You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Later that afternoon there's a knock on the door and I get up off my bed, Patrick out somewhere and I assume it will be someone looking for him but when I open the door I see Bert. "Hey" he greets me before saying "Hope you don't mind, I asked around to find which room was yours." "Oh no problem" I tell him, smiling wide. "Would you like to hang out? If you're not busy I mean." "Uh yeah that sounds nice, did you have anything in mind?" "Well I was wondering if you wanted to go see a movie maybe?" "Sure just let me grab my jacket" I tell him, stepping back into the room and throwing on a jacket and slipping my wallet and cell into my pocket. Bert and I take the short walk to a nearby theatre and on the way we make small talk about what we're studying. Bert lines up to get tickets for a horror movie that is starting in twenty minutes before he asks if I'd like any candy or popcorn. I politely refuse, just getting a drink before we line up to go into the theatre and once we're in and seated in the dimly lit room Bert slides his arm around my waist and pulls me into his side. I go willingly, the feeling that the close contact sends through me making me feel good for a change and we continue to make small talk until we're cut off by a group of guys who have just come in and are making a lot of noise. I turn my head to look back at them and I freeze when I see it's Frank and his friends along with a few other guys I don't know. I quickly turn back around, hoping he doesn't notice me when I remember I have bright red hair and I'm really fucking hard to miss. The guys continue to be loud and disrupting and just before the lights go down Bert and I start being showered in popcorn and when I turn my head I lock eyes with Frank who looks hurt and betrayed and I see that it's him throwing the popcorn at us. I bite my bottom lip, feeling upset and confused and the lights go down, leaving the room in almost total darkness and I turn back towards the screen, taking a deep breath and trying not to cry. The first ten minutes of the movie I spend feeling Franks eyes burning a hole in the back of my head as I try to figure out what to do. On one hand Bert is totally different now and I actually enjoy spending time with him. He's clearly attracted to me and wants more than friendship but I don't know that I could ever date him. And then there's Frank who makes me
feel things that scare me after what happened between us and he clearly still loves and wants me and I feel like I'm hurting and betraying him by hanging out with Bert even though we're only friends. I'm starting to think maybe the only way to get out of this is to be friends with both of them and refuse to date either one when I feel Bert's free hand cup my cheek and start tilting my head towards his right before his lips touch mine and I freeze, stunned for a second before I offer him a small closed mouth kiss back before pulling away and he smiles wide at me in the limited lighting and I offer a weak smile back before glancing over my shoulder to see Franks friends are still there but he's no longer with them, his seat empty. I turn back to the screen, trying to focus on the gore taking place but I can't and a few minutes later I glance over my shoulder again and he's still not there. I lean over to Bert and whisper "I'll be right back" before getting up and leaving the theatre, wandering through the lobby and checking the bathroom before stepping outside and I find Frank sitting on the ground against the wall, puffing on a cigarette. I walk over and sit beside him, remaining silent until I'm settled before turning my head and looking at him, taking in his hurt but pissed off expression. "You ok?" I ask and he scoffs at me before saying "Do you not want to date me because you're dating him?" "No" I tell him honestly. "Im not dating him, we were just hanging out and he kissed me. I don't want to date you right now because honestly, I don't trust you again yet." Hurt takes over his face and he says "I guess I deserve that but why are you kissing him infront of me? Is this some kind of payback?" "You really think I'm like that? I didn't kiss him, he kissed me and I wouldn't fucking do that Frank, I'm not some shitty excuse for a human being who would intentionally hurt someone like that but if that's what you think...." I trail off, feeling irrationally angry as I stand up and walk away, ignoring his protests as I make my way back inside to Bert.

Once the movie is over Bert and I stand and he reaches for my hand which I let him hold and we make our way up the aisle to the exit, brushing past Frank and his friends, Frank attempting to get my attention by putting his hand on my shoulder but I shrug him off as I keep walking past him, leaving with Bert and not looking back. Once we're out on the street Bert turns to me and says "Wanna get some coffee before we head back?" "Sure" I tell him, offering him a smile and he smiles back before squeezing my hand and leading me towards a coffee shop a block away. Just as we settle in a booth with our drinks the door to the store opens and Frank and his friends walk in, his friends still being loud and obnoxious but Frank is quite and looks rather upset. I turn my attention back to Bert and we continue to talk and laugh together and a few minutes later my phone beeps in my pocket. "You wanna get that?" Bert asks and I smile as I say "It's ok, I'm sure it can wait." "Oh it's fine really" he tells me and I shoot him an apologetic smile as I slip it from my pocket and open the message, wishing I hadn't. 'Have you slept with him? I bet he's not as good as me, I bet he can't make you cum as hard as I did last night.' I turn my head to see Frank sitting three booths away with his friends, staring at me with an unreadable expression. 'No I haven't and even if I did that's none of your fucking business. This is not helping you at all' I send back before pocketing my phone again and when it beeps again a few minutes later I ignore it, not wanting to know what he's said now. After we finish our coffee Bert and I head back to the campus and as we go to enter the dorm building I swear I see Frank trying to hide in the bushes nearby. I make my way to my room and once I'm inside I flop down on my bed and pull my phone from my pocket, remembering the text I received but didn't read. 'Im sorry baby I just love you so fucking much and it's killing me to see you being close with someone else and I'm scared you're not going to pick me' and I feel my eyes well with tears as I read it, feeling even more confused than before.

Notes

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