "Da da da." Frank smiles wide and rushes over, taking her from me and spinning around while he holds her out, lifting her up above his head before bringing her back down to cuddle against his chest and she shrieks again before gigging. "Hey beautiful girl, did you miss daddy? Daddy missed you" he says to her, having left early this morning for band practice and then work so Anna and I have been on our own all day which means I managed to skip breakfast and lunch. Anna babbles a little before going quiet and laying her head against Franks chest and I smile at the sight as Frank turns his attention on me. "Hey baby" he greets me, leaning in for a kiss which I happily give him and while we're kissing he shifts Anna to one side and frees up one of his hands which he brings down to wrap around my hip, squeezing lightly and I pull away, feeling like he's only touching me to feel my fat. "What are you doing here?" I ask and he smiles softly and says "I missed you guys and it was a slow day so I clocked out early. Wanted to spend some time with you guys before the gig tonight." I nod sending a small smile back. "You're still coming right baby?" Frank asks and I nod. Franks band got a gig so Mikey is going to watch Anna tonight while I go watch them and I'm really looks forward to it, Frank playing on stage being one of the sexiest things I've ever seen in my life and it always ends in frantic rough sweaty fucking afterwards. I get lost in memories of the last show I went to and Frank snaps his fingers in my face and chuckles as he says "Hey baby come back." I shake my head and smile, saying "Just thinking about the last show." Frank immediately breaks out into a huge grin, clearly remembering after the show like I was rather than the actual show, which actually ended in Anna's conception and quite a few bruises. "Oh man" he mumbles to himself and I giggle and gently shove at his arm. The models come back out and I sigh before saying "I better get back to it, are you staying? I won't be too much longer." "Yeah of course. Little miss and I will be over here, admiring your beauty." I giggle as he kisses my cheek before I walk back over to my cameras, leaving him to play with Anna. The rest of the shoot passes quickly and every time I stop for the models to change positions I glance over and see Frank on the floor with Anna, letting her crawl around and pick up various toys he's pulled from her bag, throwing them at him and he sticks his tongue out and gently throws them back at her and she lets out little giggles and tries to imitate him with her tongue. I smile wide at just how much she's grown up already, sitting up and crawling and most of her teeth have come through.

I finish the shoot and pack up, Frank putting Anna back in her pram and picking up all her toys before helping me with my camera stuff, loading it all in my car before we put Anna in her seat and Frank gets in his own car, following me home. When we get there Mikey's car is in the driveway and I pull up next to it and get out, grabbing Anna out, who is now sleeping and when Frank pulls up behind me I send him a question glance. He gets out and comes over, wrapping his arms around me and saying "Lets get inside, get Anna in bed." I nod and let him usher me inside, planning on getting my stuff from the car later. I pass Mikey on my way to Anna's room and we exchange hellos as I go and once Anna is tucked in I go back into the living room where Mikey and Frank are sitting together on the couch. "Hey what's going on?" I ask, wondering why Mikey's here so early. Just as Frank opens his mouth there's a knock at the front door and he stands and says "I'll get it, take a seat baby, you must be tired from being on your feet all day." I nod as he passes me to get the door and I sit in the single recliner, the most comfortable couch we have. A few seconds later Frank comes back in with my mom following him and I stare at them, my forehead creasing in confusion and they both join Mikey on the couch before Frank clears his throat and says "Gee, you're the love of my life and I would do anything for you which is why I asked Mikes and your mom to be here with me for this because I know they feel the same way I do. I've tried to help you and I know it's not working and I don't know what to do anymore and I'm scared baby, I'm fucking terrified of losing you and I can't sit back and let this happen anymore." I frown further in confusion until Mikey says "Gee, you need help. We know you're not eating again and being five months pregnant and doing this to yourself is so so dangerous and it's not just your life you're risking anymore." "What is this? Some stupid fucking intervention? Have you been talking shit about me behind my back? I'm fine" I snap, feeling more and more angry with every second that passes. "Why would you do this to me Frank?" I snap and he sighs before saying "Baby I'm doing this because I love you and I can't see you do this anymore. I've checked you into a facility where you can get the help you need because I would rather be without you for a little while while you get better than to let you continue to destroy yourself and not have you around at all." "No" I hiss as I push myself up off the couch. "It's not a choice Gee." "I fucking said no" I yell as I rush across the room, needing to escape their judgemental stares and as I lock eyes with my mom, who has remained silent this whole time I see tears streaming down her face and she chokes out one simple word. "Please." I shrug off the jolt of guilt I feel as I rush from the room and I make it two steps down the hallway towards the front door when Franks arms wrap around me from behind and I scream, letting out all the anger and hurt that I feel right now, thrashing around in his arms trying to escape his grip but he tightens his hold on me and spins me around to face him and I bring my hand up and slap him across the face, the crisp noise ringing out in the hallway as I scream "Get the fuck off me" in his face and he's now crying too and I thrash around again, shoving at his chest but he just pulls me closer into his body until I break, screaming out again before collapsing to the floor, Frank collapsing with me and holding me close, pulling me into his chest as I clench my hands around the front of his shirt and I wail loudly into his neck. "Please" I manage to whimper into his skin over and over again and he just holds me and whispers back "I'm sorry" over and over and another pair of arms wrap around me from behind but I don't bother to see who it is. I cry until I have no tears or anger or hurt left and I whimper softly into Franks soaked neck, feeling empty. "Baby you need help" Frank whispers in my ear and I let out a small choked off noise before turning my head to see the other pair of arms around me belong to my mom and I turn around and slide over into her chest. "Mommy" I whimper out, and her arms tighten around me and she presses a soft kiss to my forehead before saying "You gotta go baby. This is something I should have done for you a long time ago and I'm so sorry I never did. You need help baby, you need to get better for Anna and the new baby." I let out a shaky breath, feeling like I want to cry again but nothing comes out. "How long am I going for?" I whisper to her and she rubs my back gently as she says "I don't know baby, however long it takes." I whimper, afraid that that was going to be her answer and she tightens her hold on me. "You'll be just fine, I promise." When I sit back up again I turn to see Frank sitting beside me still, his eyes red and swollen and his cheek the same. I reach out and gently rub my fingers over it as I say "I'm so sorry." Frank brings his hand up and rests it over mine, holding my hand against his cheek before moving it down to his mouth and pressing a soft kiss to the palm of my hand. "It's ok, I forgive you." I hear a small noise behind me and when I turn my
head I see Anna crawling across the floor to me, a big smile on her face as she clearly has no idea what's going on. I reach out and pull her into my lap and she sits on my legs sideways and snuggles into my side. "Do it for her" Frank leans forward and whispers in my ear and I nod, my hand free hand coming down to rub at my bump and Frank slides closer and presses against my back as his arms wrap around me and as Anna's little hand comes down to join mine and Franks on my bump, patting gently like I've taught her I decide to do it for the three of them.

Notes

Long intense chapter to make up for my lack of updates on this recently.