You're Beautiful To Me

When we make it to the hospital everything happens in a frantic blur as Miles is wheeled inside and surrounded by a bunch of doctors and nurses before he is wheeled through a door and as I try to follow I am stopped by a nurse who tells me I can't go in and I scream and try to shove past her but before I get two steps I am grabbed by an orderly who roughly pulls me back and I scream out again before sobbing out "Please, that's my baby in there." The nurse takes a deep calming breath before saying "I understand sir but you need to let the doctors do their job." The orderly lets me go and I let out another pained sob before slumping to the floor, my self control breaking completely and the nurse kneels infront of me and reaches out to gently take my hand. "The doctors will do everything they can for your son sir, I'll go and...." "My daughter" I interrupt her and she frowns as she says "I'm so sorry sir, I thought the paramedics said it was..." "He identifies as a girl, her name is Allie. Please make sure she's called that." "Of course. If you'd like to come with me I can show you to the waiting area and I will go check on Allie for you." I nod, tears still silently steaming down my face as I pull myself off the floor and follow the nurse down the hallway and into the waiting room before she leaves again, promising to come right back as soon as she knows anything. I pace back and forth across the room a few times before slumping down onto the couch in the far corner and a few minutes later I hear voices before the door opens again and Frank and Anna come in, both of them rushing over and I pull them into my arms as I start to sob again.

An hour after we arrive a nurse comes in and tells us that Miles is stable and should make a full recovery and I let out a half choked sob in relief, Franks arms tightening around me as I lets out his own relieved noise and I stand as I ask "When can we see her?" The nurse smiles sadly and says "Well there aren't meant to be any visitors until the patient is awake but I guess we can make an exception, but only one at a time." I nod, turning back to Frank and Anna on the couch and Frank reaches out and squeezes my hand as he says "You go first babe." I nod, squeezing back before crossing the room and following the nurse from the room. When we reach Miles' room the nurse tells me I will only have about ten minutes and I nod before going in, the nurse leaving again and I hesitate for a few seconds before rushing across the room and grabbing Miles' hand in mine as I take in his fragile looking little body laying infront of me, the hospital gown too big for his small frame and I gently reach out and push his still damp hair back from his forehead, his skin feeling cold beneath my hand. I reluctantly drop his hand as I shrug out of my jacket, Frank having brought me dry clothes and I tug the blanket on the bed further up before I lay it out over Miles' sleeping body, taking his hand in mine again and I sit in the chair beside the bed as I start to softly talk. "I should kick your butt so hard for doing this to me, but I won't because I'm just so happy you're ok. You can't do this to daddy baby, my heart can't take it. My life would be over without you in it and I know it hurts baby, but you need to talk to me and tell me so I can get you the proper help. I love you my precious Allie, more than anything and I need you around and I'm going to do whatever it takes to make it better ok?"

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