Loving my older brother

Mikey knew this was wrong, beyond the worst thing he ever felt. He couldn't imagine what Gerard would think of him, what he would even say. Mikey took a puff from his inhaler, becoming panicked and scared. He loved his brother, more than he ever should. He wanted him to kiss him and date him. Mikey's thoughts were scrambled as he tried to push aside the fact that it would be ultimate rejection from his brother.

Mikey could never tell him, he just sulked in his room with nothing to do. He was on his laptop until late at night, listening to music and playing some time passing games. He closed it and laid in bed, he had been having nightmares recently. It was always of the same thing, he prepared for it as he closed his eyes and drifted into his horror of dreams...

It was cold, freezing at the most. My teeth chattered as I walked through the streets. I was crying, my tears like ice as they slid down my pale cheeks. I'm lost, I thought. I had no idea where I was. In the ghetto of Jersey, I smelled the rotting trash and the dirty street sides.

"Gerard..." I called out, I was scared. I wanted him, he always made me feel better. "Gerard!" I called out again only louder. I knew he wasn't coming to my rescue, I told him I loved him. He never came home after that.

I was still alone, I was foolish enough to go looking for him. "Please Gerard!" I yelled, my tears falling harder down my cheeks. I collasped in an alley, my legs hurt, I was practically frozen. I pulled my knees to my chest and cried more, "I'm sorry..." I whispered.

I heard footsteps coming close, my heard skipped a beat as my hope sparked up. "G-Gerard! I-Is that you?" I said.

Oh how I was wrong, three men came to me. They surrounded me, all three of them were wearing eye masks. The three men were big, strong, no way I could ever take them in a fight.

"Well well well, look what we have here..."
"He's a nice twink huh? I bet he is nice and tight..."

My eyes widened, before I could even call for help they had me in their hold. My hair was being pulled back as I felt one of the men biting my neck, causing me to cry out. They duct taped my mouth and tore off my clothes. My body hit the grimy alley way. They undid their pants, my tears was practically a waterful. I begged through the tape for them to stop, I called for Gerard by he would never come to me again...

The first one grabbed me and flipped me on my stomach, he shoved me down hard, my forehead bleeding from the impact. He then... he penetrated me... It felt like my body was tearing in half. I knew I was bleeding, I could feel him breaking me from the inside. No, No, No! Not like this, not like this... Why me?

The other two went after him, their sticky seed all over me, it mixed with my bleeding bites and tears. They ripped off the duct tape, I couldn't speak. Nothing came out of my mouth as they picked up my limp body. They threw me into a dumpster and closed the lid, everything turned black.

I woke up screaming, again. This has been the fifth time this dream has happened, and it was all the same. I cried my eyes out, my body practically hurt from my intense dream. Everything felt so real in the dream, my throat hurt. It hurt so bad and I clutched it.

My door burst open, It was Gerard, Gerard came to help me. I could see the worry in his eyes, the fear and concern he had for me. He wrapped his arms around me, he ran his fingers through my brown hair and soother me. I cried into his chest, I wasn't making a sound because my throat hurt from screaming. The tears continued to fall as he rocked me back and forth. His warmth felt so soothing, I felt the coldness still from my dream.

I nuzzled into his chest, my tears stopping after about 10 minutes of being soothed by his kind words. He was what made me feel safe, He made me feel like I was okay.

"Mikey, do you want to sleep in my bed with me? Until your night terrors end?" Gerard said in my ear, rubbing my back.

"Y-Yea..." I managed to choke out.

Gerard picked me up in his arms, I clung to him, not ever wanting to let go. He carried me to his room downstairs. He walked in with me in his arms still and shut the door with his foot, Gerard laid down with me. He pulled the black blanket over us, I nuzzled into him again and cuddled with him. I felt so safe, Gerard held me close "You're safe Mikey, I'm here..."

"I love you Gerard..." I whispered as I soon fell asleep

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