You're Beautiful To Me

After breakfast I take Anna and Miles into the living room and Frank joins us, bringing his guitar and Anna and Miles toddle around together, Anna clutching Miles' hand in hers as she leads him around the room before Miles gets bored of walking and flops back onto his butt, flipping himself over onto his hands and knees as he crawls over to me and I move to sit on the floor with him. Miles and I settle in the corner reading a story while Anna stands infront of Frank, dancing around to the tune he's playing with her unicorn and just as Frank stops playing I sit the book I'm holding down and Anna drops her unicorn on the floor and charges at me, driving herself straight into my chest in an attempt to wrestle and my whole body tenses in extreme pain, my chest still very tender from the surgery and I fall back onto my back, Anna falling ontop of me and putting even more pressure on my chest and I open my mouth to scream in pain but all that escapes me is a breathless groan, the wind knocked out of me. Frank smiles over at us as Anna giggles to herself and pushes herself back up until he realises I'm not getting back up and he drops his guitar on the couch beside him as he gets up and rushes across the room, dropping to his knees beside me as Anna stops giggling and starts staring back and forth between us, trying to figure out what's wrong. "Baby?" Frank asks softly and I open my mouth before closing it again, nothing but another pathetic pained whine escaping me and I feel my chest getting really tight. "Shh baby come on you're gonna be ok" Frank tries to reassure me as he gently helps me sit back up but the movement makes the pain flare up again and I turn my head and vomit all over the floor from the pain, the vomit on the carpet looking a strange red colour and I realise I've just vomited blood, Frank coming to the realisation at the same time and he turns his gaze back to my face as he says "Just stay calm baby, I'm gonna call an ambulance."

Fifteen minutes later I am being rushed into the emergency room, a doctor and two nurses waiting for me and when the paramedics leave the room after telling the doctor a lot of things I don't really understand the doctor smiles at me and says "What's happened Mr Iero?" "I've just had a heart transplant and I have a two year old who's just discovered wrestling" I tell him, the paramedics having given me pain relief so I feel like I can breathe again. The doctor chuckles softly and says "In a few minutes we'll be sending you up for scans, I understand you vomited blood?" I nod, the doctor frowning in concern as he says "How are you feeling now?" "My chest still feels tight but I can breathe again." The doctor nods as he writes something on my chart and another nurse comes into the room and tells us they're ready for me. The doctor puts my chart down and helps the nurses start wheeling me from the room when I say "Wait, my husband will be here, can someone tell him where I am?" One of the nurses smiles softly at me and says "Of course, I'll go see if he's here." I smile gratefully at her as the doctor and remaining nurses continue to take me away for the scans I need to have done, my mind focused on visualising Franks face to keep myself calm as I feel panic set in, scared I'm going to die.

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