You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

I stare at Frank until he shifts his gaze and is looking directly into my eyes and once our gazes lock anger flashes across his face and he spits out "So you are fucking him?" I shove against Ian as I try to sit up and I say "No, I swear Frankie I'm not." "Then what the fuck is going on?" "He...." I turn my attention back to Ian as I say "Please get off me." Ian smirks down at me and Frank sighs before saying "Ok Ian that's enough." "What?" I ask, confused by the sudden smile that's breaking out on Franks face and Ian climbs off my lap, sending me a smile as he leans down to ruffle my hair before he turns to leave the room and I turn my attention to Frank, a frown on my face. "What the hell is going on?" "I just had to be sure" he says and it suddenly clicks in my head. "You set this up? You asked Ian to come in here and act like he was going to fucking rape me or something?" Frank doesn't say anything, biting at his bottom lip as his forehead creases and I get out of bed and cross the room to get in his face. "So you don't trust me? After everything we've been through you're the one who doesn't trust me? This is fucking bullshit" I spit at him and his face changes from worried to sad and he says "No Gee I just wanted to make sure..." "Well you made sure of one thing Frank, now I don't trust you anymore" I tell him as I push past him, leaving the room and pulling the door closed behind me. As I make my way down the hall Ian steps out of his room and grabs my arm but I violently yank it out of his grip as I turn to face him and I say "Fuck you Ian, why would you do that to me?" "Look Frank and I have been fighting a lot because of what happened and he brought up this idea and...." "Well I hope you two are happy now because I'm fucking done." "Gee...." "Fuck off Ian" I snap as I turn and walk away and just as I reach the front door, pausing to pull my shoes on Frank comes out of the bedroom and I flip him off, sending him one last glare before I open the door, stepping out and slamming it shut behind me.

I wander around feeling confused, upset and angry for a while until my anger fades and I'm just left feeling hurt. It hurts to think that Frank doesn't trust me and as I wander around I realise I don't want to go back there right now. I stop walking and pull a cigarette from my pocket, lighting it and smoking about half before my thoughts settle down enough that I can think straight and I pull out my phone, calling the only person in the city I trust right now. The phone rings for a few seconds before a familiar voice says "Hello?" "Bert it's Gee." "Hey Gee what's up?" "I kinda....I need a place to stay tonight and I have no one else I could...." I say, getting more upset the more I speak until Bert cuts me off. "Hey it's alright, come to the dorms, I'll wait for you outside." "Thanks Bert, I'll be there in like ten minutes." We hang up and I start walking towards campus, smoking another cigarette on my way and when I get there Bert is sitting on the edge of the garden outside and when he sees me he stands and walks towards me, wrapping his arms around me and I melt into the hug. "Come on, let's go in and you can tell me all about it" he says, leading me inside and once we get into his room we sit on his bed and I tell him everything. By the time I finish Bert lets out a small huff before saying "That's fucked up." "Yeah I know." "So do you actually want to sleep with Ian?" "I thought I did, but then after that thing in his office, I know I don't. Frank showing up made me realise that I've been fucking up but he's the only I really want and I think kissing Ian was just kinda my way of showing him just a fraction of how much he's hurt me and now I don't know if I can even trust him."

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