You Can Cry All You Want To, I Don't Care

Beep beep beep.

My alarm goes off and I roll over and slam my hand down onto it, relishing in the silence that follows. I roll back onto my back and let out a loud sigh. 'Here we go again' I think, 'Another day in hell.' I drag myself out of bed, going into the small bathroom attached to my room, taking a quick shower before throwing on my uniform, struggling with my tie before deciding it's a lost cause and balling it up in my hand, shoving it into my pocket before grabbing my bag, making my way out of my room and locking the door behind me, pocketing the key. I wander down the hall, keeping my head down, my gaze fixed on the floor and praying I don't run into Bert on my way to the cafeteria for breakfast. I hate Bert so much, ever since I started here I have become his number one choice for punching bag and as much as it hurts, enduring his physical and verbal abuse, part of me thinks 'Well atleast he notices you.' I am invisible here and as pleasant as that may sound, some days I really hate it. The only person in this whole place who I can talk to besides the teachers is my brother, Mikey, but even then I don't want to ruin his popular reputation so we only speak when he approaches me, which isn't all that often. I walk into the cafeteria, thankful I made it here unscathed and I stand in line, collecting a small amount of food before making my way to the table in the back corner, the only place I can sit, every other table taken up by people who actually have friends and are liked. I sit down and start to slowly pick at my breakfast, my apatite not that big when a hand touches my shoulder and I flinch, fearing Bert but it's Mikey. "Oh, hey Mikes" I greet him and he smiles at me like he feels sorry for me before sitting down. "Hey Gee, you ok?" I shrug my shoulders at him and he sighs but doesn't say anything else. We sit in silence for a few seconds before he says "Still can't tie it huh?" Gesturing to my neck and I shake my head, pulling the tie from my pocket and handing it to him, letting him tie it for me. Just as he's finishing Pete, his douche bag roommate, comes over and says "Hey dickbag we're eating over here" grabbing his arm and pulling him up. Both of them walk away without a word to me and I sigh to myself, feeling lonelier than ever. I check my phone and it's almost time for my first lesson today so I stand, dumping my tray as I leave the cafeteria and I'm heading down the hallway to my first class when someone grabs my arm and a familiar voice says "Well well what do we have here?" 'So much for being invisible' I think as I turn to face Bert.

I arrive to my first class ten minutes late, my lip bleeding a little and my stomach aching. "Mr Way" the teacher snaps and when I look up he frowns but allows me to slink into my seat. I spend the whole lesson with my head down, not paying attention to anyone else in the room and when the bell rings, signalling the end of the lesson I shove my book back in my bag and stand up, making my way out the door when a very warm hand gently touches my back. I turn to see the most amazingly beautiful boy I've ever seen in person standing there. "Hey, I heard the teacher call you Mr Way so I'm guessing you're Gerard?" I nod, unsure if this is some kind of sick game Bert is playing on me. "I'm Frank Iero. I'm going to be your roommate." "Oh" I say, surprised and annoyed at the same time. I enjoy having my own room but having a roommate would be nice too. 'He'll turn out like everyone else and then there'll be no escape' my mind shouts at me and I try to force a smile but it doesn't work. "Nice to meet you, I have to go" I blurt out, turning and leaving before I can make things any more awkward or get my hopes up that I might finally make a friend. I rush to my next class and just before the teacher starts to talk one last late student comes rushing in and approaches the teacher, getting a slip signed before coming and taking the seat next to me. "Hey roomie" Frank chirps happily and I shoot him a small, extremely forced smile before turning back to my sketch that I'm working on rather than the actual work for this class.

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