You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

I don't hear from Frank or Ian until two days later when Frank sends me a message to ask if I'm still coming to the gig that night. 'Yeah sure if you still want me to.' A few minutes later he replies and says 'Of course I want you to, I'll come pick you up at 7' I spend the whole afternoon hanging out and playing video games with Patrick until I need to get ready and just before seven I decide to head outside to wait for Frank, taking the chance to have a cigarette. I'm sitting on the edge of the garden outside smoking when Frank comes over and sits beside me, reaching over and stealing the cigarette from between my lips. "Hey, you look great." I feel my face blush as I look over at him and say "Thanks Frankie." He passes the cigarette back after taking a drag and we share the rest of it, passing it back and forth until it's gone. Once we're done Frank leads me out onto the street and we get in a cab, heading across town to the bar where the gig is and from the crowd out the front I can tell it's going to be a wild night. We head to the side entrance, being let in and we go backstage where the rest of the band and a few other guys I recall seeing at the party are hanging around, drinking and having a good time. "I'm gonna hit the bathroom, I'll be back in a minute" Frank tells me before leaving and I'm left standing in the corner awkwardly, the only other person I really know being Ian and he has a girl in his lap. I look down at my feet, feeling really out of place when someone comes to stand beside me and I look up to see it's Spence, the bands drummer. "Hey" I offer and his face goes dark as he says "I hope you're happy." "What?" "You're ruining the band you fucking slut, Frank and Ian will barely speak to each other anymore and they fucking live together so that makes it worse." I swallow hard, feeling a lump in my throat as I say "They're really fighting because of me?" "Yes. We were all better off before you so you should fuck off" he spits at me and even through he's clearly almost drunk I can tell he means it. I nod, feeling my bottom lip quiver as I turn and walk away, making my way back outside and onto the street where I am immediately noticed by a group of very drunk guys who have stepped outside the bar to smoke. "Hey baby, you all alone?" One slurs at me as he stumbles towards me and I sigh before saying "I'm straight, sorry" and I push past him, heading into the bar to watch from the crowd, still wanting to see Frank play. Once I go inside I line up to get a drink when my phone starts buzzing in my pocket and I pull it out, seeing it's Frank but I don't answer, not wanting to cause any more problems. I finally get a drink and find a place to stand in the crowd over to the side when the current band goes off and Franks band comes on. I watch Frank get ready and he looks nervous and upset and I hope it's not my fault he's upset. The set passes quickly, the guys playing only five songs before they go off stage again and I'm ready for another cigarette so I head outside, running into the same guys from before who appear to be even drunker now. "Hey" one of them says, reaching out and grabbing my arm as he approaches me. "Let go" I say, trying to sound harsh but my voice wobbles at the end and gives away how uneasy I am. "Aww no need to be like that honey. I just want to talk to you." "I'm not interested" I tell him and his drunken smile turns into a frown as he pushes me back against the side of the bar and says "There's no need to be rude you bitch" and his friends close in on either side, blocking me in against the wall and I start to panic. "Get the fuck off him" I hear and I close my eyes, praying that the voice wasn't just in my head. "Fuck off midget, this has nothing to do with you." "Well you're touching my boyfriend so Id say it has everything to do with me" Frank snaps and I open my eyes just in time to see Franks fist collide with the guys jaw, knocking him to the ground and freeing me from his grip. The guys friends back off as the guy stands back up and
swings at Frank who dodges it and throws another punch into the guys face and he doesn't stop this time, Frank clenching his hand in the guys shirt as he punches him repeatedly. "Frank stop" I yell and he hesitates before letting go of the guy who falls to the ground and lets out a low groan. "Gee are you ok?" Frank asks as he steps over to me and cups my face in his hands. "Yeah I'm fine" I tell him before adding "Thanks for helping me, I should probably get going." "Why? I thought we were hanging out and you just bailed, what the hell?" "I saw the show, you guys were great" I offer and he nods before saying "What happened?" I shrug before quietly saying "I don't want to ruin your friendship or your band so I'm gonna go." "What? You're not ruining anything babe." "I know you and Ian are fighting and I don't want to cause that so...." "Who told you that?" "Spence, it's fine, I can just go." "No Gee please, I want to spend time with you." "Really?" "Yeah, please stay?" I sigh again before saying "Yeah ok if you want me to."

Frank and I go back inside and after the guys pack up their stuff we head off to his apartment, having the place to ourselves as Ian is staying at the girls place. We get back and I lay down on the couch as Frank goes to take a shower and change out of his sweaty clothes and when he comes back his hair is damp and he's only wearing loose sweat pants that hang low on his hips, all his tattoos on display. I feel my mouth water at the sight, my dick stirring in my jeans and I try not to stare but I can't help myself. "You want pizza?" Frank asks and I nod, Frank leaving the room to call and order some before coming back and sitting on my legs, not waiting for me to move. We start a movie and I shift around on the couch so Frank has room too and after the pizza gets there and we eat I sprawl out and lay my feet in his lap. "Comfy?" He asks, smirking down at me and I smile back as I nod and he shakes his head before turning his attention back to the tv. The movie is almost over when I catch Frank staring at me instead of the tv and I turn my head to look at him. "What?" I ask and he shifts around quickly, climbing over to straddle my waist as he leans down and presses his lips to mine. I immediately kiss back, sliding my hands up to tangle in his hair and he lets out a soft groan as he lowers his body down to press against mine and we keep kissing, our tongues working together until we need to break for air, both of us panting into each other's mouths. "Frankie I....." "Gee baby I love you and I want you back, please. It scared me so fucking much seeing you surrounded by those guys and I would have killed that guy if it meant you would be safe." My mouth drops open at his confession and I breathe out again before saying "Frankie I love you too and I need to take this slow ok? I don't think I could handle being hurt again." "Never ever again baby, I promise" Frank whispers out, his eyes locked with mine and I nod before leaning up and resealing our lips again. We continue to make out on the couch before I break away from his mouth and say "I think we should go to your room."

Notes

Sorry I'm slow with the updates at the moment, I'm really sick and any time I'm not at work I just want to sleep because I feel so bad but I forced myself to stay awake to write this so I hope it makes sense : )