You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Pete helps me inside and Mikey runs over and helps support me as they bring me in and sit me on the small couch in their room. Mikey sits beside me and I launch myself at him, clinging to his shirt and he rubs my back as he says "Gee what happened?" "Bert.....rape....punch" are the only intelligible words in my rambling and Mikey pulls back as he says "Gee did Bert rape you?" I shake my head before choking out "Tried." Mikey pulls me back into his arms and I collapse against his chest, not noticing Pete leave the room. After a few minutes I calm down a little and pull away from Mikey, sitting forward and resting my head in my hands as I take a few deep breaths. "Are you alright Gee?" He asks softly and I choke out "I want Frankie" my voice wavering as I try to keep from crying again. "Ok hang on" he tells me as he climbs off the couch and grabs his phone, dialling Franks number but he doesn't answer. "Sorry Gee" he says and I say "It's not your fault." We sit in silence for a while before Pete comes back in, his clothes slightly messed up, my sketch book in his hand. "Is this yours Gee? I found it outside." "Yes" I say as I stand up and grab it, clutching it to my chest as I make my way out the door, rushing down the hall towards the stairs, going up to my room, ignoring the calls from Mikey. Once I'm in mine and Franks room I lock the door and walk over to my bed, laying down and grabbing my phone off the table, trying to call Frank again. He still doesn't answer and after the tenth time I attempt to call him I give up, closing my eyes and crying myself to sleep.

The next morning I wake up and immediately decide I'm not getting out of bed today, feeling that I'm safer here. I roll over and grab my phone, seeing no messages or calls from Frank, just one from Mikey and I feel my eyes well with tears again. Frank promised to be there and when I actually need him he's abandoned me. I drop the phone back onto the table and roll back over, closing my eyes and pulling the blanket over my head, going back to sleep. The next time I wake up it's to my phone buzzing against the table top and I reach out and grab it, seeing Franks name on the screen. "Where have you been?" I yell into the phone and Frank says "Gee calm down. I was hanging out with Tom last night it got late so I stayed there, I didn't hear my phone. What were you calling me so much for? Are you ok?" I scoff into the phone as I say "Did you fuck him?" "What?" "Did you fuck Tom?" "Gee I..." "Yes or no, did you fuck him?" "No I didn't but baby, we kissed but I swear it didn't mean anything." I hang up, turning my phone off and throwing it on the floor, closing my eyes again and screaming into my pillow until I fall asleep again. The next time I wake up it's to someone pounding on the door and Mikey's voice yells out "Gee answer me, you don't have to let me in just let me know you're ok. Come on Gee please, answer me or I'll get the janitor and get him to let me in." "Leave me alone" I scream out as I throw my phone at the door. "Gee what happened? Franks been calling and texting me all afternoon worried about you." "Fuck him, fuck everyone in this goddamn school" I yell back and he says "Gee, what did Frank do? Pete and I always have your back now, anything you need we'll do it." "He kissed someone else so if you wanna help me, find me another dorm room where I can be alone again cause I don't want him in my room anymore." Mikey falls silent before he says "Shit Gee, I'm sorry. Look I'll see what I can do for you, is there anything else I can do?" "Leave me alone" I call back, the anger gone from my voice and I just sound broken and defeated. Mikey calls back "Ok Gee, I'll go but I'll come back and check on you later." I pull the blanket back over my head and lay in the dark, wishing I was anywhere but here right now.

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