You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

I'm sitting on my bed sketching, almost ready to call it a night when Frank comes back into the room. "Hey" he says softly and I nod my head once, not bothering to even look up at him. "Did you have a nice time?" I ask and my voice just sounds sad and pathetic, even to me. "Yeah, sorry Gerard. I met heaps of people tho. Your brother seems pretty cool." "Yeah" I say, putting my sketch book in the drawer beside the bed and rolling onto my side, my back to Frank as I pull the blanket over myself. I hear Frank pacing over near his bed before his footsteps get closer and he rests his hand on my shoulder. "I'm sorry I ditched you Gerard, I still want to be your friend." "If you want" I tell him, feeling my bottom lip quiver again but I bite the inside of my cheek and keep my tears in. "I do, I really do" he tells me before removing his hand from me and walking back over to his bed.

The next morning we take turns with the bathroom before heading to the cafeteria together for breakfast. We grab our food and make our way to empty table and half way through eating Pete comes over and sits beside Frank. "Hey Frankie, come sit with us over there" he says, pointing to an over crowded table where I can see Mikey laughing at someone. Frank glances over at me before saying "Yeah ok only if Gerard can come too." "Who?" Pete asks, his eyes snapping over like he's only just noticed I'm here. "Oh hi" he says before adding "Gerard is it? Nice to meet you, are you new here too?" I scoff at him and go to stand up and leave the table. "No actually he's been here a while and you should really know who he is, he's only the brother of your roommate after all." Pete stares at me in shock before saying "Seriously? I had no idea Mikes had a brother." "Well I'm only his twin so why would you?" I snap, standing up and grabbing my bag. "Gerard wait" Frank says before turning to Pete and saying "Look, I'm sitting with Gerard for now so I'll catch up with you later?" "Yeah sure sounds good, you know where the party is" he says, smirking to himself before standing up. "Nice to meet you" he throws my way half heartedly. "Yeah sure" I snap, suddenly not feeling very good. Pete walks away and Frank turns his gaze back on me. "I'm going back to the room, I feel sick" I tell Frank before running from the cafeteria. Ten minutes later Frank comes into the room and walks over to my bed side. "Gerard I'm sorry this school is so shit for you" he offers and I shrug. "Whatever." "I'm taking the day off with you" he tells me and I shrug again. We spend the whole day in our room and after a while Frank gets me to open up and talk, both of us asking questions until we know a lot about each other. "Gay or straight?" He asks and I bite my lip before saying "Gay, is that a problem?" Frank smiles before replying "Nah, that would be just slightly hypocritical." I nod, smiling to myself at the good news. "Do you have a crush on anyone here?" I feel my face heat up and he giggles this cute little giggle before saying "Busted. You gotta tell me who it is, maybe I can help play match maker." "I....I...." I stutter out, not knowing what to say. "Aww c'mon you can tell me." "You" I blurt out, feeling my heart stop momentarily. "Oh" he says and in that second I truly wish I could die on command. The second seems to drag on forever before Frank breaks the silence. "Uh, I dunno what to say." "Don't say anything" I tell him, getting up from my bed and planning on making a hasty escape out the door, humiliation washing through me. I'm halfway to the door when I feel a hand circle around my wrist. "Wait" Frank says, his voice a little lower that before. I turn my head to look at him and when I open my mouth to ask if I can go and die alone now he leans up on his toes and kisses me. I stand there unmoving, shocked and he pulls away, a worried look on his face. "Um..." He mutters and I suddenly snap back to myself and lean in to kiss him, actually moving my lips this time. We kiss for a few seconds, our tongues just barely brushing before we pull apart and Frank smiles up at me. "Wow, that was pretty amazing." "Yeah" I whisper, my hand coming up to touch my lips, my whole body tingling. We stand there staring at each other for a few seconds before we move at the same time, me leaning down as Frank stretches up, our lips colliding and it's the greatest feeling I've ever felt. Franks hands slide up to tangle in my hair, pulling me down just a little more and I grip his hips, pulling his body closer to mine as our tongues tangle together and we kiss like we don't need air.

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