You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

"Ian" I say softly as I cross the room, sitting on the edge of the bed and Ian turns his head to look over at me. "What?" He snaps and I sigh as I say "Ok I'm making an effort here, trying to be a friend to you" I tell him and he hums softly and says "I'm sorry." "What's going on?" "I just, Mikey's taken Pete back and...." "You said the other day you didn't even like Mikey, and Pete's gotta get through me first before anything happens there." "And you have forgiven Frank and what do I have? Nothing. When's it going to be my time to have someone to be happy with?" "What about Bert?" "He doesn't want to be serious and besides he's not...." "He's not what?" I push and Ian sighs, burying his face in the pillow again before mumbling out "He's not you." "Oh Ian" I sigh softly as I shift to lay down beside him and he shuffles over to cuddle into my side. I slowly wrap my arm around him as I say "Ian we can't do this and trust me, I feel like shit that you feel this way but I love Frank." "Why not me?" He asks, his voice cracking and I tighten my arm around him as I softly say "Because I met Frank first and there's just something about him, I can't walk away from him. Maybe if we had met first things might be different now." "I could make you so happy Gee, I'd never do anything to hurt you." "I know, but we can't, we'll never....." "I know" he says softly before he shuffles closer and buries his face in my neck, my skin getting wet from his tears and his body shakes slightly as he whimpers "Please just hold me for a minute." "Of course" I say softly as I slowly rub my hand up and down his back, shushing him softly until the door opens slightly and Frank sticks his head in, his face looking slightly pissed off until he hears Ian's soft whimpers and he comes over and sits on the bed on Ian's other side, his hand reaching out to gently touch his back. After Ian calms down Frank leaves the room again and Ian sits up, rubbing at his eyes as I sit up too and as I go to get off the bed he reaches out and grabs my hand. "Thank you Gee." "It's ok" I tell him and he shakes his head as he says "I don't deserve your kindness. You're my best friend Gee and I know you probably don't feel the same way about me but...." "You're my best friend Ian, of course you are. I've never met anyone besides Frank that has just so openly accepted me for who I am and has never turned their back on me. You don't need to thank me for being there because that's what best friends do for each other." Ian lets go of my hand and I stand up, Ian climbing off the bed to stand beside me and he pulls me into a hug before we let each other go and I leave the room, stopping at the door to turn back and say "If you wanna go out trolling for guys I think I'd make a good wingman" and Ian bursts out laughing as I walk through the door, pulling the door closed behind me.

When I get back to the living room Frank is sitting on our couch and I walk over and sink down sideways onto his lap, my arms sliding around his neck as I lean in and whisper "I'm sorry I took so long." "It's ok, you're a good friend that's all." "You know nothing is going on right?" "I know baby, love you" he whispers before pressing a kiss to my cheek and I pull back slightly and smile at him, Frank smiling back. "So do you guys wanna go grab some dinner?" Mikey asks and I turn my head to look back at Frank and he shrugs and says "Yeah ok." "Should we ask Ian?" Mikey asks and I sigh before saying "Uh....leave it to me." I climb off Franks lap and head back out into the hallway, running into Ian on his way to the bathroom. "Hey Ian we're gonna head out and grab dinner somewhere, do you wanna come?" "Oh I dunno, I don't really wanna intrude on your date or whatever when I'm alone and...." "You can be my date, it's not really gonna be like that." "Ok just give me a minute then." "Alright, we'll be in the living room when you're ready" I tell him with a smile and he smiles back before going into the bathroom. When Ian's finally ready we all head out, going to a pub with a kitchen and we get a booth, ordering food and while we wait Mikey goes to the bar for the first round of drinks and I turn my attention on Pete. "So you may have Mikey blinded by love you piece of shit but if you want him back you're gonna have to win me over again and I'm not so easily persuaded. How could you do that to him?" I snap and Pete swallows hard as Frank and Ian join me in glaring at him.

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