You're Beautiful To Me

When I wake up the next morning Frank is missing and when I reach out his side of the bed is cold. I frown and pout, hating waking up alone and just as I shift to swing my legs off the side of the bed and stand up he comes in with a tray in his hands. "No no no baby get your sexy butt back in that bed" he tells me and I slide back and bring my legs back up on the bed, shifting around to sit back against the headboard. Frank comes over and sits the tray on my lap and I see he made me
croissants and pancakes and eggs and fresh cut strawberries with a cup of tea. "Baby I'll get fat if I eat that" I tell him, pointing to the croissant and he shakes his head as he says "Just eat a little? For little miss in there?" He asks, placing his hand on my bump. I sigh before saying "Ok, maybe just a little bit." I start out with the eggs and then the strawberries, sipping on my tea before I take a small bite of the pancake on the plate before starting to pick the tray up, deciding I've eaten enough. "No, baby you gotta eat some more." "I'm full Frankie" I tell him and he cups my cheek and tilts my head towards him. "Look me in the eye and tell me honestly, are you full?" I sigh as I drop my gaze to the tray and say "No." "Please eat some more baby, she needs the food too." "Ok, a little more" I tell him as I pick at the croissant, eating about half of it before I say "Is that enough?" Frank leans in and kisses my forehead as he takes the tray and says "Thank you baby." Once he leaves the room I slide out of bed and walk over to grab some clothes, needing to be ready to head out in an hour. I start to dress and by the time Frank comes back in I'm just pulling a jacket on. "Where's the shoot today babe?" He asks and I turn and grab my phone off the table, opening my calendar and saying "It's a studio one today thank god. I don't know if I could handle the cold outside today." "Good, you need to be taking it easy baby. I wish you would just...." "No Frank, I'm not giving up working. I'm pregnant not dying and babies are expensive, we need the money. I still have a month until I'm due so I'm fine, you need to relax." Frank looks at the floor like a wounded puppy and I feel terrible, crossing the room and reaching out to tilt his head up again. "I'm sorry, I know you're just worried but really baby I'm ok. If I gave up work I'd just sit around here all day and drive myself crazy. I need to work and get out of the house babe." "I know. I just, it'd kill me if anything happened to you two." "We're perfectly fine baby, I promise" I tell him as I lean in for a lingering kiss. After we pull apart Frank takes my hand and we go out into our office/studio where I keep all my art supplies and cameras and Frank keeps his guitars and amps. I pick out which cameras I'll need today and Frank grabs them, carrying them out to my car for me as I follow, packing all my gear in before turning around and pushing me back against the side of the car, leaning in and sealing his lips to mine. We make out for a few minutes before he pulls back and says "So beautiful Gee" making me smile and blush. "I gotta go Frankie" I tell him and he sighs before opening the door for me and helping me in, helping me buckle my seat belt. "I have band practice today and then I have to work tonight but I'll try and slip out early. I'll have my phone on me all day so call me if you need anything." "I'll be fine Frankie. Have a good day" I tell him and he leans in and kisses me one last time before saying "Love you beautiful" and closing the door. I start the car and back out of the driveway, waving goodbye to Frank before driving off.

Once the shoot is set up and all my cameras are where I want them one of the models comes out and I instantly feel my heart drop as she walks towards me. She's so thin and you can see just a hint of her ribs and I want to curl up and cry at how ugly and fat I look and compared to her I just look worse. "Oh my gosh you've gotten so big" she exclaims, reaching out to touch my bump. "Yeah" I say unenthusiastically, biting back tears. She giggles and rubs her hands around on my bump, feeling the baby kick and soon another regular model I know comes over and joins her, both of them asking lots of questions and making me feel like a whale. The director for the shoot calls them over and we get started, me snapping a lot of pictures and when I kneel down to get a better angle I feel a sharp pain rip through my lower stomach and I hunch over, my camera falling to the floor as I clutch at my bump. "Oh my god Gee are you ok?" One of the models yells as she runs over and suddenly I'm surrounded by fifteen people all looking concerned. "Yeah, I think she kicked too hard or something" I tell them, trying to brush it off as the pain subsides. We go on with the shoot, the models repositioning themselves and I check my camera, thankfully it's not broken. By the time the shoot is done I am exhausted and ready to lay down again so after one of the models assistants helps me
load my stuff back in my car at her request I head towards home but the pain shoots through me again and I decide I need Frank to help me. I check the time and see it's five minutes until he starts at the bar and it will take me ten to drive there. By the time I get to the bar my stomach feels like it's on fire and when I stumble in the door the owner, Ray, comes rushing over and says "Gee are you ok?" I try to straighten up from my slightly hunched position to look up at him and I whimper out "It hurts" as tears roll down my cheeks and Ray yells out for Frank. I hear footsteps rushing towards
me and I wobble, Rays grip on me stopping me from falling and I open my mouth for a gulp of air but I vomit all over the floor instead. "Gee, baby what's happening?" "Hurts Frankie" I whimper out and he says "Fuck Ray call an ambulance, he's in labor." Rays hands disappear and are replaced by Franks
and he guides me to the nearest chair and sits me down. "How long have you been in pain?" Frank asks as he kneels infront of me. "I....I dunno I think maybe an hour since the first pain." "Is it getting worse? Are the pains getting closer?" And I nod my head, feeling another sharp pain rip through me and Frank says "Just breathe baby you're having contractions. Everything will be ok I promise, we practiced for this a million times remember?" "But we're meant to have another month" I sob out, feeling highly emotional as well as in pain. "I know but this is ok. She's ready to come and meet us and I'm so excited to meet her, aren't you baby?" He asks and I nod, making Frank smile. A few seconds later the door opens and two paramedics step in and rush over to me, avoiding the vomit on the floor. They help me up and Frank and I go out to the ambulance and get in, me laying on the bed while Frank sits beside me holding my hand as one of the paramedics asks me questions while we race towards the hospital.

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