You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

My day passes in a blur and I feel like I'm running late all day, barely making it to each of my classes on time and feeling frantic while I'm in them. After my last class for the day I breathe a sigh of relief and head off campus, planning on going home and crawling back into bed to wait for Frank when I hear my name being called and I turn to see Bert rushing towards me. "Hey" I greet him with a smile when he reaches me and he smiles back as he says "What are you upto?" "Just heading home" I tell him and he nods and says "You wanna hang out?" "Yeah sure, we could go back to mine and watch a movie?" I suggest and he smiles wider and says "Yeah sounds good, let me just drop my stuff in my room and I'll be right back." I nod and walk to his dorm building with him, taking a seat outside and lighting up a cigarette while I wait for him. Five minutes later he comes back out with a sheepish grin on his face as he says "Sorry, got caught up talking." "It's alright" I reassure him before standing up and we start the walk to the apartment. When we get there I tell Bert to pick a movie and make himself comfortable and I go into the bedroom to dump my bag, stopping by the kitchen for a drink for us before heading into the living room and settling beside Bert on the couch, handing him his drink. "Thanks" he says just as the movie menu appears on the screen and I see he's picked The Rocky Horror Picture Show and I smirk over at him. "Really?" "Dude do not tell me you don't like it" he says and my smirk turns into a grin as I say "No I fucking love it I just didn't think it would be your thing." "Why cause I used to have issues and punch people a lot and pretend I wasn't gay?" I feel my face drop when he brings up the past and he sighs before saying "You know I'm really sorry about that right?" I nod and shoot him a weak smile and he slides his arm around my shoulders and pulls me into his side. "I wish I could take it all back, you never deserved any of the shit I put you through." "I forgive you" I tell him and he smiles at me and says "Fuck you're so amazing, Frank is really lucky to have you" and I sit back up and giggle slightly.

We make it fifteen minutes into the movie when Bert pulls a bag with a few joints in it from his pocket and says "You wanna?" I raise my eyebrow at him, having never tried it before, only smoking cigarettes and I shrug before nodding. "You've never have you?" He asks and I shake my head as I smile sheepishly and Bert laughs before saying "Ok we'll share one then, I don't want to fuck you up your first try." I nod and he takes one out, sticking it between his lips and lighting it, inhaling deeply before pulling it away and slowly exhaling, offering it to me and I take it, looking at it warily before taking a drag myself and I cough sharply, the smoke escaping my mouth in small patches and Bert chuckles before saying "It might take a few to get used to it, sorry I should have warned you." I shake my head and hand it back to him so he can take another hit and after a few goes I don't cough anymore. Once the first joint is done I slump back, feeling a little loose but I don't think I'm high and Bert tells me to give it a minute, both of us still focusing on the movie and after another five minutes he pulls another one out and we share it again, passing it back and forth and by the time the second joint is done I definitely feel different and Bert and I start singing along, giggling and he suddenly stands up, pulling me up with him and linking his fingers through mine, both our hands linked between our chests and he starts dancing me around the living room while we sing along and giggle. Bert tries to spin me around but we bump into the coffee table and I fall, my arms flailing out to stop myself and I end up clenching a fistful of Bert's shirt, pulling him down with me and when we hit the floor we both break out into even louder giggles. "What the fuck?" I hear being asked loudly and I roll my head, breaking the eye contact I have with Bert as he lays half ontop of me and I see Frank and Ian standing by the couch, Ian looking amused and Frank looking ready to break stuff. I let out another giggle as I shove Bert off me and stand up, stumbling across to Frank and wrapping my arms around his waist, planting a sloppy kiss to his cheek. "You're home" I exclaim as I bury my face in his neck and Frank grips my hips and forces me to step back, breaking our contact and I pout as he stares at me and says "You're high?" I giggle and nod my head and he sighs before saying "Come on" and takes my hand, leading me from the room and calling over his shoulder "Ian can you take care of that?" And Ian calls back "Yeah." Frank leads me
to the bathroom and starts the shower, turning back while it heats up to help me undress and his hands on me tickle, causing me to squirm and giggle and once I'm naked I press up against him and say "You wanna fool around?" And he steps back and shakes his head. "No I want you to sober up." I pout and say "You're no fun Frankie." "Get in the damn shower Gerard. You need to sober up and you fucking stink, come onto me when you're clean and clear headed." "Fuck you Frank" I spit at him, feeling very upset as I step into the shower and sink to the floor, crossing my arms over my chest as I sit under the hot spray with my back to Frank. I hear him sigh before the sound of the door opening and closing reaches my ears and I turn back around to see I'm alone now and I feel my bottom lip quiver as my eyes prick with tears and I stand back up, climbing out of the shower and wrapping a towel around my waist, not bothering to dry off as I leave the room, the water still running and I drip water all over the floor as I walk down the hall and into the bedroom where I see Frank standing infront of the closet. "I'm sorry" I say with a shaky voice and Franks head snaps up to look over at me. "Babe what the fuck?" "I'm sorry Frankie I didn't mean what I said. Please don't hate me" I sob out, tears starting to fall down my cheeks. "Baby" he coos softly as he steps over and wraps his arms around me, not caring that his shirt is getting wet from my still wet body. "I was just getting you some clean clothes, I don't hate you, I could never hate you. I love you so much." "Really?" I sniffle out and Frank chuckles softly as he says "Really baby, go hop back in the shower and I'll be right there, I might even get in with you if you're lucky." I smile and nod as I pull away, Frank planting a soft kiss to my forehead before I turn and go back to the bathroom, dropping my towel on the floor and stepping back in under the hot spray, my mind starting to feel a little clearer.

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