12 years later

gerards pov


i woke up just before my alarm which went off at five i slowly crept out the room throwing on my robe as i exited i closed the door and walked down the hall to Jason room his door was filled with posters and little doodles he had done it made me smile that he was like me in a way but caring like his father well his real father, Jason doesn't know that Reece isnt frank dad i couldn't bare him knowning that his true dad was a drunk and druggie, i opened the door slowly reveling jason asleep in a darken room, i walked over to him carefully trying my best not to step on dirty clothes i lightly shook him which caused him to stur awake

"come on its wednesday ill cook you pancakes" i whispered into his ear making him perk up,

he smiled at me with his big green eyes which looked too much like frank i know its weird but he just reminds me of him so much.
me and jason silently walked into the hall and into the kitchen i began to mix the batter while jason go the toppings out the cupboard, he got out a jar which slipped out of his hands which made a loud noise enough to wake reece i shut my eyes tight and took a deep breath.
once we ate jason go ready for school i kissed his head goodbye which he hated but i just love annoying him, when the door shut i went back into the kitchen and began to do the dishes, just as i finished i heard foot steps my heart began to race i held my breath for the impact which was bound to come


"what have i told you" reece snarled


"im sorry" i yelped as he grabbed my hair pulling me backwards into the bedroom he threw me on the floor and slammed the door shut stand over me i crawled backwards till i was in the corner


"its six in the fucking morning! what have i told you about waking me up!" he shouted

"that you'll punish me" i muttered


"what was that!"

"that-that you'll punish me" i said louder
he stepped back a little and kicked my stomach i yelped in pain as he did it over and over again,

"please" i began to sob

"please what? stop being a whinny bitch and stand up" he snapped i slowly stoop up curling slightly in pain

"take it off" he sneered

i untied my robe and let it fall on the floor i caught a glimpse of myself in the small mirror opposite me, my shoulders covered in purple and red bruises with small cuts that ran to just above my elbows,
reece grabbed my hair again and dragged me to the mirror

"look at you" he laughed

"look!" he shouted in my face i couldnt stop shaking i turned my head to look at myself my weight dropped, my skin a dirty colour that didnt look normal i could see scars on my cheeks and nose from when reece beat me and broke my nose a few months ago telling jason i got mugged even though i wasnt allowed out the house, i had to wear what reece chose and do the house work, he even asked my work to let me work from home which they agreed on, i closed my eyes and let out a shaky voice

"fuck you im going out" he said as he slapped me across the top of my head i cried out and put my head down

"where are you going?!" i cried out to him

"away from you and your kid" he muttered while pulling up his jeans

"our child"

"no gerard yours he's your kid not mine i just pretend so you dont have to go through the hole speech so save it ill be back in a day or so"

"a day?" i gasped i ran up to him hugging him "please dont go" i begged "i love you" i cried into his shirt

"i gotta go" he kissed my head and walked out as the front door slammed i jumped i was alone for a day or so.

he left to go out and i allowed it, its my fault hes always mad he loves me i know it he was just having a bad morning yeah just that i began to sob i crouched down and brought my knees up to my head i rocked back and forth weeping wishing reece was here

Notes

its so that good i just didnt know what to start it as and this was the best i had, its not gunna be good its going to be 'pov's' and only gerards and jasons hope its okay sorry guys ;((