You're Beautiful To Me

I wake up the next morning to the sight of Frank laying beside me, his hands wrapped around Anna's sides as he lifts her up above him before bringing her back down and doing it again while she shrieks and giggles, her little hands reaching down towards him as she has a great time. I smile wide as I watch them play together until Frank realises I'm awake and he brings Anna down to lay face down on his chest as he turns his attention to me and she braces one hand against his chest and pushes herself up a little while her other hand reaches out to pat at his cheek. "Yes little miss?" He asks as he turns his gaze back to her and she shrieks and hits at him again. "What baby?" He asks and her bottom lip trembles as she lets out a long drawn out whine and he picks her up again, lifting her back into the air and she shrieks again, a smile spreading on her face. "Oh so you weren't done huh?" He asks and she giggles before babbling "Da da da da." After we pull ourselves out of bed Frank carries Anna into the kitchen while I go to the bathroom before joining them. I sit at the table and take Anna so Frank can make breakfast and I open the little tub of yogurt on the table infront of me, dipping the plastic spoon in and offering it to Anna who opens her mouth hesitantly but once she tastes the yogurt she squeals and her eyes go wide as she bangs her hand on the table top. Frank turns to watch her and laughs as he says "I think she likes that." I feed her almost the whole tub before she turns her head away and whines a little so I push it away, handing her the plastic spoon and letting her play with it, waving it around while I pick at my scrambled eggs and toast. I'm almost done when Anna turns her little head to look up at me and babbles out "Da da da" before turning her gaze to my plate and a look of concentration crosses her face as she brings the spoon down and bangs it against my plate, sending a small amount of eggs splattering on the table and her whole body shakes as she giggles. "No" I say softly to her as I grab her wrist and pull her hand back to stop her doing it again and she doesn't try, just waving the spoon around in the air again.

After breakfast I give Anna back to Frank and I go into the bedroom to get dressed, getting ready for work before kissing both Anna and Frank goodbye and leaving. When I get to the shoot I set up and the models come in from the makeup area and I cringe as I see four shirtless male models, immediately feeling fat and ugly. Halfway through the shoot the models change and I take the opportunity to go to the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror while I'm in there, on the verge of tears by the time I leave because of how fat I look. Once the shoot is done I pack up and head home just in time for Frank to leave for work at the bar. After he's gone I play with Anna for a while, giving her a bottle before giving her a bath and then I settle on the couch, watching tv while I cuddle her to my chest and she falls asleep. After she's in her crib I settle back on the couch and my stomach rumbles loudly but I ignore it, desperate to lose weight again.

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