Give Me All Your Hopeless Hearts (frerard)

GERARD'S P.O.V
It was halfway through the car journey to the hotel, when my phone rang. I glanced at Frank. He had beautiful short black hair with a fringe that rested forwards onto his stunning hazel eyes. He had cute, bright red, tempting lips that were often found caught between his teeth… Or on Jamia’s lips which made my heart shatter. He was just… Gorgeous, perfect… I glanced back at my phone. I put the electronic device on louder speaker and then placed it gently on my car’s dashboard, as I was driving.
“Hey babe,” I spoke to Lynz through the phone. I shuddered at my nickname for her.
“Hey! You left without saying bye,” I could hear Lynz’s slight annoyance in her voice.
“Yes, I’m sorry, honey…” I grimaced, slightly; the sweet names I called her… I only wanted to call one person that… And it definitely wasn’t Lynz; in fact it was the opposite of Lynz. “We had to get off early because of Mikey, y’know what he’s like,”
“Oh, whatever, you never spend that much time with me,” Lynz hissed. My grip tightened on the steering wheel and the next thing I know, Frank’s lips were by my ear.
“Are you okay?” He whispered. I nodded, shivering with pleasure at his hot breath on my skin.
“Yes, I spend too much time with you, actually,” I replied to Lynz, flatly. Frank was observing me, closely, a concerned look on his face.
“Anyway… I’ll visit you when you’re on tour,” Lynz insisted.
“Okay… I’ll look forwards to that,” I lied. Actually, going on tour was a way to escape Lynz. And a way to get with Frank more than her… “I’ve got to go now, talk to you later,” And before she could protest, I hung up on her and stuffed my phone in my pocket, sighing a little.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” Frank frowned.
“I’m fine, I’m positive,” I replied, through gritted teeth and then continued driving. Silence settled.
- - -
We arrived, eventually, at the hotel. It was named ‘Red Velvet Hotel’. We yanked our suitcases to the front door and checked in at the reception. Mikey and Ray were already in the apartment. Mikey looked incredibly sheepish, a smug expression laid across his face. Ray appeared to have a sympathetic look.
“What’s up…?” I asked, a little mysteriously. Frank stood next to me, and I watched him as he quirked one of his fine eyebrows.
“Well…” Mikey cleared his throat. “There were only 3 rooms... So two of us have to share a room…”
“And, I’m guessing it’s me and Frank?” I already knew it.
“Yes, but…” Mikey glanced down, pityingly. “Ray, you tell them.”
“Look, when we booked this, we totally did not realise that… The room is… Kind of…”
“What?” Frank tapped his foot, getting impatient.
“There isn’t two beds,” Ray blurted out. Oh, great. Just great. I have so many fucking uncontrollable, attracting, loving feelings for Frank, and now I’ve got to share a bed with him? Holy…
“Oh,” I managed to choke out. “Well… I’m going to unpack,”
With that, I dragged my suitcase to my – and Frank’s – bedroom, unpacking my clothes into the draw as we’d be staying at this hotel for the whole tour. Frank waddled in a little later.
“I hope this okay, I can sleep on the-”
“No, its fine,” I interrupted, continuing to unpack. Once I finished, I stretched a little, then flopped on our bed.
“You sure?” Frank stared at me, and it made me slightly uncomfortable under his gaze, as I wasn’t used to the attention.
“Yes, I’m positive… Unless you’re not…” I trailed off, my heart pounding maybe a little too fast.
“No! It’s fine…” Frank blushed, slightly, and began to unpack.
“Do you want help?” I queried. Frank nodded.
- - -
It was around 3am in the morning. I was next to Frank’s warm body; I just wanted to do so many things with him… Anyway, I couldn’t get to sleep, again. It’s the urge, fighting its way through me… Here, now I had to spill my feelings…
I had an alcohol addiction. It’s because my parents kicked me out, when I opened up to them – telling them I’m bi sexual. They didn’t care if I was with Lynz, they called me a disgrace. Whenever we had the time to go with our parents in-between the tour, Mikey always goes, not me. I could never see my parents; they never wanted me to be there. I hadn’t seen them since. The second reason, I didn’t like my appearance. Not dwelling on that, though… The third reason, I could never, ever, ever have Frank Iero as mine. Not, as in friend way, as in more than friend way. As in relationship way. And I was with Lynz, anyway.
So, there you have it.
I glanced at Frank to check if he was sleeping, which he was, and scrambled from the bed. It was extremely awkward when we both got into bed, because we had nothing to say, so we just both slept… Well, I didn’t. I crept past Ray’s and Mikey’s room, and down the corridor of the apartments, and then ended up… At the hotel’s bar.
- - -
I stumbled into the lift, and clicked on a number randomly until I found our apartment’s floor. I then managed to reach the apartment before slumping down the wall, giggling over nothing, then rolling about. Drinking eased the pain, and made me forget things for a while. I accidentally walked into the wall.
“Shh!” I hissed to wall, then crept comically into my bedroom, seeing Frank lie there. I decided to lie on the floor instead, sprawled out across it, like a starfish, and I chuckled, breathlessly again, before my heavy eyelids closed over my hazel orbs, and everything went black.
- - -
“What the fuck, Gerard?” Frank poked me, repeatedly.
“Go away, Lynz,” I groaned, rolling into Frank’s legs and hugging them.
“Aw, Gerard,” Frank cooed. I snapped open my eyes, my cheeks bright red.
“Sorry,” I apologised, getting up. “What did you want, anyway?” I scratched the back of my neck.
“You were lying on the floor and moving like crazy all night… Didn’t you want to sleep next to me?” Frank frowned.
“No, it’s just…” I raked my brain for an excuse. “I sleep-walk and stuff,”
“Alright…” Frank didn’t seem too convinced, but he didn’t push it. I breathed out, heavily. It was going to be hard to keep my secret, now that we were on tour again.
“God, I have such a fucking headache,” I complained, more to myself as I knew why. Hangovers.
“I have some tablets that could help?” Frank stated, and then bent over to search through his suitcase. Urgh… His ass… I groaned, frustrated, quietly to myself. Frank handed me two tablets, and I swallowed them both.
“I’m going to go and see how the others are doing and fetch some coffee, you coming?” I queried to Frank, who nodded, jumping next to me as we walked into the lounge to see Mikey and Ray, awake.
“Hey, guys,” I smiled, and began to make me and Frank some coffee.
“Hi,” Mikey and Ray chorused.
“I’m so excited for tonight, man…” Frank commented. “Haven’t performed in ages,”
“Fuck yeah! I can feel the energy pump already,” I replied, handing Frank the coffee. Our hands grazed slightly, and I glanced up at him, smiling a little.
“Thanks,” Frank muttered. “Yeah, man, it’s going to be epic,”
“Totally,” Mikey agreed.
“It’s going to be awesome, I can tell,” Ray butted in.
“Anyway… Breakfast, anyone?”

Notes

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